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Should I Love You?

Chapter: Six
Mixed Emotions


Sakura woke up suddenly. Her eyes didn't have a hard time opening or adjusting to the light, because there was no light to adjust to. It was pitch black and she could still feel the cool breeze coming from her window as the curtains blew about. She lazily rolled over to glance at her clock it read, 4:38am. Sakura groaned and rolled onto her back and threw her hands over her head rubbing her eyes. This was the third dream this week. Sakura was never the dreaming type until the Clow Cards came into her life. After that she stopped dreaming and went back to nothingness. These past few days she began to dream again, but what they all had in common, was that Li was in all of them. The first dream was when they were boyfriend and girlfriend again. They were so happy. The images of her in Li's arms. She would lean on his chest and sigh happily, as he rested his head on hers. The breeze was warm and refreshing. In the second dream they were already married and had a daughter. It was odd. She couldn't quite remember what happened in that dream, just like the one she just had now. Oh how she was so worried about him though. I mean, he still was her friend right? Sakura rolled her her side and stared blankly out the window and gazed at the yellow moon. She felt like she was going to cry, but no tears were coming out no matter how hard she tried. Soon enough she fell back into sleep.

"Good morning Sakura," A familiar warm voice greeted her as she walked down the stairs. Sakura smiled and yawned.
"Morning daddy," Sakura sighed and walked into the kitchen.
"Sleep well?" Mr. Kinomoto asked casually. Sakura froze at the thought, it's as if her Father knew. She stared at him thoughtfully for a moment, but his expression remained neutral.
"Yeah, fine, just fine," Sakura nodded still a little confused.
"That's good," Mr. Kinomoto smiled. "Oh, there is pancake on the counter," he informed as he pointed. Sakura glanced over at the food, but her appetite slowly faded.
"Uh, not hungry yet," Sakura replied making up an excuse. Mr. Kinomoto eyed her suspiciously.
"Is everything alright Sakura?" Mr. Kinomoto asked worriedly. Sakura was reluctant to answer. Her father had always been there when she had problems, but now that she was older she wanted to fight her own battles. She knew her father only meant well, but she wasn't sure if she could do this by herself.
"You know, if anything is wrong you can talk to me," Mr. Kinomoto smiled reassurringly.
"Why is it that you always know when something is wrong daddy?" Sakura sighed in defeat and took a seat next to him.
"Well I have to play mother and father in this family, it's instinct," He admitted. Sakura sat quietly for a moment grabbing her pants uncomfortably.
"Now please?" He asked politely.
"It's Li," Sakura began slowly. Her father almost immediately nodded and leaned back knowingly. Sakura explained her situation in a few minutes and when she was done her father sat there quietly thinking.
"Daddy?" Sakura asked nervously.
"I really feel sorry for him," He finally spoke.
"Well do you have any suggestions?" Sakura asked anxiously.
"I'm afraid not," He admitted.
"That's a first," Sakura mumbled utterly stumped.
"That's only because I think you've done everything you could do," He said patting her on the back. Sakura thought about her dreams for a moment, but didn't bother telling her father about those. There was also one more thing that she forgot to mention to Li, but she didn't think that he had to know. It wouldn't matter. Would it?
"Do you still love him?" Mr. Kinomoto finally asked. Sakura looked up at her father half in shock half nervous. It was rather uncomfortable answering a question like this to her dad. Sakura could only nod.
"Does he know that?" He asked.
"I don't think so," Sakura replied reluctantly.
"Well if you do he has to know," Mr. Kinomoto concluded. "A relationship won't get off the ground if the person doesn't love the other just as much. You both have to love eachother. I'm sure he still does. But either way, you should let him know Sakura," He nodded. Sakura didn't flinch. She knew her father was right, but she couldn't tell Li. Sakura had her reasons too, and they were valid ones.
"Maybe," Was all she could say. She then headed back upstairs to her room to think. When she got up there she threw herself back onto her bed. Why was she going crazy? This feeling was horrible. She put them into this situation and wasn't she supposed to deal with it? But she couldn't. She had to know how Li was dealing with this too. She had to call someone and ask. But who would know him the most? Sakura quickly grabbed the phone and dialed a number. ANY NUMER! She didn't care she just had to ask someone. The phone rang.
"Hello?" A familiar voice answered.
"Hi Meilin," Sakura spoke.
"Oh hi Sakura," Meilin greeted a little shocked that she was calling her.
"How are you?" Sakura asked trying to make conversation, though it was obvious that she was hiding something.
"Uh..fine, fine. Are you alright" Meilin replied a little confused at Sakura's tone.
"Yeah yeah, perfect," Sakura replied with a sigh. It was obvious she was lying now. There was a pause.
"Okay okay, so perfect is not the word! But never the less I'm fine," Sakura pouted on the other line.
"Really..." Meilin replied slowly.
"Yeah...well...umm...." Sakura studdered. "Have you heard anything from..." she asked leaving the rest of the sentence unsaid.
"Uh-huh, sadly," Meilin said reluctantly.
"Well? Are you going to tell me anything??" Sakura asked eagerly.
"Only if you want to know," Meilin offered.
"Isn't it obvious?" Sakura replied sarcastically. Her imaptience was getting the best of her now.
"Okay okay, keep your panties on Sakura," Meilin rolled her eyes. "Well to quote, he thinks he's dumb and blind," she continued.
"Dumb and blind?" Sakura almost snorted at the remark. "Care to elaborate?"
"He says that when he last talked to you he didn't really listen to what you were saying...well he listened...but he didn't really DO anything," Meilin explained. "That's why he felt dumb," she finished.
"Blind?" Sakura asked axiously.
"He said that he should have seen it coming that's all," Meilin shrugged.
"No, he shouldn't have seen it coming," Sakura spoke firmly.
"What?" Meilin asked utterly confused.
"If he had seen it coming that meant he didn't trust me," Sakura explained. Melin was silent.
"What else did he say?" Sakura asked breaking the silence.
"He said that he promised he'd wait for you, so you can be together when he came back. You promised you'd be there when he did...but...nope. I've waited 7 years for nothing." Meilin sighed. "Those were his exact words Sakura,"
"He really hates me doesn't he?" Sakura asked sadly.
"I'm not sure, but I don't think he HATES you. I think he's just frustrated with himself," Meilin suggested.
"Oh I see," Sakura nodded. "Anything else?" she asked not as eager as she was earlier.
"I was hesitating on telling you this one because ot was pretty mean, and rude. But it was what he truly felt...and showed his heart break," Meilin spoke reluctantly. Sakura didn't hesisitate she was frustrated and anxious all at once.
"Yes! Most definetely!! I don't care how rude or mean it is. I know what I did, and I want to know how badly I hurt him! I know it sounds wrong but Li is still my friend and I need to know! Not want to know NEED to know!" Sakura spoke quickly.
"Okay..." Meilin sighed. "He said that you're probably a rude girl to him now, and probably always will be. He doesn't even think he'll ever, EVER even TRY to love you again. He says that nobody can pay him enough money to go out with you again. It's so over. He has no feelings for you now. No more. Zip," Meilin finished. She tried as much as possible to say it with the same feeling Li had when he told her. Sakura was silent, very silent.
"His exact words?" Sakura asked hoping that Meilin over-exaggerated.
"His exact words," Meilin nodded. Sakura felt stabbed. This was horrible! What had she done!
"That sounds like something Li would say..." Sakura said shaking her head.
"What? What's that supposed to mean?" Meilin asked rather angrily. "He's mad at you because you were being stupid prancing around like the happy japanese pom pom you were for the past seven years! And all you can say is, that sounds like something Li would say," she scoffed. "You have some nerve Sakura,"
"How was I supposed to know this was going to happen??? I wanted real hard to love him. But I guess I couldn't lie to anyone. I just couldn't do it alright? I don't know...now I've lost a perfectly good friend because I'm a screwed up lost person who is afraid to fall in love." Sakura spoke fast. She sounded like she was getting mad, almost furious.
"Yes I admit it! I'm afraid to fall in love!!" Sakura screamed. "No matter what he does for me, no matter how much money he spends on me, no matter how safe I feel around him, no matter how much I miss him...WHICH I DO...I MISS HIM SO MUCH THAT I"M GOING CRAZY OVER HERE!!!" she yelled angrily, but she was frustrated too. All these different emotions ran through her body and she felt like she could only let them out one at a time.
"I know there is nothing I can do...because I'm just as scared as I was seven years ago. I'm a very lost and sad soul. Forgive me Lord for I have sinned! I have broken the heart of the only man that will ever love me, and lost him forever. It's all my fault..." Sakura finally finished on a depressed tone. Meilin was speechless. At first she was totally angry with Sakura and the next she was kind of leaning on her side. She was able to see Sakura from a different perspective, and now she knew how Sakura really felt.
"Don't worry Sakura, things will get better," Meilin replied. That was all she could say. As lame as it was, there was nothing better she could come up with at that moment.
"But I know that things will never go back to the way they used to be...never...and I don't blame him either. Doesn't he know how I lay in bed tossing and turning thinking about this everyday? How I stay awake at night worrying about what I've done? For God's sakes I dream about the man!! Yes I admit it! I dream about him!!" Sakura yelled once again. She was so frustrated with herself that the only way out was through yelling. A few seconds later she calmed down, just in time to finish her thoughts.
"He haunts me in my sleep...and I can't escape him," Sakura sobbed. "I've been ignoring this for a long time, and you're the only person that knows all this. I have many dreams that I do not mention to anyone. But when I awake I stay in bed thinking about it," she continued seriously. "He's probably doing much better than I am though, he's a tough guy, and listen to me. I'm a complete wreck!" she said with a slight laugh.
"But I never want him to know," Sakura began seriously again. "Never...I want him to move on...so I don't ever do this to him again...I want him to forget about me...even if I do fall in love with him again...I will never tell him...never...it's for his sake..." she finally finished and was silent.
"How come you never told me this before?" Meilin asked half frustrated and half worried.
"Because I was afraid to admit it to anyone, fearing what it might mean. Plus, the more people that know the better the chances are of him hearing about it," Sakura sighed in defeat.
"I'll never tell him..." Meilin promised.
"Good, it's better that he doesn't know, that's for his sake. I can handle him not knowing, I'll try my best to keep it in. But I know it'll be better for him. Forget about me, I'll be fine. It's him...I need to help him...forget me...forever," Sakura spoke firmly. She was very serious about her decision, and Meilin knew that nothing she or anyone else could say would stop her.
"Well I hate to leave you like this Sakura but I have to eat now, plus someone is banging on my door," Meilin spoke rather annoyed from the banging though.
"Alright then," Sakura nodded trying not to cry.
"Do me a favor?" Meilin asked. Sakura was silent, and Meilin took her silence as a yes.
"Keep you're chin up high okay? You're going to make it, I can feel it," Meilin smiled on the other line, but when the banging started again her smile faded.
"I'll try," Sakura replied.
"Okay then, bye," Meilin sighed feeling bad.
"Bye," Sakura replied then they hung up. She waited and listened to the dial tone for a few moments then reluctantly put the phone down. She sat at the edge of her bed staring at the phone, then changed her gaze to look out the window. The day was young and beautiful, but Sakura seemed to notice none of it.
"I need to help him forget me forever," Sakura repeated trying to reassure herself. Then she was silent. "But who is going to help me forget him...from my heart..." she asked herself quietly as a tear rolled down her cheek unnoticed.
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The banging annoyed her more and more as she stomped her way to the front door. Letting out small grumbles she flung out the door and was about to give the person the longest lecture in their life until she saw the expression on the face. The person had a wide smile stretching from ear to ear as the hand waved back in forth. Meilin no longer want to lecture the person, but want to strangle the person until they said their Hail Mary's.
"What do you want Chiho?" Meilin asked containing her anger.
"Nothing," Chiho continued smiling.
"Nothing?" Meilin slouched. "You banged on my door for the past 5 minutes, and made me get off the phone with Sakura during an important conversation, just to say...nothing?" she asked rather irritated.
"Yup," Chiho nodded happily.
"Oh! I am so going to smack that smile off your face!!" Meilin roared and chased him down the street leaving her door wide open. Chiho laughed and continued running, or rather leading Meilin down the street until he turned the corner to the park. Meilin continued chasing after him but when she turned the corner she bumped into someone. The person was obviously expecting Meilin to come running down at that moment because he didn't move as Meilin feel to the ground. Meilin rubbed her eyes and groaned.
"You are so dead Chiho!!" Meilin screamed utterly furious.
"Well I don't know about Chiho, but I certainly hope you don't hurt me," The familiar voice spoke rather flirtatiously. Meilin blinked and focused on the blurry figure until it became clear. "I've already felt the wrath of Meilin," he laughed.
"Zachary?" Meilin asked in confusion.
"Happy Anniversary!" Zachary smiled and kneeled down to give Meilin a dozen roses.
"You have an odd way of showing your love Zachary," Meilin rolled her eyes.
"Well, you're an odd girl," Zachary pointed out and scooped her off her feet. "Plus, I was going for something original and unique," he grinned.
"Yeah well, congratulations you're original and unique," Meilin smiled sarcastically and patted him on the back.
"You still going to kill me?" Chiho asked from a tree not too far away. He flashed and innocent smile. Zachary laughed and they all awaited Meilin's reply.
"Uh-huh pretty much," Meilin crossed her arms teasingly.
"Oh sure, punish the messanger," Chiho pouted. Zachary and Meilin laughed as Zachary began to walk back up the street.
"Did you eat already?" Zachary asked looking down on her.
"Nope, not yet. Chiho interrupted me," Meilin glared back at Chiho.
"Be nice, it was my idea," Zachary grinned and punched Meilin playfully on the arm. "Okay well since you didn't eat I'm going to take you out for lunch," he offered.
"In my night clothes?" Meilin questioned. Zachary eyed her.
"Why not? You look stunning when you're angry and worn out," Zachary teased.
"I'm serious Zachary," Meilin laughed.
"Okay okay, let's go back to your place and I'll cook there. I assume you left your door open from chasing Chiho," Zachary tried not to laugh.
"That was your fault," Meilin pouted. "Now we're going to have to eat with a bunch of different wild animals," she teased still holding that angry face of hers. Chiho caught up out of breath.
"Hey I wanna eat too!" Chiho complained patting his tummy.
"Nope sorry, I don't like you," Meilin teased.
"Oh gee...sorry..." Chiho said sarcastically and began to walk away. Zachary and Meilin laughed and continued onward to Meilin's house.
"Oh Meilin," Chiho called after them remembering something.
"Yeah?" Meilin asked.
"What did you and Li talk about last night?" Chiho asked curiously. Meilin gave him a strange face.
"I wasn't talking to Li last night," Meilin replied still a little confused. Chiho froze at the comment. "It was Saturday, I work on Saturdays,"
"Who was Li talking to then?" Chiho asked quietly.
"What?" Meilin asked even more confused.
"Uh..nothing. I gotta go," Chiho waved and took off. He ran as fast as his legs could take him down the street to his apartment. He culd still hear Zachary and Meilin calling from behind but he knew that they wouldn't come after him. 'What the heck is going on here?' he asked himself in frustration as he turned the last corner. Whatever it was he was definetely going to get to the bottom of this and figure it out. Chiho skidded to the entrance of the apartment building and struggled impatiently to open the door. He jogged past several people who started at him oddily and pressed the elevator button. Looking at his watch he thought again, 'If Li wasn't talking to Meilin or Sakura last night then who?' he grumbled and glanced at his watch. He quickly took off to the staircase knowing that by the time he got up the elevator would probably be on the ground floor anyway. Climbing up the last flight of stairs Chiho flung the door open and ran down the hallway to his apartment. He opened the door quietly and slowly shut it behind him. Gently placing the keys in the basket he called out.
"Li are you home?" Chiho called out. It was quiet. He walked around a bit and noticed a peice of paper on the counter. It read: "Went out for a walk, I'll be back for dinner." He cursed quietly and threw it into the garbage can nearby. He walked to his room and again noticed something posted on Li's bedroom door. It was a sign that read: "Do Not Enter" He stared at it utterly confused. Many different thoughts ran through his mind. He was curious, worried, suspicious, impatient and almost angry. Soon enough Chiho couldn't take it any longer, he just had to know why Li was hiding something from him, and who that person on the phone was. He cautiously opened the door and peeked inside in case Li planted a trap for snoopy people such as himself. Chiho was shocked when he flung the door open. He stared knowingly at the sight with wide eyes and covered his mouth.
"There is no way!" Chiho yelled and ran out of the room shutting the door behind him. He had it all figured out now, and he had to tell Madison right away.
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Li walked slowly down the path surrounded by trees, to be honest he had no idea where he was going but he had to get away for awhile. It was very peaceful out here only natural sounds could be heard. The sound of his shoes shuffling against the ground as he walked was faint. He looked up every now and then to adore the reflection of the golden rays of the sun seep through the gap spots of the tree's hunter green leaves that was the most beautiful part. The merry sounds of birds chirping surrounded him from all direction sbut as you walked further you realize that there is a particular tree where the singing is the loudest. The warm breeze gently ran through every hair on his arm, and as the sun peeked through the cloud he could feel it's warm glow up against his cheek. The soothing sound of the wind blowing by, as it brushed itself by his ear and through his hair. The heat attached itself to his skin, but not enough to feel it's burning sensation because the wind blew right by to balance the feeling out. He soon approached the park. There was an open field for people to play on or hold picnics, but there was also several trees on the farther end of it. He continued walking and quickly spotted an old brown bench. Li sat down to ease his muscles from walking and closed his eyes. The ruffling of leaves sounded almost like tiny waves on water. Since his eyes were closed his other senses became more clear, the wind was louder, the heat on his arms and face was more obvious, and the chirping of birds was clearer. Suddenly he felt a presence and almost immediately opened his eyes. He turned around with a darting glare.
"Please don't run away," Sakura said innocently. Li didn't flinch and only turned back around with crossed arms.
"Is this seat taken?" Sakura asked sweetly. Li didn't reply but shook his head. Sakura nodded and sat down beside him. With her hands carefully placed in her lap she sat uncomfortably. She slowly glanced over at Li and pressed her lips together nervously.
"You're a hard person to find you know?" Sakura spoke trying to break the silence.
"It's easy when you don't want to be found," Li replied without changing his expression.
"Oh I see," Sakura nodded looking down at her feet. She let a moment pass and turned her head to look at him.
"Are you just going to leave it like this?" Sakura asked trying to control her anger.
"Leave what like what?" Li asked without a care.
"Us..." Sakura spoke softly but before she could continue Li interrupted.
"There is no us Sakura, why can't you see that?" Li said impatiently. Sakura was a little hurt by this comment.
"Even if that my be so, are you just going to leave it this way? Ignoring me for the rest of your life?" Sakura asked trying to keep calm.
"Why not? It suits me just fine," Li shrugged the thought away.
"I don't think so," Sakura argued. Li turned to look at her straight in the eye. She was determined to prove a point, he could see it now.
"What would you know?" Li replied harshly and stood up. "Now what do you want from me Sakura?" he asked a little bit more calmly.
"I need a reason," Sakura began then looked into his eyes. "I know you're ignoring me but I need a reason why," she finished seriously.
"What?? Why?" Li said in utter confusion. "I don't understand,"
"I need a reason wh-" Sakura began to repeat the question.
"I heard what you said," Li interrputed. "But I thought that the answer would be rather obvious," he said impatiently. "Especially since you broke my heart," he muttered to himself.
"I told you I was sorry, and I meant it Li!" Sakura yelled also standing up. There was a short period of silence, as if they were both thinking about something. Sakura stared at him longingly awaiting a reply. Li kept his gaze low to the ground in frustration thinking of a response.
"I know you're sorry," Li finally spoke still keeping his gaze low. "And I know you mean it too," he sighed. "It's just...it's just...hard, Sakura," he began with irritation in his voice. "I just can't forget it, forget what you've done to me," he explained.
"Li..." Sakura looked at him longingly. She wanted to much to hold him in her arms to rest his head on her shoulder to comfort him. But she knew, just as well as everyone else did, that there was nothing that could comfort him. She began to extend her hand out to place on his cheek but slowly withdrew knowing better. "What...what do I have to do?" she finally asked.
"What?" Li asked after a pause. There was little shock in his voice, more irritation than anything else.
"What to I have to do, to prove to you that I'm sorry...as a friend..." Sakura replied saying that last part on a soft tone.
"Nothing," Li spoke firmly. He look at her in the eyes this time staring at each eye back and forth. "I know you're sorry," he began. If this was his idea of being reassuring he definetely wasn't showing it. "But, I have to get you out of my life," he continued taking his eyes off Sakura and staring back out into the park. Sakura felt her heart burst at the comment, but the next comment stabbed her.
"Forever. It's over Sakura," Li finished on a serious tone. Sakura felt like she was going to cry, this horrible pain that had flooded over her body and soul was painful and lonely. She wanted nothing to do with the agony of a brokenheart.
"Why...why do you hate me so?" Sakura asked almost angrily. She was so upset, sad, lonely, and in too much pain to care about anything right now. She knew she asked a stupid question, but the words just came out of her mouth.
"Why?" Li asked as if the answer was completely obvious and that there was practically a sign hanging over them screaming out the answer. "Look Sakura, I gave up my heart to you. I loved you with all my heart," He began in annoyance, and the irritation showed in his expresssion. "Then with only one minute of passionate kissing..." he continued as if he was remembering that sweet moment under the night sky with dim lights from her house. The gentle touch of her their lips brushing up together. Then the soft tone slowly faded as he finished his thought. "...it's all gone..." he said with anger written all over his face. "I was a fool..."
"Li but that's the past, and what I did was wrong, I'm here now...as a friend," Sakura spoke reassuringly. She knew that she wanted to love him, but for his sake being friends was the only way she could be a part of his life. Anything more than friends would simply drive him away, and she didn't want that. Her feelings, her love for him would have to be sacrificed in order for him to forget her, completely. He looked up at her. She was a little taken back from his expression. His eyes were captivating, almost hynotic. Yet there were tears forming in his eyes for they twinkled unhappily, but it was obvious he was holding them back. Her gaze slowly moved towards his hands. They were tense and slowly getting tighter until it formed a fist. He looked angry, but she knew him better than that. This was the kind of look he had when he wanted to tell her something, something important, but held himself back. His eyebrows tensed up, almost into a frown. Then with a deep breath he finally spoke.
"Sakura...if you're asking for my forgiveness, you're asking for too much," Li said firmly and turned his head away. Sakura felt it and knew, that it was over. Gone. He never wanted her in his life anymore, and his next sentence proved she was right.
"So please, leave me alone," He finished trying to remain serious and firm, but he said it with slight sadness and regret in his voice. Sakura felt like she was going to cry, she promised herself she wouldn't but the pain was too much now. She stood up and kept her back too him so she could let the tears flow without him knowing.
"I'll leave you alone, and try my best not to bump into you if that's what you want..." Sakura nodded, the tears flowed down her cheek, but she didn't make a sound. She was too afraid of what he might say next. She wasn't worried if he might say something rude or arroagant. She just didn't want her heart any more broken than it already was.
"It won't matter after tomorrow," Li finally spoke after a moment of silence.
"What?" Sakura asked in total confusion. She could feel his presence behind her after he stood up. His warm breath crept it's way around her neck as he breathed. She tried to keep herself steady but only found herself shivering as the tingles ran up her body. She couldn't help it, she just wanted to kiss him and hold him close to her. But before she could pull herself together Li continued.
"I'm going back," he finally informed her. Sakura froze as her heart skipped a beat. Her soul screamed out 'no' but she couldn't move, and her face was expressionless. She slowly turned around to face him. His body was almost up against hers. The tall a slender figure stood strong, and she could see he was serious. He was leaving. In his eyes though, she could see that he didn't want to leave. Perhaps he didn't want to leave her, but it was too late now. Sakura couldn't take it anymore, and slowly almost on impulse she began to lean towards him, tilting her head up slightly. Li knew this, he saw this before. But he remembered and saw flashes of her kissing Shigeru in his head. He tried to turn away but his body wouldn't obey, he knew he still loved her. Oh how he wanted this kiss. Anything to feel her soft lips up against his. His mind knew better though, and since his heart and body would obey he spoke.
"Sakura...please..." Li begged. That was all he could manage out from his mouth. "Sakura...please don't..." he whined. She didn't listen, she still looked up at him with those begging eyes. Begging him to kiss her. "Don't Sakura..." he groaned quietly. "Don't do this to me...please...I..." he breathed heavily. Sakura changed, she had no control over herself now. She just had to kiss him no matter what.
"You...you what?" Sakura spoke softly and placed soft kisses up his cheek and slowly down near his mouth, but stopped there. Li groaned, not completely in anger, but more like in frustration. He had to keep him self calm, he had to pull himself together, he had to think straight, oh for heaven's sakes he had to kiss her!
"I can't..." Li finally replied in a low husky growl. Sakura felt his warm breath on her cheek and finally leaned forward and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. At first he didn't really welcome it because he remained motionless, but he certainly was holding back. Finally he moved and kissed her back. The sweet taste of her lips renewed him and he remembered what it was like. He slid his arms around her waist and couldn't control himself. Damn her! Damn her for being so perfect. She was irresistible and he just couldn't get himself to back away. He could feel her hands up his back, and he loved her this much. The kissing became more intense from their absence and Sakura slowly moved her hands down his back, around the front of his waist and up his firm chest. Li breathed in deeply as he pulled her in closer to him unwilling to let her go. She slided her arms around his neck and up the back of his head. He quickly switched his attention away from her lips and slowly moved down onto her neck. Sakura sighed and ran her fingers through his hair. The passion grew and grew with each soft kiss. Li was firm, confident yet gentle with her, and it drove her insane. Then again she drove him insane. The scent of her perfume could drive any man to insanity. To him she was an angel, a saint even. Yet she was a devil as sin, and so was her lips. All the fury and misery was expressed through the way he kissed her and she could feel it. She kissed him passionately with remorse begging him to forgive her. Then suddenly, a flash of her kissing Shigeru flodded his mind and he moved away. Sakura looked at him with pain in her eyes. But more like a pain like she was angry with herself, and not disappointed that he backed off. Much like the expression on his face. They both stood there, silently staring at eachother for a few seconds before he spoke.
"I can't...damn you Sakura! Leave me alone!" Li yelled angrily. He knew it wasn't her fault in that way though. But she didn't know. Sakura felt tears run down her face and she finally ran off into the distance leaving the trail of tears from a broken heart behind her.
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Chiho ran as fast as he could down the street, past the stop sign, through the park, down another street, and past the last corner. He quickly glanced at his watch that read 3:30pm on it and knocked on the door. He tapped his feet imaptiently, and knocked on the door once again. He heard a voice from within, several in fact. Finally the door opened and Chiho allowed himself in.
"What's wrong?" Madison asked giving him the eyebrow. Chiho didn't'reply at first, instead he looked around the room and nodded to the various people. He recognized eveyone and was glad they were there for the big announcement. Everyone that mattered, or probably needed to know was sitting around chit chatting. Meilin was talking to Tori and Kero. Zachary was just sitting beside Meiling while listening on into the conversation. Chiho had called Madison over his cell phone as he rushed on over to tell her that he needed all these people to be there at 3:30pm to make a big announcment. Hoe the rest of the group especially Meilin and Zachary got there before him was really odd but he shrugged the thought away and took in a deep breath.
"Well?" Madison asked awaiting an answer. This time the whole group glanced in Chiho and Madison's direction to hear the 'big' news. Zachary leaned back comfortably, and Meilin crossed her arms impatiently at Chiho.
"This better be good, I missed our anniversary," Meilin grumbled and Chiho glared in her direction. Chiho was about to speak when Tori broke out.
"Well then pipe down and let him speak," Tori rolled his eyes at her.
"Now who's interrupting?" Meilin shot back. Chiho was about to speak again but Kero intercepted.
"Why don't you both be quiet?" Kero whined.
"I second that," Zachary raised his hand.
"Who asked you two?" Tori groaned.
"Nobody needs a stuffed animal's opinion," Meilin mumbled.
"NANI?!?" Kero yelled angrily. Zachary burst into laughter, but Meilin shut him up with a slap to the back. Tori started laughing pointing his fingers at Zachary, and with that Meilin hit him with her slipper.
"Guys seriously!!" Chiho yelled over the chaos. Everyone stopped what they were doing and turned their attention to Chiho.
"Well if you had-" Meilin began again.
"I don't want to hear it Meilin!" Chiho interrupted. She slowly leaned back and stayed quiet. "Okay now," he took in a deep breath of satisfaction. "Everyone, Li's going back to Hong Kong," he finally announced. The room was silent.
"That's it?" Zachary asked giving him the eyebrow. "What a waste of-"
"Oh shove it!" Tori complained.
"He's what???" Meilin asked in complete shock.
"That's impossible!" Madison agreed putting her hands on her hips.
"He can't!" Kero objected raising his hand.
"He wouldn't!" Tori yelled almost as a threat.
"He would," Chiho nodded.
"Shame..." Zachary shrugged the thought away.
"But that's not right, he didn't work things out with Sakura yet," Madison sighed.
"I'm not sure if he wants to," Chiho reminded.
"Yeah well he better not break her heart!" Tori pounded his fists together.
"Oh so it's okay to break Li's heart but not Sakura's?" Meilin questioned.
"Well if you put it that way..." Tori thought. "Yeah," he shrugged.
"Smooth..." Zachary sweatdropped.
"But how are we going to fix this guys?" Kero crossed his arms.
"Can we?" Madison asked.
"I don't know, it might be tricky," Chiho scratched his chin.
"Tricky is good," Zachary smiled.
"Not that kind of tricky!" Tori bashed Zachary on the head.
"What? I like tricky!" Zachary rubbed his head.
"This is all happening too fast! We need more time," Meilin grumbled.
"Wouldn't he have told you if he was leaving?" Kero asked Meilin in confusion.
"He should have," Meilin sighed.
"Too bad," Zachary teased.
"Then how do we know if he's leaving for sure?" Tori questioned Chiho's discovery.
"I saw his room," Chiho informed.
"Haven't we all?" Meilin frowned.
"No I haven't," Zachary spoke.
"Me neither," Tori nodded.
"Nope," Kero crossed his arms. Meilin sweatdropped.
"That's not what I meant!" Meilin yelled hitting the three on the head.
"So what did you see?" Madison asked Chiho while all the other boys were rubbing the bumps on their heads in the background.
"Nothing," Chiho simply replied.
"Nothing?" Madison asked in confusion.
"Nothing," Chiho repeated.
"Nothing?" Meilin questioned.
"Nada," Chiho shook his head.
"Nothing?" Tori asked in confusion.
"Zip," Chiho replied crossing his arms. There was a moment of silence as if everyone was thinking. Zachary had a confused look on his face.
"Nothing?" Zachary finally asked. Everyone sweatdropped.
"ISN"T THAT WHAT I JUST SAID!!!" Chiho yelled in irritation.
"But then how'd you know he's going back?" Zachary asked in confusion. "Are you psychic or something?"
"No! I know because there I didn't see anything. Get it? I didn't see anything in his room!" Chiho rolled his eyes. There was a moment of silence between the two.
"OOHHH!!!" Zachary finally spoke. Then he paused. "OOHHH!!!" then he suddenly paused again. "OOHH!!"
"Meilin please, bag him!" Chiho begged.
"Geez! If you're so smart Zachary why don't you--!" Tori began but then cut himself off not knowing what to say. Everyone waited. "Why dont you...get a brain!!" he finally replied. Everyone looked at him oddily.
"Get a brain?" Zachary asked before bursting into uncontrollable laughter. "Uh...okay Tori...HaHaHa!" he continued laughing. Tori grew bright red while everyone else tried controlling their laughter.
"Why you!!" Tori yelled and started to stand up to choke Zachary but then the door flung open. Everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at Sakura. She look like she had been crying, a lot. Her hair was a mess, her face was flushed, and her eyes were deep red. Madison put her hand to her mouth in disbelief and walked on over to her.
"Oh Sakura, are you alright? What happened?" Madison asked almost in tears from just giving her best friend a hug. Sakura wiped her tears.
"I saw Li, we talked, then got into a fight, but then when I thought things were getting better he blew me off," Sakura sobbed on Madison's shoulder. Everyone stared at them speehless. Instead they all listened and were ready to jump at them to help Sakura out if need be.
"Li...Li..." Sakura stuttered and turned to everyone. "Li's leaving to go back to Hong Kong," she announced. Everyone sighed. Mumbled words could be heard all around the room as they scratched their heads pretending that they didn't already know.
"Oh no! Really?" Meilin said trying to be as sympathetic as possible.
"I had no idea," Kero crossed his arms.
"Me neither squirt, I mean brat, I mean Sakura," Tori said as he continuously interrupted himself.
"What?" Zachary said totally confused from everyone's reaction.
"Baka..." Tori and Kero grumbled.
"Tori," Madison called out. Tori perked up and looked at Madison.
"Take Sakura home, I think she needs some rest," Madison said worriedly. Tori nodded and walked over to his sister, kissed her on the forhead and said. "Everything is going to be alright," he smiled down at her and lifted her onto his back. Everyone waved goodbye to them and closed the door. Sakura rested put her arms around her brother's neck for support and rested her head on his shoulder. The last thing her brother said rang in her head before she drifted off. 'Everything is going to be alright,' she certainly hoped so.

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But first off I have to thank my brother for making me sit infront of the computer, even with
writers block. If you didnt force me to think about my story, and then work on it I probably
would be done this chapter. Thanks.

YES!! I'm finally done writing this chapter!! But I'm sorry I wasn't able to post it right
away because my internet has been down for the past few days. But I posted it as soon as it
up again, so that's a good thing right? Sorry the ending was so bad, but what can you do? Oh
when I finsihed the part with Li and Sakura in the park my brother, the author ~*Syaoran Li*~
insisted that he read it, but I told him to expect the unexpected. He agreed but when he
finished reading it he said that he still didn't expect what I wrote. Well to tell you the
truth, I didn't expect what I wrote either, it just came to me. Well look at me, babbling on
and on. You don't want to read about me, you want to read my fic right? LOL. I hope I can post
the next chapter soon.