CHAPTER VIII
a/n: This is a funny sort of chapter. It's another chapter where Snape spills his guts out again. (not literally of course!) It's a little different from when he spilt out his guts in chapter 1, (look back) but it all fits, I hope! ANyway, if you have any questions about it, ask in your review. I don't know what I can do really. Just check my bio for the answers and I'll try...TRY...and one last thing: there's another a/n at the end of this chap. so read it!
Creeping down the dungeon floor, I felt like I had done this before. I made sure no one saw the doors opening by themselves, or the wand that fell from nowhere when I dropped it unknowingly.
Snape's supply closet came too soon. I took a deep breath and continued on. Again I tried the door and it was locked. I felt around in my pockets for my wand...but where was it?
"Missing something Potter?" The voice was all too expected.
I turned around and saw Snape with my wand. I was still invisable and wondred how he could have seen me. I kicked myself for being so stupid. But I kicked too hard in a rather sensetive spot and that just made everything worse! I pouted.
I pulled the hood off of the cloak and stood looking at Snape with a few tears in my eyes. My left hand was in my pocket, still there from searching for the wand. My right hand was...well...tending to the sore spot.
"Yes. You really should be more careful while...well doing ANYTHING after hours. You just got found out again and kicked your crotch to splinters in about 15 minutes. Really, do you have any dignity?"
"Give me my wand and I'll leave." I lied with extreme inexperience, it showed.
"Look, you bloody little half-breed, we both know you won't, and anyway, I need...to talk to you... about something."
I followed Snape into his office, thinking of how I could quickly get away. Snape sat at his desk and I pulled up a chair. I carefully looked at where he set down my want. He started talking. "So, you know about me and...you father." (He mumbled your father.) "This is our story. I met James at Hogwarts. We were rivels, just like you and Draco. We fought each other and hated each other. But through all of that, we had two things in common. The first was your mother. We both adored her. And I admit, maybe she liked James better" (obviously I thought. I'm here aren't I?) "but still, I tried to seduce her. I got pretty far too...The second thing we had in common was...well...we enjoy the company of men... Now don't look so astonished. You saw how I was around Pro. Lupin"
I dropped my jaw which dropped on the desk. After all these years...Now I know everything. I am the smarted boy alive. But then I adjusted the way I sat and realized...I was still pretty dumb.
"Anyway, this was all before the great reign of HE-WHO-SHALL-NOT-BE- NAMED. When he came into power, James and I fought hand-in-hand to save the world. We nearly forgot about Lilly until we heard news that the city she lived in was being burnt down. James said he'd rescue her and bring her back here. I stayed to fight. But he never came back, and it turned out he wanted to be the one to rescue her because...you were about to be born. The code was to tell James the city was about to be destroyed. I cursed all things straight. I had trusted him!
But when the three of you went into hiding, I didn't deceive you. I am proud to be gay. I am proud to my word. So that is how it is. And when I broke down like that the other night, well that was James and my anniversary. It's just so painful. I mean YOU never knew him. How could YOU be sad? But me, I loved him. and he deceived me. You don't know how that feels, to be deceived by the man you love. If you only knew...oh if you only knew."
a/n: Yes, I know, weird. But Snape's ramblings are a big part of the story, so just live with them. He's done with them by the way. I hope you didn't think I'm dissing anyone, cause I'm not. It's just part of the story, ok? And by the way, yes I was just deceived by someone I like. So I'm still getting "revenge". Just to let ya know. (and to Tigre and Panthre: LO freaken' L!)
a/n: This is a funny sort of chapter. It's another chapter where Snape spills his guts out again. (not literally of course!) It's a little different from when he spilt out his guts in chapter 1, (look back) but it all fits, I hope! ANyway, if you have any questions about it, ask in your review. I don't know what I can do really. Just check my bio for the answers and I'll try...TRY...and one last thing: there's another a/n at the end of this chap. so read it!
Creeping down the dungeon floor, I felt like I had done this before. I made sure no one saw the doors opening by themselves, or the wand that fell from nowhere when I dropped it unknowingly.
Snape's supply closet came too soon. I took a deep breath and continued on. Again I tried the door and it was locked. I felt around in my pockets for my wand...but where was it?
"Missing something Potter?" The voice was all too expected.
I turned around and saw Snape with my wand. I was still invisable and wondred how he could have seen me. I kicked myself for being so stupid. But I kicked too hard in a rather sensetive spot and that just made everything worse! I pouted.
I pulled the hood off of the cloak and stood looking at Snape with a few tears in my eyes. My left hand was in my pocket, still there from searching for the wand. My right hand was...well...tending to the sore spot.
"Yes. You really should be more careful while...well doing ANYTHING after hours. You just got found out again and kicked your crotch to splinters in about 15 minutes. Really, do you have any dignity?"
"Give me my wand and I'll leave." I lied with extreme inexperience, it showed.
"Look, you bloody little half-breed, we both know you won't, and anyway, I need...to talk to you... about something."
I followed Snape into his office, thinking of how I could quickly get away. Snape sat at his desk and I pulled up a chair. I carefully looked at where he set down my want. He started talking. "So, you know about me and...you father." (He mumbled your father.) "This is our story. I met James at Hogwarts. We were rivels, just like you and Draco. We fought each other and hated each other. But through all of that, we had two things in common. The first was your mother. We both adored her. And I admit, maybe she liked James better" (obviously I thought. I'm here aren't I?) "but still, I tried to seduce her. I got pretty far too...The second thing we had in common was...well...we enjoy the company of men... Now don't look so astonished. You saw how I was around Pro. Lupin"
I dropped my jaw which dropped on the desk. After all these years...Now I know everything. I am the smarted boy alive. But then I adjusted the way I sat and realized...I was still pretty dumb.
"Anyway, this was all before the great reign of HE-WHO-SHALL-NOT-BE- NAMED. When he came into power, James and I fought hand-in-hand to save the world. We nearly forgot about Lilly until we heard news that the city she lived in was being burnt down. James said he'd rescue her and bring her back here. I stayed to fight. But he never came back, and it turned out he wanted to be the one to rescue her because...you were about to be born. The code was to tell James the city was about to be destroyed. I cursed all things straight. I had trusted him!
But when the three of you went into hiding, I didn't deceive you. I am proud to be gay. I am proud to my word. So that is how it is. And when I broke down like that the other night, well that was James and my anniversary. It's just so painful. I mean YOU never knew him. How could YOU be sad? But me, I loved him. and he deceived me. You don't know how that feels, to be deceived by the man you love. If you only knew...oh if you only knew."
a/n: Yes, I know, weird. But Snape's ramblings are a big part of the story, so just live with them. He's done with them by the way. I hope you didn't think I'm dissing anyone, cause I'm not. It's just part of the story, ok? And by the way, yes I was just deceived by someone I like. So I'm still getting "revenge". Just to let ya know. (and to Tigre and Panthre: LO freaken' L!)
