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"Hermione." Great Wizards…did that horrible croaking sound just come out of my mouth? I guess that's what happens when you don't talk for weeks at a time...she's coming closer...sitting on the end of the bed...she's saying something...I can't hear...must be the pills...I'd almost forgotten about taking them...I'm sorry...

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I can't cry...I can't...he can't see me crying...Goblins! Why does anyone have to suffer this much? I think he's asleep now...for a while he just lay there looking at me with those eyes...those empty eyes...I wonder if he realized when he reached out and grasped my hand? Poor, poor boy...what have we done to you? Show me how to help you...tell me how to pull you out of this darkness...look at him...even in sleep he doesn't relax...see how tight his forehead is...maybe I'll just sit here talking to him for awhile...
"George? I know you are still there, somewhere. Well you need to listen to me for a minute Ok? I know you hurt. I know you just want to forget, but George, you can't do that. You can't simply give up; there are people here who need you. Molly needs you. George, I know you lost Fred and your Father and your friends, but George, your mother lost her husband, and she lost a son. Ron lost his father and his brother, I know it's worse for you, I cant' even begin to imagine how hard it must be to lose a twin, I guess its like losing half of yourself, but Ron still hurts, he needs you right now. Did you know he's getting married in the spring? Its true…you'll never guess to whom...Cho Chang...yes that's right. None of us could believe it either. It seems that they were together a lot in the training camps of our army, and well one thing led to another and it just happened. He's really happy, at least he wants to be, but it's hard for him to be truly happy because he's so afraid he's going to lose you. Ginny's frightened too, she idolizes you George. Did you know that that? I'm not sure she ever told you, but she wants to now, I've talked to her about it. There are so many things she wants to talk to you about, her final year at Hogwarts, her relationship with Harry and lots of other things. She wants to remember things about your father and brother, she wants to, but she can't George because you wont wake up, you wont give your family the chance to break through theses walls that you have built up around yourself, and they're too loving to force you. Well I'm warning you right now, I'm not that nice. When I came in here tonight I didn't know what I was here for, but I've figured it out now. I'm going to stay right here, next to you until you have the strength to face the world again. And then I'm going to push you...and I'm going to push you hard. This had lasted long enough; Voldemort's grip on you ends today. You may hate me when it's all over, but that wont matter because you'll have your life back. So get some rest tonight, tomorrow starts a whole new day."

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Great Wizards! What is that light!!! It hurts my eyes; maybe if I ignore it, it will go away…Blast! Some GIT has opened all the windows; don't they understand I'm trying to sleep? Who do they bloody well think they are? If I could get out of this blasted bed I'd…but it doesn't matter what I'd do does it…I mean whatever it would be I can't do it can I, that's the whole thing isn't it? I'll just go back to sleep…sleep is safe; it's easy, it means no memories. Now where are those pills…I reach out for them on the table, but all my hand comes in contact with is a glass of water. Where are they, I can't feel them. Blast, I'll have to open my eyes, Goblins that light hurts! WHERE ARE THEY?!?! They were right here…
"Looking for these?" I hear her voice and freeze…she really is here…I didn't dream it…her voice hurts in my ears almost as the light hurts my eyes. Hermione is standing in front of the window, her slender profile dark against the streaming sun. The pill bottle is in her hand. Why is she here?
"Leave me alone Hermione," I growl. There is anger in my voice and it surprises me, I didn't know I had that much emotion left. Why does her presence here stir me up like this…I don't understand it and it makes me mad! I just want her out so I can get some sleep.
"Its good to see you awake George." She says. She hasn't moved and I can't see her face, it makes me even angrier.
"Get out." I say looking up at the ceiling so I don't have to see her face. "I don't want you here." She is still for a moment, then,
"Well if that is how you feel George…" I breathe a sigh of relief, but she isn't done. "…but you'll just have to get over it, because I'm not going anywhere." Why does she always have to be so blasted stubborn!! Something in me snaps,
"I said GET OUT!!!" I don't realize the glass has left my hand until I see it shatter against the wall.
"You're angry," she says "That's good. You have to start feeling again George, you have to start living again."
"HOW?" I scream at her "How am I supposed to start living again? You tell me!! How do I go on living knowing what I've done??? They don't want me! Why should they? Look what I did to them! It might as well have been me that killed…killed…" I can't bring myself to even say the names, what a bloody coward I am. "killed them."
"George…" She says softly moving closer to me, I can see her eyes now, odd that even in my rage I notice her eyes. "it wasn't your fault. You can't believe that…"
"It might has well have been! I was their commanding officer…I was in charge…It should have been ME!" She blinks at me…then tightening her lips turns on her heel and walks out of the door. I let myself fall back on to the pillows, it seems I don't need pills to make myself tired after all. I close my eyes and feel myself sliding into the blackness of sleep, but somehow I can't quite banish the vision of her eyes…

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