Disclaimer: Don't own the PD characters, Meg Cabot does (and her publisher, I think)

Authors notes: thanks to all who have been commenting! However, I have to admit one thing – I'm a big meanie with cliffhangers, so sorry. ^^;

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Friday, 10 pm

I'm such an idiot for ever thinking she'd like me - last night was simply horrible. It started great, but when it came to telling her how I feel (which I did after the movie was over, good thing) things went downhill. Think rockslide.

Me: Therm – I mean Mia, this is is really awkward, but there's something you have to know about what I… feel for you.

Mia: (at this point gets really nervous and kind of angry/sad… I don't know how to describe it, but I can tell you it was not good) Look, I should have seen this coming.

Me: Huh?

Mia: (for once standing up for herself – great timing) Just leave me alone, ok Michael? I know how you feel about me, but you don't have to rub it in.

Then I just sat there in the movie theatre as she left, and must have just stayed there without moving for about ten minutes, until the janitor sweeper guys got mad at me and kicked me out.

Today in school she ignored me pointedly, and refused to even talk to me in G & T, let alone let me tutor her. I think I just messed up whatever chance I had even as her friend. She obviously completley hates me and is disgusted that I like – love – her. Lilly hasn't said much, but Mia's also been ignoring her. What Lilly DID say was that Mia refused to even acknowledge my reality. Great.

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Saturday, ??? pm

Well, right now I'm in my room, stumped. Mia started chatting with me on the net out of the blue, and after mulling it over for the ten minutes I still don't know what the hell is going on with it.

FtLouie: You may be my best friends brother, but you're as much a jerk as Josh Richter. How could you just put it so… bluntly?

cracKing: What was I supposed to do, start with anonymous love letters?

FtLouie: Michael, even you aren't that mean and sarcastic!

cracKing: I'm not being sarcastic, am I?

FtLouie: Yes you are!

cracKing: Look, arguing on the internet is dumb.

FtLouie: Someone who was nicer might actually have broke it to me gently.

Then she signed up. I don't know what's up, but for some reason I have a nagging feeling in the back of my head that there has been a horribly terrible mistake.

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