I dont own any of these characters, okay? I'm just trying to get rid of the need to be angsty.



They say that when you wish apon a star, your dreams come true.

Well, mine don't. And I feel like I'm the only one. Ron's family won all that money, and that's what they wanted. Cedric died, and the way Cho is with boys, he'll be the next growth on her arm. Hagrid's always getting a newer and wilder pet. What about the good girl? Don't you think I deserve something?

I know, I'm being selfish, but I never really get what I want. And what do I want? A lot of things. For one; Harry. I love him so much, why can't he see it? He's always busy with all these other girls, always looking for someone to make the pain dull. If he would only look right next to him.

And peace. I want peace. I don't want to be safe again, like when I was little. When I could sleep without fear of one man blowing me to bits. I want to be able to rely on a future; one with a family and a job and kids.

I want to be able to be me. To be able to laugh and not to worry about how a muggle phone rings. I know that already. I want to be able to please myself and no one else, becuase *I'm* all that matters.

I'll keep being Harry's friend, only a friend. I'll keep going to bed, praying to God so that I can pray tomorrow night, so Voldermort is gone. And acting like the little smart girl who always has her nose in a book.

And I'll keep looking for that first star, knowing that my dreams won't come true . . . . .