A/N: Please review!!!!!!!!!! If you don't know what J-pop is, it's Japanese pop. Just to let you know, I'm not dissing Japanese anime or J- pop or anything, I really like it.



Chapter 4



Saturday, November 6

I can't believe what Kenny now did!!! I mean, Saturday's are for SLEEP!!! Doesn't he have any other friends??? Probably, but of course he'd rather hang out with his girlfriend. Whoopee.

Ok, early this morning, at about 6, Kenny ran into my room to wake me up. Hello! This is a SATURDAY!!! Meaning SLEEP IN!!! Not get up at 6 so we can get tickets to a J-pop concert! Why would I ever want to go to a J-pop concert??? I don't even understand Japanese!!! But there he was. My mom knocked on the door grumpily saying one of my friends was here. I groaned but didn't get up. I continued to lay there in semi-bliss for 15 minutes when Kenny knocked on my door, and, without waiting for me to open the door, came right into my room! My room, with my underwear on the floor and my DIARY on my desk, open to a page where I wrote about Michael and my love for him. Well, I write about him on just about every page. He just waltzed (well really skipped) right in there and told me to get up so we could get tickets for some J-pop group or else they'd sell out. Like I cared!

Me: Just... let me get dressed.

K: Fine, but hurry up!

Then, seeing my diary...

K: Is that your diary?

Walking over to it...

K: What do you write about me?

I ran over from my bed, closing it in just the nick of time, not even caring that he saw me in my pajamas.

Me: Oh nothing...

K: No really, what do you write about me?

Me: Nothing! Can I get dressed now?

K: Fine...

Then he finally exited my room. Can you imagine if he actually read my diary? Ugh, my life would be over!!!

I quickly got dressed and went to see Kenny. I told him I was ready but he grumbled that I had taken too long and that tickets had probably sold out by now (yes!). Suddenly he perked up, suggesting a nice romantic walk in the park. That actually sounded remotely good, and not as boring as anything else he might have had planned. At least I could spend the morning with him NOT talking about J-pop.

I put on a sweater and we walked to Central Park, hand in hand. I would have much rather been there with Michael, but it was still nice. Until we ran into his friends. Apparantely they were having a Japanese-anime fan club meeting! I sat there for 4 hours freezing my butt off listening to things I didn't understand or care to understand. Kenny's obsessed with two things: Japanese-anime and me. I wish he'd just leave me alone!!!



Sunday, November 7

I can't believe I did that! I never meant to hurt him, but he just went too far! I mean, sure he was nice, but ANNOYING! Still... ugh I'm babbling.

This morning at about 7 Kenny came over again talking about going to a Japanese-anime film festival. I didn't get to sleep in yesterday and now he had to interrupt my Sunday sleep?!

Me: Can I please just sleep for a few more hours?

K: No! It starts in half an hour! You're lucky I waited this long.

Lucky? Me??? That's the understatement of the century.

Me: I very tired because I didn't get much sleep yesterday.

K *whining* : But we're going to miss the first film!!!

Did I ever mention Kenny sounds like fingers scraping on a chalkboard when he whines?

Me: I'm sorry, but I need more sleep.

I excpected him to finally give in, but no...

K: NO!!! We HAVE to see it!!!

Me: Excuse me?

Grandmere would be proud that my grammar is improving...

K: Come on! Hurry!!! Now we only have 20 minutes! You're wasting time!!!

I'M wasting time??? Hello, he's wasting my time!

Me: NO!

He stared at me because of my outbreak.

Me: No no no!!! I hate Japanese anime and J-pop! I'm sick of all this stuff!

K: How can you hate it?

Me: How can you like it??? It's horrible! I'm sick of this! I don't even like you and I'm stuck being with you but now I'm also stuck with this stuff???

The first time I've ever been assertive in my life!!! Unfortunately, I was too harsh. I saw tears building up in Kenny's eyes.

K: Y-you don't like me?

Me: No... I'm sorry. I just agreed to go out with you because I didn't want to be cruel. Of course I'm not doing a very good job of that now...

Tears began to pour out of his eyes. I never wanted to hurt him! Just because I don't like him doesn't mean I should be mean to him!

Me: I'm sorry. I never wanted to hurt you. I just don't feel that way about you... I like someone else.

Kenny's eyes suddenly hardened.

K: I knew I shouldn't have let you hang out with Michael!

Let me hang out with Michael??? Like I would have listened to him! And how does he know I like Michael anyways???

Me: WHAT???

K: He's had a crush on you since forever. I knew if you guys continued to hang out he'd put the moves on you. And then he'd get you.

Me: Michael does NOT like me. We're just friends! He hasn't put any moves on me! I liked him on my own!

God what is with my big mouth anyways?! I could have just told him I liked someone he didn't know, but no, I have to tell the truth!

K: Yeah, right!

Me: How do you know how he feels anyways?

K: We're in computer club together, duh. He's always talking about you and blushes everytime you're mentioned. It wouldn't take a genius to figure it out!

Then how come Lilly hasn't figured this out yet? She's a genius!

Me: Look, I'm sorry ok. I never wanted to hurt you. You're a very nice guy, and I don't deserve you. You don't deserve someone as horrible as me. You deserve someone that likes you as much as you like them and shares your interests. I'm just not right for you.

Kenny started crying again.

Me: I never wanted this to happen---

I tried to comfort him, but he ran out of my room. I can just only hope he won't tell Michael, but I don't think he will. He'll probably be too furious at Michael to even look at him, let alone talk to him.

I think Kenny was delirious or something though. There's no way in the world someone like Michael could ever like someone like me. I guess there's only one way to find out. Tomorrow won't come soon enough.

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