Falling Away from Me


Chapter 2: Amethyst Tears




~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Piccolo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


I stare at the two saiya-jins standing next to each other. Gohan looks up at the prince with adoring eyes. I can see a kind of warmth filter through those sable depths. A kind of warmth I could never achieve. My heart twists painfully with in my breast. Why can't I make him happy? What is it that I lack? I look away before I can be seen staring at the two. My guitar weighs heavy in my hands. I set it down and stand to stretch. My eyes keep flicking to the couple and back.

Suddenly I feel a gaze settling on me. I stiffen and survey the area. Goku stands back away from everyone else. His ebony eyes meet mine and he smiles. I hesitantly smile back.

A cheerful voice interrupts the peaceful interlude.


"Piccolo-san?"

The peace snaps with an almost audible sound, like the snapping of a tree laden with ice in the winter.


I turn to him. My eyes take in a lean, youthful body. Wild locks of inky jet surround his face like a dark halo. Warm sable eyes gaze cheerfully at me. Pale, delicate skin offset by the dark clothing he dons. The leather pants suit him well, I notice.

My voice is a near whisper as I answer, enraptured by his presence.

"Hai?"

He quirks his head to the side, the sable bangs whispering across the air.

" Are you OK?" His voice is rich and smooth.

I smirk to reassure him.
"Never better kid." I say as my heart slowly dies from the inside. I watch as he turns slightly to gaze back at the prince behind him.

Never in my life have I wanted to die so badly. I feel like nothing else matters.
My god. How all of hell must be laughing at me. I can just hear my father and brothers howling their heads off in mirth.

Gohan smiles he hugs me and turns back to talk to Vegeta. My smirk falters and is gone as he turns around. I sigh and walk back to my stool.


I am about to sit back down when I feel a gaze settle on me. I whip around and spy the source.

Goku.

That moronic grin beguiles me to come over to talk to the baka. I do have to admit it though. That grin is infectious and I can feel my own lips bend upward in response. He tilts his head towards the wall he leans against in an open invitation. I glance back at Gohan. He is done with me.

I shrug internally. Why not?

I walk over to him. His whole face seems to light up. Funny, he is a lot like Gohan in that respect. When he is happy, his whole face shines like the sun through a golden cloud. His whole being beams with a warmth that begs to be basked in. His eyes light up like twin beacons of happiness.

However, when he is angry, hell's fury awaits the unfortunate soul who tangles with him.

Only once in my life have I ever seen that fury directed at me.

It scared the living hell out of me. As I lay there in my crater, I watched as he stalked over to me. I closed my eyes and hoped it would be quick. I never expected to be saved.

He is funny that way. Willing to give anyone a second chance.

I can rightfully say I owe my life to him.

I shake my head to clear it of my past memories.

I concentrate on the man before me.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Goku~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My heart leaps as he stalks silently towards me. For a second there I was afraid he would say no and remain where he was. His lips lifted in a small smile that anyone rarely saw.

Kami-sama, he is handsome when he smiles.


I shake my head to clear it as he stops right beside me. I can feel the warmth of his body close to me.

I open my mouth begin a conversation but the words don't want to come out. All I really want to do is just be near him. I finally get a sentence out.

"You feel alright Piccolo?"

He huffs but answers me back in that smooth velvet voice of his. I shudder internally as I listen to him.

"Fine… Just didn't get much sleep. Storm kept me up."

I nod, not knowing much else to do. I really want to comfort him, but I don't know how.

Kisama! I feel…so … so … useless!

I can't even comfort the person I love most in the world…

Wait a minute… Did I just say love?

I want to be wrong… But this feeling, it… feels so…right…As if this were meant to be.

I sigh.

His eyes, as sharp as a hawk's, notice.

"You ok," he asks. His whole posture now radiates concern.

"Yeah," I reply. I control my face back into my mask. Evidently it works because he does not ask me again.

I open my mouth to ask him another question when Gohan interrupts.

"Otousan?"

I turn to my oldest son.

"Hai?"

"Can Goten and I spend the night over at Vegeta and Bulma's? It will just be us guys. Mom and Chi Chi are on vacation remember?"

I smile. I can never deny Gohan anything.

"Hai. Although you might want to keep an eye on Goten and Trunks. If Chi Chi or Bulma finds out those two are 'together'…" I leave the ending off.

Gohan chuckles.. " Hai Otousan."

Vegeta says something to Gohan in his quiet voice and the young boy blushes.

I shake my head. Whoever would have thought that it would be those two.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Piccolo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


I watch as the two leave. My heart begins to go to shreds again.

I wonder if the pain is visible on my face because Goku looks at me oddly again.

I turn to stare at him. I am curious. Why does he keep staring at me?

He blushes for no apparent reason and mumbles a good bye. I watch as he exits the room quickly.

I stand, still confused by his actions.

I sit back on my stool and pick up my guitar.

I idly strum a few chords. Suddenly a song I had played once before comes to me. It echos my own turbulent emotions. My voice comes out raw and low.

"
Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me. "
The music comes harder now. I can feel my own emotions well up as I continue my lament to the empty air before me. My eyes have closed as I rock back and forth to the inner beat that thuds in my mind and blood.


"Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see fall from grace

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
I cheat, but for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
I cheat, but for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO!
So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight "

My mind is full of nothing but my heartache. I can't stop this pain. The music makes it harder to pay attention to it.

"Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
I cheat, but for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me."

My voice drowns down to a near whisper.


"Part of me…….."



The word linger in the air for a few seconds then drift off to parts unknown. I set the guitar down and start to hurry out the door. I have let my guard down and feel so exposed and vulnerable. As I turn to exit the room I nearly hit something solid in the middle of the hall.

The person blocking my exit stares at me with a shocked look on his face.


Goku…

And he heard every thing.

My mind panics. He has heard what had dwelt in my innermost heart. I feel so humiliated. I do the only thing that comes to mind.

I run…

To Be continued.

To all those waiting on Vegeta's and Gohan's point of view… Yes it is coming but I had to write this part. I write on bursts of inspiration.

Hope you like it. It took a lot of thought. I hope it isn't as crappy as I think it is.
Please read and review!

Domo Arigatou!