SN: hello everyone!! How ya doin'!? Hehehehe.sorry, it's just that I'm listening to Z100 (NYC and metropolitan area radio station for those who don't know) and that Yankees song just came up. Except this time it's like "NEW YORK! How ya doin' how, how ya doin YANKEES! How ya doin' how, how ya doin'."and so on and so on. And why am I telling you this? Mmmmm.good question, must be the medicine. Oh yeah, can I ask you all a question? And somebody who is not a New Yorker answer this please? Why do some people consider New Yorkers to be all up on themselves and that they don't give crap about others that aren't themselves. I mean yeah with what happened in 9/11 people stopped stereotyping New Yorkers that way, but why some of you gotta be sayin' we all stuck up for? I asked all my friends and none of them dunno why either. Is it cuz of our street smarts, fresh mouth? I have a friend who moved down to Florida and she said that people down there think that we New Yorkers are snobs who only care about themselves. So someone please answer that? Anywayz, Well today I'm home sick. Lets see.it's 10:12, right now Sapphie is in English, and I'd be in it too, except I'm sick (HAHAHA You gonna hafta put up with Mirian!!!) *ahem* sorry had to get that out. me dunno what else to say other then.awww, just read and find out! Pretty please!? *puppy dog eyes*

~*Star Princess*~

Key: that's it, I'm not saying shiiiiiitt! Hehehehe except for song lyrics=*lyrics*

Disclaimer: *groan* I can't believe I hafta put another one of this up!! Well anywayz for this chapter I'm using a song, "To Fall In Love Again" sung by Jessica Simpson. I don't own shiiiiitt! Get it, got it, good. Somebody owns this song, So don't come around suing me for something I don't own! And I might as well refresh your memory's by saying "I don't own cc/ccs characters. The only people I own are Stacy Almer and Jeremy.

True Emotions

Chapter 8 (*squeal* 3 more chapters and an epilogue to go, yay!!!)

Sakura sat in her room flipping through channels. That night Meiling, Tomoyo, Syaoran, and her were suppose to go out and celebrate on winning the championship. Just when they were about to leave Stacy came saying she had a surprise for Syaoran and she wanted to give it to him. (SN: not like that! you nasty perverted minds out there!!!) He left saying that he would come back in half an hour. An hour had passed by and there was no sign of Syaoran what so ever. He then had called saying that stacys' "surprise" was her taking him out to eat at a restaurant an hour away. Meiling was furious when she found out. Sakura was also angry. This was the third time that Stacy had done that. Madison had suggested that the three should go out on their own but Sakura didn't feel up to it. She then went up to her room, told Kero she wanted to be left alone, and had been up there since then. Kero had left saying that he would spend the night in Madison's bedroom. She then gave up on channel surfing and turned off the TV. She went up to the mini-stereo in her room and popped in a CD her cousin from the US had sent her. She then walked out into the balcony and from there admired to star-filled sky. She then heard the soft music coming from the mini-stereo. She smiled, the song that began was one that she never understood, at least until now. She then started to sing along.

*So faithfully, holding tight to every dream

I thought our love would ever be.

As the scent of hope slips through my fingers

It's plain for me to see.*

How true those words were. Sakura always had hope that she and Syaoran would somehow overcome Stacy and be together. Now, those dreams seemed nearly impossible. As the days passed by, she felt him treating her more like a friend, she didn't see the love in his eyes that she once used to see.

'Idiot!'

She scolded herself.

'It took you all these years to finally realize how much he loved you back then'

a tear trickled down her left cheek as she thought about how dense she had been back then.

*I can feel now in your eyes their changing way you look at me

Where's the love we knew would last us eternally

(Chorus) and will your arms still hold me

And your eyes console me, baby please,

Don't turn your back and just pretend.*

'What if I don't save him in time? Then he'll love Stacy completely and he'll never remember the love he once had for me. I'll just be another "friend" and he'll dedicate himself to making her happy'

*That your heart still needs me

And your soul completes me

Can we find a way to fall in love again (end of chorus).*

'I'm not gonna let that happen. I need him. I lost him once, I won't loose him again. Especially to her.'

*It's hard for you

When your heart has opened up to feelings that you never knew

Never thinking that you'd doubt our love

You don't know what to do

1 I'd give anything my heart, my soul if I

Could pull you through

Just to find again my love we hold so true.(chorus)*

'That's right, I would give anything just to get you back. I would give my life, just to know that he is safe.'

Another tear slid down her face. Who knew love would hurt so much.

*And as every night goes by

With every lonely tear I cry

It's so clear to me

I need you by my side. (Chorus fades out)*

How badly Sakura wanted Syaoran to come up to her at that very moment and hold her tight in a sweet embrace. She wanted him to tell her that everything was going to be alright and that he loved her.

"That was a beautiful song, sad but none the less beautiful"

Sakura immediately turned around upon hearing those words. She tried to hide her tears as best as possible.

"Oh hi Lil"

(SN: HA! You all thought it was Syaoran, right?) "Don't worry so much Sakura, you'll figure out a way to help him. We know it and deep inside your heart you know it too. Now, why don't you get some sleep. Tomorrow's a brand new day and a fresh new beginning." Sakura smiled at Lil. She reminded her so much of Syaoran. They had the same caring chocolate colored eyes.

"you're right, good night Lil"

"good night Sakura"

Sakura then fell into a peaceful sleep.

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'oh no, not this again!'

Sakura thought. She was in the same dark room as she had been in before in her previous dream.

"So you actually think you can defeat me?"

"And what makes you think I can't"

Sakura shot back (SN: I'm sorry ^_^ I can never stay quiet when somebody says something so I had to make her say something back. I couldn't just let her stand there like a dumbass and not say anything!)

"Don't get your hopes up. As everyday that passes by, I'm winning and you're loosing" it then gave out a shrill laugh and disappeared

"OK, weird"

Sakura said. All of a sudden her surroundings started to change. It was no longer dark. She seemed to be in some sort of woods. She looked to her left and saw Syaoran's mansion nearby. She seemed to be deep into the backyard of it. She then heard an explosion and a scream. She immediately recognized it

"Tomoyo!" She ran until she reached the place where the noise came from. She was now in a small clearing at the back of the mansion. The sight before her was terrible. Tomoyo was lying on the ground near a giant rock, unconscious. Her camera was next to her and its lens was broken. Lil and Mandy and Meiling were lying unconscious near some trees. Yelan, jenn, and steph were trapped in some sort of shield that if they tried to escape, it would send an electrical current to them. She then saw that Syaoran was the only one still left standing. He had his sword in his hand and even though he was severely injured, he tried to fight back the shadowy figure. A strong amount of energy was sent his way and he crashed onto some trees. He was severely injured and couldn't get up. The shadow then gathered on last amount of energy and held it in its left hand. "If I can't have you, nobody will"

it whispered and then send the energy ball towards the badly wounded Syaoran.

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"NOOOOOO!!!!"

Sakura shot up in bed screaming. She was panting heavily. Once she realized it had all been a terrible nightmare, her breathing became less laborious.

'What did that mean? Could it be that's whats going to happen? No! It won't!'

Sakura said while shaking her head as to get rid of that thought. The dream seemed so real. She then took a glimpse at her clock and saw it was already 5:00am. She kicked away her covers and got out of bed.

'Might as well go to the kitchen and get a drink'

there was no chance in hell she was getting any more sleep after that dream.

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Syaoran was sitting at the kitchen table. He had been there now for hours. His head was hurting so much he couldn't get no sleep whatsoever.

"What wrong with me?"

he asked himself out loud. The pain was unbearable.

'I need to do something. I can't take this any longer.'

He then saw a recently sharpened knife lying a few inches away from his grasp. He immediately grabbed it.

'I can stop all my pain now'

was the first thing that came into his mind.

'Yeah, I think that's exactly what I'll do. Stop my suffering right here.'

He then put the cool blade against he warm wrist.

~*To Be Continued*~



SN: *squeal* yay! A cliff hanger!!! Ohmigod, what is Syaoran gonna do! Even I wanna know!! Oh wait a minute.I do know!! -_-; well for those of you who wanna find out continue reading! I told ya it was gonna get better! And trust me, this is only the beginning of the end...well, I gotta go to sleep, and get my strength back so I can go back to school tomorrow *blechhhh* well c-ya ppls and remember.review, review, review!!!

~*Star Princess*~