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XV - Reshape the Heart II - Shaoran
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Daisuke was bored, he was reading a book he had to finish for class
but he was not interested in the heinan history of poetry. He glanced
at the other side of the couch where Sakura was curled up in the
corner working on engineering problems.

He smiled, ever since she revealed her secret to him he felt as if he
had unlocked a part of her that he could never touch. Before when she
kissed it was as if she wanted to give him herself but always held
back. Her kisses took on a sort of desperate tone lingering at the
end.

But now...

He took the tassel on the corner of the pillow and brushed it up and
down her barefoot.

"Daisuke..." she said her eyes not moving from her book.

"Yes?" he asked as he dragged the tassel along her toes and back down
over the arch of the foot.

"Is there something you want?"

"You could try guessing."

She turned to him and said, "I have no idea, please tell me."

He smiled at her and said, "You." and launched himself at her.

"Kyaa!" she exclaimed with laughter.

"I was so bored." he managed to say before their lips met.

Sakura laughed and let her hands slip into his hair and his lips
caught hers again and what seemed like forever passed before they
broke apart their breaths uneven.

/I love you./ her eyes seemed to say. He nodded in reply.

"All of you." she whispered as she reached up to him and kissed him
again. Daisuke wrapped his arms around her, one hand traveling up the
side of her body. Sakura pushed her books off the couch and settled
down underneath him.

He stopped letting his hand rest on her stomach and just kissed her.
Kissing her now was amazing, free, as if he was the only one she
wanted to kiss. No words described the amazing feeling of flying when
he kissed her. They broke apart again and he let his head rest on her
chest.

"Daisuke..." she whispered.

"Hmm?"

"Can- can we have the wedding in Tomoeda?" she asked. "Would your
mother object... because its important to me."

"I don't see why not." he said.

"Are you sure?" she asked.

"I think so, I doubt my mother would object, if its important that we
marry in Tomoeda I won't object."

Her chest fell as she let out a breath.

"And... and... can we live in Tomoeda?" she asked.

"Well..." he said, "it depends on how far it is from Saga."

"Ahh." she said.

"And from your job when you get one." he said as he let his fingers
play with the buttons on her shirt, unbuttoning them buttoning them
again.

"But I'm sure we can find a happy medium." he said.

"Of course." she said.

"Sakura..." he said.

"Yes?"

He shifted so that he was laying on his back and Sakura was on top of
him. She looked down at him confused, "yes?" she asked again.

"I need...." he did not know how to pose the question.

"Is this about Dark?" she asked.

He nodded. "I want to know if you want... I... I need a son." he said
in a defeated manner. He couldn't find a way to pose the question
with out sounding stupid.

She smiled at him with a blush. "Well that's up to mother nature."

He smiled back. "True, but if we do have a son... I want him to take
on the family tradition, but I wanted to make sure that it was all
right with you."

She smiled as she kissed him, "I wouldn't imagine it any other way,
Dark would be a good guide for him when he reaches that age."

He smiled back.

"Our children will hate us for forcing them into situations they
won't like." she said as she let her head rest on his shoulder.

"But they'll appreciate it later when it finds them someone special."

"Yes." she said.

"What about the cards?" he asked.

"They're mine." she said. "That magic belongs to me, I can will them
to anybody I want but they have to make that magic their own."

"What strange parents we'll be." he whispered, "Your magic and my
DNA."

She laughed, "No stranger than any parent I bet."

He laughed back and kissed her.




"No! No!" Sakura exclaimed as she tried to escape Daisuke's grasp.

He laughed as he caught up to her and grabbed her around the waist.
Sakura laughed as she tried to escape his arms. "I'm not that bad at
bladeing!"

"We're going to fall over!" she exclaimed.

"No we aren't- whoooooah!"

"Sakura! Daisuke!" Ran exclaimed as she ran towards them.

Sakura gasped raising her arms as she fell to the ground. Daisuke
folded her into his arms as they went down. They rolled off the
concrete and into the grass.

"Sakura?" he asked as he looked down at her.

"I-"

"Sakura!" Daisuke was pushed away as another man came between
them. "Are you alright?"

Sakura blinked the spots away from her eyes. Her vision cleared as
she focused on a face she hadn't seen in three years. For a moment
she was brought back to high school. She reached for his face and
stopped. "Shaoran?" she whispered surprised.

"You alright?" he asked as he picked her up off the ground.

"Yes, I'm fine, just shaken up." she said. "I can stand."

He let her down.

"Daisuke!" she exclaimed looking around.

"Here." he said as he stood next to her.

Sakura turned to him and smiled warmly, "Hurt badly?"

"No." he said with a smile, "Just a few bruises."

Someone cleared their throat. Sakura quickly looked at Shaoran. "Hoe?
What are you doing here?"




Sakura had cleaned herself up, dressed some minor cuts and pulled on
clean clothes. Daisuke was sitting outside with Ran. She took a deep
breath as she tried to steady her hands. Shaoran was back and sitting
on her couch.

"You look good." she said as she made iced tea.

"Thank you." he said simply. He wore a grey suit, the shirt
unbuttoned at the top, black boots. His brown hair was cut to
something more conservative. He looked very 'together'.

'Of course he's probably running the Li family by now.' Sakura
thought. She was glad that her hands had something to do. It kept
them from shaking. Sakura was very confused. Out of no where Shaoran
returned and found her in Toudai. She was surprised Tomoyo hadn't
come along to film the experience.

"So do you." he said, his eyes intensely demanding more than just
small talk.

"So not to be rude, but why are you here?"

"Mei and I seperated." he said.

"Oh?" she said as she poured tea. She spilled a bit on the
counter. "I see." she said as she mopped up the tea with a sponge.
She noted her hands were shaking. 'Why?' she asked herself, 'He no
longer needed you.'

"So I convinced my family to let me come to you." he said.

Shaoran was sitting on the couch. He had grown taller since she last
saw him. Sakura could tell by the way he folded himself into a
comfortable sitting position on the couch, which was known for its
droopy, soft spots. He let his arms rest on his knees as he looked up
at her.

"I came back for you." he said after a moment of silence.

Sakura looked at him for a moment.

"So things didn't work out with you and Mei?" she said backtracking.
Things seemed to come at her all at once. She needed to think about
this one step at a time.

He shook his head, "No." he said, "My mother finally relented and let
me come to you." he said. His tone spoke of impatience. She knew that
he had been waiting, preparing for this moment.

Sakura sighed as she crossed her arms infront of her chest. She
leaned against the kitchen counter. Her eyes caught the flowers
Daisuke had given her.

"I was hoping we could work things out." Shaoran said. "Maybe not
pick up where we left off, but start somewhere."

"But I'm-"

"I know." he said, "But I can't stand the fact that you are. I can't-
I need to try."

Sakura looked up from the flowers to Shaoran.

"You expect me to drop everything and say, 'Alright! Let's start
dating!'?" she asked.

"No!" he exclaimed. "Just start slow... or... I don't know, I can
wait. If you need time, or anything, I can do it. This time its not
pressure," he said, "I just want you."

Sakura sat down next to Shaoran and took his hands, "I don't think it
will work." she said. She looked at the flowers, "I found someone
else." she said.

Shaoran looked hurt.

"I had to move on." she whispered.




"So do you know who he is?" Daisuke asked.

"Not in person." Ran said, "I met Sakura after her breakup with
Shaoran. I met her while ditching class. She was ditching too."

"Ahhh." Daisuke said.

Ran smiled at him, "Don't worry." she said, "She may be attached to
her past but you're very important to her."

Daisuke nodded, "I hope so."

"Hello, where's Sakura?" Yuri called as she jogged over. She
collapsed on the bench next to Daisuke with a sigh, "Ahhhh done. I
love running in the spring."

"Inside." Daisuke said a bit dully.

"Oh?" she asked looking up at him.

"With Shaoran." he said.

Yuri's eyes widened. "But I thought he was engaged."

Daisuke looked at the apartment. "I thought the same, but it seems
like he wants her back."

"You don't know that." she said.

"He threw me off Sakura when we fell today. He picked her up in his
arms and seemed to ignore everybody else."

"That doesn't mean anything." Ran said as she closed her eyes.

Yuri nodded, "Well I'm not surprised."

"No?" Ran asked surprised.

"No," Yuri said as she sat up, "See, Sakura and Shaoran were very
much in love with each other. Well Sakura saw it that way." she
glanced at Daisuke, "I'm sure she's told you her story."

Daisuke nodded.

"I knew Shaoran when he attended Toudai. He was always around Sakura
and it seemed that they would marry." Yuri sighed, "But something
happened and they fought, Shaoran wanted Sakura to return to Hong
Kong with him. Sakura couldn't bear to leave Japan, not so soon in
her life."

"They fought about it off and on, Sakura and Shaoran were very
complimentary for each other, it was as if they were made for each
other."

Daisuke felt his confidence waver. "I see..."

"Until one day Shaoran came to the apartment and asked her to marry
him." Yuri said, "Naturally Sakura was excited to say yes, but the
condition was that she had to leave Toudai and live with him in Hong
Kong. She would naturally have all the freedom to study and visit,
but once again she had to leave Japan."

"Sakura didn't want to leave Japan. She had always expected that
Shaoran would live here with her and when it was time to take over
the Li Family they would return. But his family wanted him home. He
was pressured to marry someone they had arranged or bring someone
home." Yuri said."She felt herself being pressured too early into a
marriage that she wanted. She had expected to grow and set her
career."

"Shaoran pressured her into something she couldn't do." Ran said
sadly, Daisuke turned to Ran, she had her arms crossed across her
chest, her eyes closed, leaning back against the bench. "Her memories
of Shaoran and her childhood were always bitter sweet. She rarely
spoke about her childhood but when she did they held so much
happiness and so much pain at the same time. She loved Shaoran very
much, he was her first love."

"First loves die harder." Daisuke said sadly. "They always have the
power to drag you back."

"I'm sorry this isn't very optimistic." Yuri said, "But she loves
you, she agreed to marry you, not Shaoran."

Daisuke smiled, "Yes she did."




"Moved... on?" Shaoran said.

Sakura stood up and walked back to the kitchenette. "Yes. Things
change, I changed." she said as she placed the glasses of iced tea on
the tray. She looked out the window to see Yuri sitting next to Ran
and Daisuke and added a glass. She wiped her sweaty palms on the dish
cloth.

"I see." he said.

"Would you like to meet him?" Sakura asked as she walked to the door
with the tray.

"Not right now." he said.

Sakura put the tray down on the counter and walked over to Shaoran,
he was standing and looking out the window. Sakura looked out the
same window.

"Does he know?" he asked.

Sakura nodded, "Yes," she said, "I never thought I'd find someone
that would understand so well besides you." She closed her eyes for a
moment then opened them again, "I don't deserve him, but I'm so glad
to have him." she said softly.

"I'm sorry." he said, "I wish I understood, I shouldn't have come."
he turned to leave.

"No!" Sakura exclaimed turning to him, "I'm glad you came." she
caught his arm.

Shaoran looked down at her, "You are?"

"Yes." she said, "when we last talked, things ended so badly." she
looked down, "I always regretted that."

He smiled, "Me too."

She looked up at him, "We may never be able to go back to the way
things were." she said, "But we can be friends. You were my closest
friend besides Tomoyo. I don't want to lose that."

He shook his head, "I don't know..."

Sakura turned away from him, "Think about it." she said. "We've been
though too much to end things the way they are." she picked up her
tray and walked out to give iced tea to her friends.




'She's in there with her first love.' Daisuke thought. 'He's probably
very understanding and doesn't morph into another personality. He
probably understands her magic better than I ever could.'

/I don't deserve you but I'm glad I have you./

'She could leave me...' Daisuke thought as he slipped further and
further into gloominess.

"Sorry it took so long." Sakura's voice broke through his gloom.

Daisuke looked up. Sakura walked across the quad towards them with a
tray. She looked beautiful, faded jeans, white shirt, pink cardigan.
He almost smiled at the change she had gone through. When he first
met her she was very dark. Now her clothes reflected her happiness.
Daisuke took a moment to selfishly note that he had a part in that
happiness. The wind played with her hair and ruffled her cardigan.

"Let me help you." Ran said as she got up. She turned to Yuri with
the tray.

Yuri smiled, "Let me help too." she got up and handed two glasses to
Sakura and Daisuke. "You know..." Yuri said, "we need some snacks I'm
starving."

"I'll go with you." Ran said.

Sakura wanted to groan about the unsubtle exit her two friends just
did, but the embarrassment was outweighed by the grateful feeling of
being alone with Daisuke, who looked apprehensive. Sakura turned to
Daisuke. He looked up at her. "So..."

She leaning towards him as she pushed her hair back behind her ears,
she kissed him. "Silly," she said, "you think I'd forget all that
you've done for me?"

"Its just that he's-"

"My first love?" she asked softly.

He nodded.

"He may be my first love, but you're the one I want." she said, "This
may sound sappy and romantic, but its true. I mean it when I said
that I don't deserve you but that I am glad that I have you."

Daisuke grinned and kissed her back.

"Shaoran didn't want to meet you, but hopefully some day he'll come
around and see how good you are to me." she said as she sat next to
him.

"So that means you still want to marry me?" he asked in a half joking
tone.

She took his face in her hands and gave him a kiss that put those
words to shame.

"Sa-sakura!" he exclaimed turning red.

She chuckled.

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+ 2 more chapters to go. Wheee~ ^^ To be honest this is the part of
the fic I wasn't sure about. But I wanted to write a part of the
story where Shaoran returns, Sakura has to face her ghosts before she
moves on with Daisuke. I'm not sure if this is the right way. Oh
well.

+ next chapter: Shaoran meets Daisuke. (Ooooh)