Hey guys, finally, the first chapter is up. I'm really sorry it took so long, so much has been going on. I started school last week, was swamped with work, and now the tragedy of the WTC and Pentagon bombings… My god, it's all so horrible. I'm so sorry to anyone who has lost someone dear to them in any of these terrible events, my heart goes out to all of you.
I live in the next borough from Manhattan, Staten Island, and well, basically the past few days have been hell for all of us. There have been bomb threats, scares, and thoughts that the terrorists were running around SI, on foot. Needless to say, I was scared out of my mind yesterday, and I have to say, Fanfiction.net really did help.
Most of you are probably thinking I'm on crack or something, claiming that FF.Net helped me, but it did. It got my mind off of the terrible events, and I needed that. I needed to get my mind away from the horror going on around me, and focus on something that would make me happier, and I found it, in all of the stories that I read.
At first, I was hesitant of posting a chapter, my heart just wasn't in the right place. But after reading so many fics, being able to get my mind off of the tragedies, I wonder if maybe, posting a chapter can help, if only it does get one person's mind off of the horrors going on around us.
Maybe this is just a whole bunch of bullshit, and you'll all think I'm nuts, but, it helped me, and I hope, reading some fics, helps you get away, if only for a few hours, minutes or seconds, you are able to escape the tragedies around you.
Once again, my heart goes out to anyone who has lost someone in the horrible tragedies that now plague our country.
~Krissy
P.S. Totally off subject, would anyone be able to find me some pics, I want to make a few banners to add to my sight so I can finally put my fics up on my own site, but I can't really find any pics! Please, email me if you have any!!
MissyKrissy143@aol.com mailto:MissyKrissy143@aol.com
Disclaimer: I do not own anything affiliated with So Weird. I wish I owned Erik, but sadly, I don't.
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'He was my first slow dance, crush, and hero all rolled into one. Sure, I've had boyfriends and other crushes, but he was different. He was my best friend, the guy I could turn to for anything, and it was like we were linked. He always believed me, and always protected me. But ever since that night, things haven't been the same. I've moved on, what else could I have done?
And yet, there's still this part of me that still loves him. When he first broke my heart, Annie told me I was insane to still feel for him, especially after everything he had said. But, how I can I forget these feelings when he's always there, as a constant reminder of what could have been?
Don't get me wrong- I love Peter. I love him with all my heart. But there's just this part of me that still yearns for Clu; that still dreams that we can be together. And that diary is why I'm not looking forward to this little summer get together. Because I'm afraid. I'm afraid if I spend more time with Clu then I already have, those feelings will come back. And I don't think I'd have enough heart to handle rejection again.'
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" Fi, hey, we're landing." Jack laughed, looking over at his sister.
" We are?" Fiona looked up dazed from her journal, smiling weakly at her brother. She stood up, ready to get her luggage but her brother pulled her back down.
" Fi, we're in the back of the plane. I don't think your gonna get out any time soon, just wait a bit." Jack said and Fiona nodded sheepishly. " Hey, you ok?"
" I'm fine." Fiona grinned. " Just a little anxious, ya know?"
" Yeah… I know exactly how you feel." Jack smiled at his sister.
" What if they've changed?"
" Fi, it's only been six months."
" A lot can happen in six months." Fiona said quietly.
" I don't think Peter's feelings for you have changed, if that's what your worried about Fi. From what Clu and Kat say, your all he talks about." Jack grinned and then laughed as his sister blushed.
" I guess your right… I just worry, you know? I mean we're here in Boston, and they're so far away… I just keep worrying that he'll find this girl that's prettier then me, smarter, and I'll just be yesterday's news." Fiona said quietly and Jack sighed, placing a hand on his sister's shoulder.
" He won't do that to you Fi, he loves you." Jack said, then smiled. " Besides, if he did, then his ass is mine- it's one of the perks of being the big brother." Fiona laughed at his comment, shrugging.
" And you'd totally kick his ass too." Fiona teased.
" Hey, I'm insulted." Jack protested, pretending to look hurt.
" Well you wouldn't." Fiona grinned, beginning to get up. She gently poked her brother, prompting her brother to get up so she could get out. Taking out her carry-on from the overhead compartment, Fiona followed her brother off the airplane, through the long temporary hallway (donno what it's called- yes I'm an idiot.) towards the gate.
" Jack!!" She heard Annie squeal and saw a blur of blond hair rush to Fiona's brother. Fiona laughed, looking at Carey.
" Hey." He said, giving his friend a hug. " How's Boston U?" Carey asked, grinning.
" It's boring." Fiona said, smiling.
" Aww, no weird stuff?"
" There is, but some party pooper is never up to the challenge." Fiona said, making sure her brother heard her.
" Hey, is it my fault I want people to think my sister's at least a tiny bit sane?" Jack teased.
" I missed you guys so much." Annie exclaimed, hugging Fiona. " I couldn't wait til you guys got here!
" She really did- she wouldn't shut up the whole ride here." Carey said and the teens laughed.
" Is it my fault I missed my friends?" Annie exclaimed, blushing.
" I think it's cute." Jack said, hugging the girl again. Fiona rolled her eyes and Carey cleared his throat, smiling.
" We do have other places to go." He announced.
" When do they get in?" Fiona asked anxiously as the four began to walk.
" Half an hour. And no Jack, we can't get food, by the time we take the tram and find the gate, they'll be getting off." Annie said, laughing as Jack pouted.
" Here, eat away." Fiona said, reaching into her bag. She threw a pack of airplane trail mix at her brother, who smiled.
" Thanks Fi."
" What would you do without me Jack?" Fiona laughed as the four boarded the tram. " Where do we get off?"
" D… three stops." Carey said, looking at the paper his mother had given him, filled with the numbers of his friend's flights and their gates.
" Cool…" Fiona smiled, looking out the tram windows.
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(were shifting to Clu's P.O.V. now people!)
I looked out the small plane window, smiling wistfully at the scene below. In only ten minutes or so, I'll be back with my friends. I should be happy right? I get to finally see the people I considered family, for the first time in months. So why aren't I, you ask? Gee, let me give you a hint. He's got brown hair, extremely annoying, and is right now, making my life a living hell. Ok, so maybe the visual wasn't exactly the best, but whatever.
" Hey." Kat tapped me on my arm, interrupting my thoughts.
" Huh?"
" You ok?" She asked, looking at me. I shrugged, grinning.
" Yeah, just peachy. Just wish a certain someone would calm down." I said and Kat laughed, rolling her eyes.
" You'd think he'd be used to flying already." She said softly, grinning.
" Hey guys." Peter said to us, and Kat moved in as much as he could, so Peter could once again sit between us.
" You ok now Peter?" Kat teased.
" Very funny." Peter moaned. His face was paler then usual, and his hair was stuck in clumps to his forehead, sweat glistening his face.
" Peter, we're almost there, you'll be fine." I sighed, going back to my book. " Stop fidgeting man, your making the guy in front of you nuts."
" I can't help it…" Peter sighed, leaning over me to see out the window. " How much longer?"
" Five minutes, tops." Kat said reassuringly, gently putting one of her hands over his, which were at the moment grasping the elbow rests. " Look, there's the landing strip." She said, pointing out the window. I rolled my eyes as Peter breathed a sigh of relief.
" What was that?!" Peter gasped, his eyes wide as the plane landed.
" We just landed Peter, honestly, next time we fly, remind me to get you some friggen Dramamine." I said, sighing.
" If I could take it, don't you think I would have already?" Peter hissed, glaring at me.
" Guys…" Kat sighed, looking at the two of us.
" Sorry." Peter muttered, flashing her a grin. " I just- plane rides get me so stressed out, and I can't take the Dramamine, I'm allergic."
" It's ok Peter, we're all afraid of something." Kat said, smiling as the flight attendants announced that we could leave the plane.
" Ladies and Gentlemen, I hope you enjoyed your flight." The captain spoke as the attendants walked to the front, opening the door of the plane.
" Thank God." Peter gasped, standing up with us.
" Geez Peter, calm down, they're going to be there when we get out. They're not going anywhere!" Kat exclaimed as he practically knocked her down, trying to get out. I reached out and steadied her, glaring in the path Peter had just taken. " Thanks." She mumbled, reaching into the overhead compartments. She grabbed both our bags, and tossing mine to me, led the way out of the airplane.
" Its nice that he's so excited to see her, but… can't he control himself a little?" I muttered as we tried to find him in the crowd of people leaving the plane.
" I think it's cute." Kat gushed, grinning. She would, she's a girl. I rolled my eyes, following her silently through the walkway, knowing that our friends had located us.
" Peter!!" The familiar voice exclaimed and I closed my eyes.
" Hey, you sure your gonna be ok?" Kat asked softly, looking at me.
" Yeah, I'll be fine. I mean, I was fine with it the last time, why not now?"
" No offence, but you've never been around the two together…"
" I'll be fine Kat." I lied, hoping she didn't see my pained expression. Kat opened her mouth to say something, but thankfully was interrupted as we caught up to our friends, and my dear brother hugged her.
" Hey Kat."
" Hey yourself." Kat smiled, blushing a little as he kissed her. I laughed, pretending to barf. Kat stuck her tongue out at me and I laughed again, then turned my attention to locating a certain someone.
" I missed you so much!!" Fiona's voice called and I turned, smiling as she ran towards me, her arms open. I opened my arms, ready to receive her hug. Instead, reality slapped me in the face as she passed me, rushing to Peter who was behind me. I sighed, trying to forget the fact that she was Peter's, not mine anymore.
" Clu!!" Another female voice called and I felt someone hug me. Turning my head, I saw the familiar blond hair and laughed, surprised. " We missed you so much!!"
" Hey Annie." I smiled, returning the hug. " I missed you guys too."
" Hey man, how was the ride?" Jack asked, walking up to us. I laughed, rolling my eyes.
" It was horrible."
" How come?" Carey asked, he and Kat joining the small circle Annie, Jack and I were standing in.
" Someone, not mentioning any names- PETER- kept moving around, asking 'are we there yet' every ten friggen seconds." Kat put in.
" It's not my fault I hate planes." Peter complained, pouting. " If the guy hadn't hit so many bumps-"
" Peter we didn't hit any turbulence." I said, laughing.
" You try being a vampire and say that." Peter muttered, and I rolled my eyes.
" Poor you." Fiona said, hugging Peter once again. " Ignore them, they always complain."
" Oh lord, and it begins." Jack rolled his eyes, and we all laughed.
" It's gonna be a long ride home, isn't it?" Carey muttered, sighing.
" With those four in the car? Oh yeah." Kat laughed, pointing to the couple in front of us, who were slowly, but surely, making me sick to my stomach. Yep, jealously is a bitch.
I live in the next borough from Manhattan, Staten Island, and well, basically the past few days have been hell for all of us. There have been bomb threats, scares, and thoughts that the terrorists were running around SI, on foot. Needless to say, I was scared out of my mind yesterday, and I have to say, Fanfiction.net really did help.
Most of you are probably thinking I'm on crack or something, claiming that FF.Net helped me, but it did. It got my mind off of the terrible events, and I needed that. I needed to get my mind away from the horror going on around me, and focus on something that would make me happier, and I found it, in all of the stories that I read.
At first, I was hesitant of posting a chapter, my heart just wasn't in the right place. But after reading so many fics, being able to get my mind off of the tragedies, I wonder if maybe, posting a chapter can help, if only it does get one person's mind off of the horrors going on around us.
Maybe this is just a whole bunch of bullshit, and you'll all think I'm nuts, but, it helped me, and I hope, reading some fics, helps you get away, if only for a few hours, minutes or seconds, you are able to escape the tragedies around you.
Once again, my heart goes out to anyone who has lost someone in the horrible tragedies that now plague our country.
~Krissy
P.S. Totally off subject, would anyone be able to find me some pics, I want to make a few banners to add to my sight so I can finally put my fics up on my own site, but I can't really find any pics! Please, email me if you have any!!
MissyKrissy143@aol.com mailto:MissyKrissy143@aol.com
Disclaimer: I do not own anything affiliated with So Weird. I wish I owned Erik, but sadly, I don't.
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'He was my first slow dance, crush, and hero all rolled into one. Sure, I've had boyfriends and other crushes, but he was different. He was my best friend, the guy I could turn to for anything, and it was like we were linked. He always believed me, and always protected me. But ever since that night, things haven't been the same. I've moved on, what else could I have done?
And yet, there's still this part of me that still loves him. When he first broke my heart, Annie told me I was insane to still feel for him, especially after everything he had said. But, how I can I forget these feelings when he's always there, as a constant reminder of what could have been?
Don't get me wrong- I love Peter. I love him with all my heart. But there's just this part of me that still yearns for Clu; that still dreams that we can be together. And that diary is why I'm not looking forward to this little summer get together. Because I'm afraid. I'm afraid if I spend more time with Clu then I already have, those feelings will come back. And I don't think I'd have enough heart to handle rejection again.'
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" Fi, hey, we're landing." Jack laughed, looking over at his sister.
" We are?" Fiona looked up dazed from her journal, smiling weakly at her brother. She stood up, ready to get her luggage but her brother pulled her back down.
" Fi, we're in the back of the plane. I don't think your gonna get out any time soon, just wait a bit." Jack said and Fiona nodded sheepishly. " Hey, you ok?"
" I'm fine." Fiona grinned. " Just a little anxious, ya know?"
" Yeah… I know exactly how you feel." Jack smiled at his sister.
" What if they've changed?"
" Fi, it's only been six months."
" A lot can happen in six months." Fiona said quietly.
" I don't think Peter's feelings for you have changed, if that's what your worried about Fi. From what Clu and Kat say, your all he talks about." Jack grinned and then laughed as his sister blushed.
" I guess your right… I just worry, you know? I mean we're here in Boston, and they're so far away… I just keep worrying that he'll find this girl that's prettier then me, smarter, and I'll just be yesterday's news." Fiona said quietly and Jack sighed, placing a hand on his sister's shoulder.
" He won't do that to you Fi, he loves you." Jack said, then smiled. " Besides, if he did, then his ass is mine- it's one of the perks of being the big brother." Fiona laughed at his comment, shrugging.
" And you'd totally kick his ass too." Fiona teased.
" Hey, I'm insulted." Jack protested, pretending to look hurt.
" Well you wouldn't." Fiona grinned, beginning to get up. She gently poked her brother, prompting her brother to get up so she could get out. Taking out her carry-on from the overhead compartment, Fiona followed her brother off the airplane, through the long temporary hallway (donno what it's called- yes I'm an idiot.) towards the gate.
" Jack!!" She heard Annie squeal and saw a blur of blond hair rush to Fiona's brother. Fiona laughed, looking at Carey.
" Hey." He said, giving his friend a hug. " How's Boston U?" Carey asked, grinning.
" It's boring." Fiona said, smiling.
" Aww, no weird stuff?"
" There is, but some party pooper is never up to the challenge." Fiona said, making sure her brother heard her.
" Hey, is it my fault I want people to think my sister's at least a tiny bit sane?" Jack teased.
" I missed you guys so much." Annie exclaimed, hugging Fiona. " I couldn't wait til you guys got here!
" She really did- she wouldn't shut up the whole ride here." Carey said and the teens laughed.
" Is it my fault I missed my friends?" Annie exclaimed, blushing.
" I think it's cute." Jack said, hugging the girl again. Fiona rolled her eyes and Carey cleared his throat, smiling.
" We do have other places to go." He announced.
" When do they get in?" Fiona asked anxiously as the four began to walk.
" Half an hour. And no Jack, we can't get food, by the time we take the tram and find the gate, they'll be getting off." Annie said, laughing as Jack pouted.
" Here, eat away." Fiona said, reaching into her bag. She threw a pack of airplane trail mix at her brother, who smiled.
" Thanks Fi."
" What would you do without me Jack?" Fiona laughed as the four boarded the tram. " Where do we get off?"
" D… three stops." Carey said, looking at the paper his mother had given him, filled with the numbers of his friend's flights and their gates.
" Cool…" Fiona smiled, looking out the tram windows.
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(were shifting to Clu's P.O.V. now people!)
I looked out the small plane window, smiling wistfully at the scene below. In only ten minutes or so, I'll be back with my friends. I should be happy right? I get to finally see the people I considered family, for the first time in months. So why aren't I, you ask? Gee, let me give you a hint. He's got brown hair, extremely annoying, and is right now, making my life a living hell. Ok, so maybe the visual wasn't exactly the best, but whatever.
" Hey." Kat tapped me on my arm, interrupting my thoughts.
" Huh?"
" You ok?" She asked, looking at me. I shrugged, grinning.
" Yeah, just peachy. Just wish a certain someone would calm down." I said and Kat laughed, rolling her eyes.
" You'd think he'd be used to flying already." She said softly, grinning.
" Hey guys." Peter said to us, and Kat moved in as much as he could, so Peter could once again sit between us.
" You ok now Peter?" Kat teased.
" Very funny." Peter moaned. His face was paler then usual, and his hair was stuck in clumps to his forehead, sweat glistening his face.
" Peter, we're almost there, you'll be fine." I sighed, going back to my book. " Stop fidgeting man, your making the guy in front of you nuts."
" I can't help it…" Peter sighed, leaning over me to see out the window. " How much longer?"
" Five minutes, tops." Kat said reassuringly, gently putting one of her hands over his, which were at the moment grasping the elbow rests. " Look, there's the landing strip." She said, pointing out the window. I rolled my eyes as Peter breathed a sigh of relief.
" What was that?!" Peter gasped, his eyes wide as the plane landed.
" We just landed Peter, honestly, next time we fly, remind me to get you some friggen Dramamine." I said, sighing.
" If I could take it, don't you think I would have already?" Peter hissed, glaring at me.
" Guys…" Kat sighed, looking at the two of us.
" Sorry." Peter muttered, flashing her a grin. " I just- plane rides get me so stressed out, and I can't take the Dramamine, I'm allergic."
" It's ok Peter, we're all afraid of something." Kat said, smiling as the flight attendants announced that we could leave the plane.
" Ladies and Gentlemen, I hope you enjoyed your flight." The captain spoke as the attendants walked to the front, opening the door of the plane.
" Thank God." Peter gasped, standing up with us.
" Geez Peter, calm down, they're going to be there when we get out. They're not going anywhere!" Kat exclaimed as he practically knocked her down, trying to get out. I reached out and steadied her, glaring in the path Peter had just taken. " Thanks." She mumbled, reaching into the overhead compartments. She grabbed both our bags, and tossing mine to me, led the way out of the airplane.
" Its nice that he's so excited to see her, but… can't he control himself a little?" I muttered as we tried to find him in the crowd of people leaving the plane.
" I think it's cute." Kat gushed, grinning. She would, she's a girl. I rolled my eyes, following her silently through the walkway, knowing that our friends had located us.
" Peter!!" The familiar voice exclaimed and I closed my eyes.
" Hey, you sure your gonna be ok?" Kat asked softly, looking at me.
" Yeah, I'll be fine. I mean, I was fine with it the last time, why not now?"
" No offence, but you've never been around the two together…"
" I'll be fine Kat." I lied, hoping she didn't see my pained expression. Kat opened her mouth to say something, but thankfully was interrupted as we caught up to our friends, and my dear brother hugged her.
" Hey Kat."
" Hey yourself." Kat smiled, blushing a little as he kissed her. I laughed, pretending to barf. Kat stuck her tongue out at me and I laughed again, then turned my attention to locating a certain someone.
" I missed you so much!!" Fiona's voice called and I turned, smiling as she ran towards me, her arms open. I opened my arms, ready to receive her hug. Instead, reality slapped me in the face as she passed me, rushing to Peter who was behind me. I sighed, trying to forget the fact that she was Peter's, not mine anymore.
" Clu!!" Another female voice called and I felt someone hug me. Turning my head, I saw the familiar blond hair and laughed, surprised. " We missed you so much!!"
" Hey Annie." I smiled, returning the hug. " I missed you guys too."
" Hey man, how was the ride?" Jack asked, walking up to us. I laughed, rolling my eyes.
" It was horrible."
" How come?" Carey asked, he and Kat joining the small circle Annie, Jack and I were standing in.
" Someone, not mentioning any names- PETER- kept moving around, asking 'are we there yet' every ten friggen seconds." Kat put in.
" It's not my fault I hate planes." Peter complained, pouting. " If the guy hadn't hit so many bumps-"
" Peter we didn't hit any turbulence." I said, laughing.
" You try being a vampire and say that." Peter muttered, and I rolled my eyes.
" Poor you." Fiona said, hugging Peter once again. " Ignore them, they always complain."
" Oh lord, and it begins." Jack rolled his eyes, and we all laughed.
" It's gonna be a long ride home, isn't it?" Carey muttered, sighing.
" With those four in the car? Oh yeah." Kat laughed, pointing to the couple in front of us, who were slowly, but surely, making me sick to my stomach. Yep, jealously is a bitch.
