Adapting to Life: Chp 4: Happiness & Soul

A Gundam Wing Fanfiction

By: Shinigami-Star

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of it's characters. They belong to their respective owners (which are sadly not me).

Now that that is done with. I haven't recieved any reviews on what I should do pairing wise, so I have decided to go on with Plan A, which means no pairings..... oh well.....

Please Review ppl!!!!!

Okay, now once again, this fic is dedicated to all the Duo fans out there. And this chapter is dedicated to my friends Trish and Heather, because they are always there. To Trish because no matter how much you pretend to hate him, you are like my Duo, and you are always there to turn to, talk to, and laugh with. To Heather because you are like a Heero to my Duo. You are always there to (try to) put me on track, and tell me (no matter how blunt it may be), how stupid I am, or what I did wrong. For this I can't thank either of you guys enough. ^_^

Now, on to the ficcie!!!!

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So, yes the Preventors were fine at what they did, and yes ther were a great organisation, just the kind of place an ex-gundam pilot like me would love. Right? Well, not exactly. I is the kind of place Heero loves. Structured, mission oriented.... but for me it was TOO structured.

I remember once being told that Life was my Playground and that I should go out and play in it. Well it was like this. Instead of being able to PLAY in my playground, there were thousands of little kids init, and I had to watch after every one of them. It was way TOO stressful, all I wanted to do was play, but I couldn't because of all the kids!

Do you get the idea now? Good. The only thing that was holding me at the Preventors was Heero and Wufei, seriously.

Well, one day Heero was at this board meetin for the preventors (he was the assistant director, or something like that), and Wufei had decided he needed a nap, so I decided to take the oppurtunity to go far a walk. Now, I remember walking past this library and thinking about books, and deciding I wanted to get one (this was REALLY weird, because I never read back then). So when I was browsing (the kid's section. I always have liked kids books better. They're more interesting to me, that's all). There was this Librarian reading to these kids; it was the cutest thing I had ever seen. It made me smile, just looking at the kids' faces. I finally found a book, and decided to leave, I checked it out. The librarian was rather friendly, she helped me ge a card (I didn't have one), and talked to me as I talked to her (I'm WAY over-talkative sometimes, and most people findit rather annoying, or even intimidating). As I left, I remember her saying: "Duo!" (Remember, I had to give her my name for the card) "Do you have a job? We are short a Children's Librarian at the moment, and I think you would be GREAT for the job."

I stopped to think. It sounded like fun to me, but did I really want to leave the Preventors? Leave Heero and Wufei? Leave HEERO? That's when I remembered Hild's thing about hapiness coming first. "I'll think about it, I really will."

"Thanks, I'll take down your name, and here's the library's phone number."

"Thanks." I left the library deep in thought that day... not realising what REALLY had just happened.

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For the next two weeks I was left thinking. Ever since that meeting, Heero had been kinda into himslef, not talking, COMPLETELY into his work (which he normally is, but to a SCARIER degree this time). Because Wufei was Sally's partner he was on different missions than me, and I didn't see him that much. I went to the library more aand more, and I ended up reading a lot more. I discovered a whole new world, the world, no the Realm of Fantasy. It's amazing what some of these authors can come up with.

Anyway, on the Wednesday on the third week after I had first gone to the library, my life changed, something, or someone rater, changed my life forever.......

*FLASHBACK*

"Oi Hee-chan what's up?" I say, not even looking up from my book.

"You've been reading a lot lately," he said, deliberately not answering my question. Well, I guess it will take a little prying to get it out of him this time.

"Yeah, I just recently discovered books. So.... why did Lady Une call you to her office? Was the infamous Heero Yuy actually in TROUBLE?"

He snorted, "No."

"Then what was it?" By now I was really interested. Heero really is good at building up the suspense.

"Nothing." Yeah right!

"Nothing my ass." I still haven't looked up from my book; what?! it's good! "Spit it out Heero."

He took a deep breath... hmmmm maybe it's important after all. "whe called me down to tell me that my request of a leave has gone through."

That made me look up, "What?!"

"I am now officially on leave from the Preventors for two years." He has got to be joking..

"You have got o be jokin."

"No," he looked at me sadly. "I'm serious."

"Now? Today?"

"Yeah." I can't believe it.......

"For two whole years?"

"Yeha, that's how long I asked for."

"Oh... I see, I guess..... but Why?"

"What do you mean?'

"Why are you taking a two year leave?!"

"I'm going on a trip." A TRIP?! Don't you just take your vacation time for that?!

"Oh, where are you going?"

"I don't know, all over I guess..."

I look at him searchingly, "What for?"

Hea lookds down, his eyes scannign the floor, "I need to know who I am. I want to be able to look in the mirror and see me... righ now I look in it and I see... Heero Yuy, sur I know that technically is me..... but I don't knwo who Heero Yuy is.... I want to....."

Ah...... now I see, Heero fells lost.... Oh God...... "so you're going on a sould Finding Trip."

"Yeah, I guess you could call it that." He looks so fragile, vulnerable..... Heero...

I walk up to him and hug him. "I wish you great luck Heero, you area great person. Go find your soul, because without it, you aren't you. Find yourself Heero, find yourself and be happy! But remember this, you are leaving with my love, Heero. My Best Friend." I give him a squeeze. "and I mean it!" [1]

He looked into my eyes, "I love you too Duo. I'll miss you more than is thought possivle. At least I'll know hwere to find you. I'll phone you every day........" [2]

"No, you won't."

"what do you mean?'

I had this great feeling of understanding, "Because I don't belong here. I haven't found my soul, and to tell you the truth, I cna't find it while I'm working here. But, I have an idea of where I can.."

"Oh, well e-mail me with your phone number."

"I will Hee-chan," I peck him on the cheek. "But, right now I've gott go talk to Lady Une. After that, maybe we can pack together, and then go out for a 'going away' feast!"

"Yeah, maybe....." I let go of him.

"I'll be back."

*END FLASHBACK* [3]

So.... I'm sure you know hwere I went nest. The Library. As soon as lady Une discharged me, I practically flew there. They accepted me right away. I've been there ever since.

Ah... here we are, my library. I open the door..... Ah I'm getting ambushed!! Help me! The kids are gonna kill me!!

"Duo, read to us please..."

"Yeah, Duo, come on...."

I smile down at them "Sure, just a second 'kay. I've got to hang up my coat."

I walk into my office. I found an apartment quite easily. It's quite nice, about 10 minutes away from here. It's not eutopia, but it's home. I haven't seen Heero since that day. I think that he's fulfilling his mission soundly. I hope that when he comes back in 6 months he'll be happy, and will be able to do everything with both mind, and spirit. I miss him dearly, but this trip is important for him, and I know it.

I look at my scheldule todya is... Fair Tale Day for the Young Kids. Hmm.... I guess I'll let them decide on which one. I walk outside. "Okay guys! Today's fairy tale day!" A cheer errupted from the group of kids. "Which one do you want to read?"

"Cinderella!" One girl piped up.

"Cinderella Mary? What do the rest of you say?"

"Yeah!!!" the group yelled back.

"Okay then, Cinderella it is!" I picked up the book and sat down "One upon a time......"

I don't think I'l ever get sick of this job, I love it. I have finally found somewhere where i am truly happy, and more immporantly I have finally found my soul, and I am finally able to go out and play.

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~OWARI~

[1] Now again.. you can take this anyway you like!!!! Look at chp 3 for my ideas, and remember, if you have any, say it in your review, or e-mail me!

[2] Yeah, I know... OOC, but, who knows, Heero could very well be a nice person, and care about Duo like that.... actually in my opinion it's not all that OOC.... whatever!

[3] Yeah, the flashback was kinda cheesy but.. ah well! *shrugs*

Soo!!! That's the end, the VERY end!! So.... whaddya think? I think that the idea of Duo being a children's librarian is totally cute, and suits him completely, but you don't have to agree with me!! I you don't please tell me so!!! I want feedback!!! PLEASE R&R!! *gets down on her hands and knees* PLEASE!!!!!!!
HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!!
-Shinigami-Star