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November Skies
Chapter 4: I Need You
Immature love says: "I love you because I need you." Mature love says: "I need you because I love you."
Erich Fromm (1900–1980),
Jill shifted uncomfortably in her bed and looked away from Chris, while Chris looked at her with a mixture of pain and relief.
"Jill…why?" Chris said breaking the silence that was beginning to form.
"Why did you save me?…" Jill whispered ignoring Chris's last statement.
"B-because I couldn't let you die." Chris said sounding a bit taken aback
"Chris…I didn't want to be saved." Jill said looking at him intently
"What?" Chris questioned her.
"You heard me…" Jill said somewhat coldly.
"Jill…I- " Chris began, but the words wouldn't come.
"I have no purpose, I don't want to live anymore." Jill said harshly
"Jill what are you talking about…you-" Chris began.
"No! Chris don't try to say anything I don't want to hear it." Jill spat out
Chris looked at her with shocked expression, then his face hardened.
"What the hell is wrong with you! Don't you understand that you made everyone upset and worried, what about their feelings huh! Chris yelled a little too loudly.
Jill looked away from him trying to hold her tears back.
"I don't care about THEIR feelings." Jill whispered harshly.
All Chris could do was shake his head.
A silence was beginning to fill the hospital room until Chris decided to break it.
"Jill…the others love and care about you, doesn't that mean anything to you? Chris tried desperately to change Jill's mind
"W-what about you?" Jill asked the inevitable
"Jill I-" Chris began eyes low-lidded
"Nobody loves me!" Jill yelled at Chris
"Jill that's not true." Chris said trying to be as clam as possible.
"Get out…" Jill whispered
Chris looked at her getting ready to say something.
"Get out! I don't want you in my sight! Jill yelled as loudly as possible.
Chris stood up and shook his head and hesitantly left Jill's room.
Jill looked to the side, and her vision blurred.
"Chris comeback…" Jill whispered to herself. She wanted desperately to get up and go after him but she couldn't…there was no logical explanation she just couldn't.
Why are you pushing him away?
He doesn't care about me, or my feelings…
He loves you, he saved your life
I didn't need to be saved, why couldn't he just leave me for dead
Because he loves you…
How many times are you going to tell me that?! I just asked him and he couldn't answer
You didn't let him…
Because I know he doesn't love me…
Why are you lying to yourself…you knew Chris would come for you…that's why you left that message for him…am I correct?
Shut up! You don't know anything!
You need him…
I-
"I need you…Chris…" Jill whispered to herself.
"I need you…"she repeated only finding herself sobbing uncontrollably
Jill knew it, her mind knew it, and her heart knew it…
Chris was the only one…
A-Note I know I know it's really short but all the emotional romancy stuff is what I wanted to save for the last chapter so stay tuned for the final installment of November Skies.
Peace To Ya oh and happy upcoming New Year ^^
90%Angel aka Oblivion
