To see you smile

By: Fallon-chan

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AN: Hmm. Where to start. Well I could beginning with thanks for all the people that been so kind to read my story and then review it. Such nice things you people have to say. But I won't because that what everyone expect me to do. So I'll start with a Hmm. Now this chapter has been edited by San-chan and has always been longer then the other three.

Disclaimers: C-L-A-M-P owns everything but Eriol-kun. He's mine. *Laughs evilly until she realizes he their property as well* It's not fair. They have enough boys as it is. Why can't they share?!!

For: Starchick who spoils me. What? Cake next you say? Suppi is hungry you know. I'll share with him.

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Chapter Three: Dream Keeper

Daidouji Tomoyo was annoyed. Yes, she was annoyed. It wasn't possible matter less fair. He made it look so effortless. Carrying in her luggage after he up right refused to let her help. 'Gentleman do not allow ladies to worry themselves with such tedious work. This is work for a man not for Daidouji-san.' At that Spinel refuse to help. He might have been a male but wasn't a man after all. He was out with an excuse due to Eriol's teasing. As for Ruby Moon, well as for Ruby Moon that was a matter best left closed because no one was quite sure about him but he didn't help. That could be said.

Eriol obvious need no help anyway. He never made a sound that showed or gave a hint that he was straining or perhaps pulling something by the weight of her luggage. Tomoyo herself knew her suitcase were heavy, too heavy for one person to lift and carry on their own. But Eriol just grined and kept that grin as he removed her things from the trunk of the car.

"Magic. It has to be magic." Tomoyo mutter under her breath.

At this Spinel sighed. Poor Tomoyo-chan. He wasn't sure what she had ever done so terribly in this life or another to send her to them. She was much better off at some hotel far away from Ruby and Eriol. Tomoyo was a sane girl, she didn't need to be at Reed Manor were lunatics were free to run around. He was after all, the only normal one out of the three (as normal as a flying stuff animal can get) and he knew first hand what the company of his master and Ruby Moon could do to someone. He was living proof.

"It's still not too late to run, Tomoyo-chan." Spinel quietly informed her. Tomoyo only smiled warmly at the guardian. He was definitely something else.

"Why would she want to run? We're going to have soooooo much fun, and if you're nice we'll let you join in Suppi." Ruby said. A far off look came to his eyes as he imagined all the things he and Tomoyo would do while she was in England. It would be so much fun having another girl in the house so to speak.

Spinel sighed. There was no use in saying anything to Ruby Moon or yell at him for calling him 'Suppi'. Not that, it ever did any good anyway. But there was no harm in trying now was there? So he followed the small group inside instead. Hoping something large and heavy would land on Ruby. But no such luck.

As the lights flickered on Tomoyo stood in amazement. She had lived in a large house all her life, but the size of this one nearly took her breath away. It was gorgeous and she had only seen one room so far. Velvet cover seat to her right and a mahogany wooden staircase to her left trimmed in gold. Longer wooden floor that shined like stars in the night sky. Dreamy, deep red color walls lined the room. Large portraits hung on the walls, and each on more beautiful then the next. She could only imagine what rest of the place looked like. Tomoyo stood in awe and was quite certain her mouth was gapped open. Not very lady-like of her.

"Do you like it Daidouji-san?" Eriol asked placing his hand lightly on her shoulder.

Tomoyo nodded quickly her head bobbing up and down with curls flying everywhere. She reminded him of Sakura-chan when she got excited. Where she didn't look like her elegant self or very lady like it was a fitting look for Tomoyo. It would have reminded anyone that she was a human being instead of a porcelain doll like some would assume. She was adorable like that, Ruby Moon would describe in each of the years to come when referring to the moment.

"It's very beautiful. In fact it is gorgeous. It almost seems like a castle in a fairy tale. Don't you think?" Tomoyo inquired walking over to a painting, starring at it in awe.

"Do you like that?" Spinel asked with a smirk and hovering over beside her.

Tomoyo smiled and nodded again but mixed in there was a small sigh. Paintings like this were why she never took her artwork as serious as people thought she did. It was perhaps the most beautiful thing she had seen in her life. Lovelier then most things she had ever seen.

There in front of her hung a simple paint but it was anything but simple. Bright, brilliant color danced with soft pastel the colors and ever color seemed to be laughing with one another. It was a picture of a garden. 'How lovely the garden must be in real life.' Tomoyo thought to herself. There were trees covered in every type of blossoms imaginable. Apple blossoms, peach blossoms, and of course, cherry blossoms. A willow branch swayed in the wind looking as if it was welcoming a bird passing by to come over for a moment. Flowers of every color, shape, and size grew. Mingling together to make a large and delicate bouquet. A cobble stone walk way weaved it way in a way out of the area and the circled around a fountain with many gorgeous streams of clear water shouting from all around. It looked so real. Tomoyo pressed her fingers softly against the canvas. Who ever paint it was blessed with talent. Talent she was hungry for but would rather see possessed by someone worthier.

"Look Eriol-kun, Tomoyo-chan likes your picture! I told you it was pretty." Ruby Moon said in a sing song tone as if he was alright.

Tomoyo quickly turned around and her long skirt swirled around her ankles with her. Her violet eyes filled with wonder. Eriol had painted that. He had such a talent to paint something so beautiful as that. Hiiragizawa Eriol, had created something that seemed so real she had to touch it to be certain it was only paint? Was he even if he was the reincarnation of Clow Reed and a powerful magician capable of such things?

"Hiiragizawa-kun paint this?" Tomoyo said but it came out in a hoarse whisper, it was all too unreal for her.

Eriol scratch his head sheepishly. Tomoyo had certainly been caught up in his painting. It had begun to unnerve him as she went on starring at it like she did. He figured she had hated it. He hadn't even thought it his best work and surly she didn't think it was all that great of a thing. Eriol had seen many of Tomoyo's own work. He found her art work far more worthy of such attention then his silly painting. He had been bored and had nothing better to do. He had even been tempted of destroying it altogether. But the others wouldn't hear of such. But to see Tomoyo look at it that way gave him a strange feeling. Something along the lines of pleasure.

"It nothing much. It isn't really all that good of a piece. It was Spinel who wanted it out here for everyone to see. I think it rather-" Eriol began but stopped, now feeling uncomfortable as Tomoyo stroked the painting once again.

"It's beautiful Hiiragizawa-kun." She muttered almost in a trace.

He saw his creations whispering to one another. Eriol was certain he heard something along the line of 'bewitching his paints' where he wouldn't have to fish for complements any longer. He snorted. What a ridiculous thing to say. Even for them. He done nothing to it other then paint it. Why Tomoyo was enchanted by it was beyond him and there were only a few things he'd ever found surprising.

'Perhaps she is a mystery that needs to be unfold' Eriol pushed the thoughts from his mind. Daidouji-san was one of the few people he had ever come across to who could ever surprise him, although she was no mystery that needed solving. Not by him anyway.

"It wouldn't be too much trouble if I could see rest of the house, would it?" Tomoyo asked talking one long last look at Eriol's painting.

"I thought you'd never ask."

~**~

Eriol and his guardian enjoyed Tomoyo's reaction to each room which were shown to her. Each time she was shown something new, she believed it was the most stunning thing she'd had ever seen. Then they go off and show her something else rather more stunning then the last. Whether it be a vase or a lamp, she found everything breath taking. Eriol had often glanced her from time to time taking in her facial emotions. He wanted to laugh every time her eyes light up with wonder. She would ask about this or that and she just had to know where he had gotten that. Tomoyo reminded him of a child in a candy store. She was cute, almost as cute as his little Chinese relative was. It was a fairly close race.

Ruby Moon and Spinel notice how happy Eriol appeared with all of Tomoyo's questions. Perhaps it was un-lady like with that look on her face as he showed her room after room. Maybe it wasn't proper to ask her host so many questions, one after the next but Eriol didn't mind. He would nod along with her and smile as she gasp at this or that. She was such a sight to take in. Neither of the guardians wanted the tour to end. It had been so long since they had been able to share anything with anyone and Tomoyo was a perfect "tourist". She probably had no clue how she looked. Her eyes practically were glowing with pure joy. She was the image of innocents and purity with her action. So sweet. It was a shame no one followed her around with a video camera as she did Sakura, Eriol wondered. If she acted like this much it would be well worth it. Perhaps he should pick up a new hobby while she was staying.

Like all good things, they finally ran out of rooms and things to show Tomoyo. Everyone gave a small sigh. Tomoyo yawned slightly and quickly covered her mouth.

"Excuse me. That was rude of myself." Tomoyo said hastily. What would her mother say if she had seen her here? What would her mother say if she knew she was there?

"Oh dear." Tomoyo said not knowing she was speaking out loud.

"Is something the matter Tomoyo-chan?" Ruby Moon asked with an obvious hint of worry in his voice.

"What? Oh, it's nothing to worry about Akizuki-san. I just realized my mother does not know that I will be staying here instead of the hotel as we had planed." Tomoyo replied and frowned as Ruby Moon sighed.

"It's nothing really I'm sure mother won't mind. She'll understand, we made a deal after all." Tomoyo added quickly hoping she hadn't said anything to offend him.

"Deal? What sort of-" Eriol begun but was rudely cut off by his creation.

"Don't call me Akizuki-san. It makes me sound old." Ruby Moon complained still in his false feminine form.

"I'm sorry in that case. What shall I call you then?" Tomoyo asked Ruby Moon seeing how she hadn't heard Eriol question at all. Spinel snicker quietly at the way Eriol was being ignored in his own home but stop as he caught Eriol's glare. If he had learned one thing it was not to get on Eriol bad side, that and Ruby always added sugar to everything he cooked.

"Call me Nakuru-san or Ruby Moon. No more Akizuki-san. It's enough to here you and Eriol-kun calling one another like that. It just isn't fun or cute Tomoyo-chan, and cute always fits you better" Nakuru replied smiling at Tomoyo and shaking his finger at her as if he was preaching.

Tomoyo's creamy complexion turned a shade of red. Well it could have been red but as Eriol stood observing the color in her checks they seemed more of an attractive rose color. It was a suitable color on Tomoyo. He would have to remember that.

"Nakuru-san does sound better then Akizuki-san I believe. This may sound rude, which I hope no one is offended but could I please be shown to my room? I need to inform my mother of my plans." Tomoyo asked still looking embarrassed about Ruby's comments.

"Of course, my lady." Eriol teased holding his arm out for Tomoyo.

Tomoyo smiled and took his arm, laughing along the way. She was finding herself doing that quite often among her company. The two remaining parties only look on in amusement.

~**~

Tomoyo tied her long hair with it's many shades of violet on top her head it a messy but suitable bun. She slide her crisp cotton beige colored robe off and let it fall to the floor with a simple flop. The warm bath looked more then welcoming. Perhaps twenty hours on a plane were longer then it had seemed. It wasn't a few hours after all. She was now feeling more then her fair share of jet lag. The water and air were scented with the smell of violets and vanilla. A strange aroma, but a pleasant and sweet smell. A few purple petals were scattered across the surface of the water. Nakuru had certainly gone out of his way to make her feel better.

Tan, beige, white, and purple candles flickered around the Victorian style tub with the golden crawl feet. It wasn't like her tub at home. Not quite like the five of them but it was lovely. She discovered many things in Reed Manor had turned out to be like this. She could hear Eriol playing his piano and the peaceful music flood up stairs until it fount her.

She slid down in the warm water letting it wash over her aching muscles. She was happy now that she had chosen to stay here instead of the hotel. The only thing she was missing was a bowl of peach ice cream but she had a pleasant feeling inside that told her she would only have to ask for it.

They had all been so kind to her. So sweet and open. She really had planed on seeing them. She just had not planed on actually staying with them. As she sunk lower in the water listening to the music, smelling the vanilla and violets she closed her eyes and relaxed. Tomoyo never wanted the moment to end. She stayed like that until she feel asleep from exhaustion right where she was.

~**~

"Sakura-chan were are you?" Tomoyo called out in the open field. It was so nice here. It reminded her of a place she had visited long ago. The air was fragrant with the smell of marigolds and daisy. They weren't her favorite flowers but all flowers were beautiful to her. Butterflies chased each other through the crystal clear sky. The sun was shining brightly in the sky above. She giggled as the grass tickled her bare feet.

She liked to go bare foot when no one was around. Her mother found it distasteful, but Sakura-chan had never mind at all. When Tomoyo found her Sakura would probably be barefooted as well. Tomoyo giggled again. Sakura was so sweet at times. She had been the one to invite her along for a picnic. Tomoyo wished she had her video camera. Sakura would be doing something adorable and she wanted to capture it much like her friend had down with the Clow Cards.

"Sakura-chan, stop hiding and come out." Tomoyo called out reaching the beginning of a forest. She put on her shoes. Sakura was probably some where in the trees. She could possibly be up in one of them. Tomoyo remembered how Sakura had offered to teach her how to climb trees when they were smaller but her body guards would never hear of it. It was a shame. Being up so high and in the leaves must be a wonderful experience. Close to flying she imagined.

Tomoyo spun around walking backwards at the sound of branches crackling. She heard giggles. Familiar giggles at that.

"Sakura I'm going to find you soon." Tomoyo chanted to the tree tops.

"No, you won't Daidouji"

Tomoyo held her breath. That was no doubt Sakura's voice but it sounded hurt and scared. It sounded nothing like that of her dear friend's. And had she called her Daidoji? No. She wouldn't have. No. She couldn't have. Sakura always called her Tomoyo or Tomoyo-chan. Never Daidouji. Sakura wouldn't be that formal with her.

"Sakura what's wrong? Are you hurt?" Tomoyo yell now filled with fear. What if Sakura was hurt and she couldn't find her. Why were they playing this game anyway? She didn't want to play anymore. She wanted to find Sakura, now.

"You don't ever give up, do you?"

Tomoyo turned around and to find herself face to face with Syaoran. But this wasn't her friend. He looked different, even bizarre. He couldn't be him. His eyes were never filled with such an abyss of darkness. His eyes were never so cruel.

"I'm worried about Sakura-chan. Please help me find her Li-kun." Tomoyo requested, looking away from his eyes. She wanted to look at anything but his eyes.

"There's no need for you to worry. No need at all." Syaoran said in a tone that sent shivers down her spine.

"What are you talking about?" Tomoyo asked trying to cover up the fear in her shaking voice.

He grabbed her arm and pain shoot through it. He was far stronger then her but she struggled anyway. Her attempt to free herself from his grasp failed.

"What's wrong with you Li-kun? Let me go your hurting me." Tomoyo pleaded, feeling tears wanting to come roaming out from the pain but yet she could cry none.

"You're not going to cry are you? Really Daidouji, did you forget your promise already?" He asked bitterly.

She simple shook her head. He smiled sickly and began to drag her. She screamed for help. She begged him to let go. Her legs were slashed at by briars and tree branches tugged on her hair. His claw dug deep into her arm and tiny streams of red ran down her pale arm and unto his hand. He laughed at her cries. He was laughing and hurting her. This was not Syaoran. Not the boy she had grown to love in a brotherly way.

"Why are you doing this?" She whispered.

"It's always about you isn't? Poor pitiful Tomoyo. Wants everyone to love her and yet no one does. Not her mommy or her daddy, and certainly not by the person she wants to love her the most." He taunted from above.

"I am happy for Sakura. I happy she has you, even though you can't really be Li-kun." Tomoyo shouted wanting to cover her ears and to hear no more.

"Ha! You liar. If you were, you'd leave her alone. She can't do anything because she's scared she'll hurt you. Why do you think it took her so long to admit she loved me? Why Daidouji? I'll give you one guess. You." The boy said still dragging her.

She was in so much pain, physical and emotional. How could he do this to her? How? Weren't they friends? Didn't he care? He knew that Sakura's happiness was her's as well, didn't he?

"Please, let me go."

"Where you can go hurt my Sakura. Notice how I used MY, Daidouji. She is mine not yours."

"I could never hurt her and you know it!"

"Liar!"

"Stop it!" Tomoyo screamed at the top of her lungs.

"Don't hurt her, Syaoran-kun."

A hopeful smile came to her face. It was Sakura. She would help her. Wait, would he hurt Sakura? He was hurting her wasn't it possible he'd turn on Sakura too?

"Run Sakura! I'll be fine." Tomoyo yelled and Sakura only gave her a sad smile.

"No, you're not fine Daidouji because you don't know what's going on." Sakura said pushing a strand of hair away from Tomoyo face.

"Why Sakura? Why is he doing this?" Tomoyo asked wanting nothing then to be able to cry.

"I thought you would know, you always know everything about me. Even when I cut my finger nails. Haven't you notice?" Sakura asked with confusing in her emerald eyes.

"Know what?" Tomoyo asked afraid of the answer.

"Oh come on Daidouji think! We know you're a bright girl. Figure it out, it isn't hard." Syaoron mocked her now letting go of her arm.

Tomoyo dropped to the ground wanting to cry. Why couldn't she cry? It wasn't normal not to be able to cry. She needed to cry. Why had she ever made the promise?

"Daidouji, please don't be like this." Sakura pleaded hugging Tomoyo shaking body.

"No, it isn't true." Tomoyo mumbled into Sakura shoulder.

"Afraid it is." Syaoran teased dancing around them.

"Tell me he's lying Sakura-chan." Tomoyo whispered almost unable to find her voice.

"I'm sorry Daidouji. I'm sorry. I really am." Sakura said as she stood. Syaoran came up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist.

"No it can't be. I won't believe it. Never!" Tomoyo shouted in anger. This was not happening. Sakura would never be that cruel or hurt her like she was.

"I'm sorry Daidouji. But I no longer need you."

"No! It isn't true!" Tomoyo screamed endless repeating herself over and over as Sakura walked away with the person she loved.

"Tomoyo-chan. Wake up. It's just a bad dream. Open your eyes!"

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Tomoyo's violet eyes fluttered open and she found herself face to face with Spinel Sun in his true form, no longer in the tub but dress for bed and in one of the guest rooms. It had been a dream she realized as she saw the concern look on Spinel face. It was just a nightmare. Sakura still needed her. Syaoran would never be that cruel to her. But what if dreams really did meant something. What if there really would come a time when Sakura didn't need her? No. She wouldn't think about it. It hurt too much. What would she do without Sakura-chan?

She wanted to cry. Break down in endless sobs. It had been so awful, so terrible. Why was she having nightmares like that? It wasn't fair. She hadn't done anything wrong. Why was she being punished all she did was love. Was that wrong?

"Is it wrong?" Tomoyo said choking on her own words.

Spinel began to change into his false form, thinking it would be easier to calm her in that state. After all Ruby Moon was always calling him a stuff toy. Children like stuff toys.

When Tomoyo saw was he was doing she shook her head furiously. He stopped and looked at her confused. What did she want?

"No stay like that. I'd feel safer. Please Spinel. Stay in your true form." Tomoyo asked with her voice filled with so much sorrow. It was clear as day she was hurting so much. Why, he wonder. What could the child had possible been through in her dreams.

"As you wish but I just thought you'd would find me cuter as a smaller Suppi-chan." Spinel said. Even as he said them the words felt bitter on his tongue. He was saying cute and calling himself Suppi-chan. He had finally made it around the bend with Ruby Moon and Eriol.

Tomoyo managed a small and weak smile. He was worried about her. She could she it in his eyes. He had even gone as far as to calling himself Suppi-chan for her benefit. She knew he down right hated the name.

"I find you charming the way you are." Tomoyo whispered moving closer to the guardian beast.

"I suppose you would like me to leave now. I'm sorry I should have came in here. I just heard you crying out and I was worried. Ruby Moon would have been in here as well but with his snoring he could sleep through out an attack on all of Britain. As for Eriol, he has his reason for not being in here, but they both would have. I should not be in here or rambling on. I must have been in Ruby Moon's company too long. Excuse me for my rudeness. It won't happen again. Be assured. Do have a more pleasant sleep. Someone like yourself shouldn't be plagued with nightmares. Perhaps Ruby Moon but that's asking too much. Good night now Tomoyo-chan. Sleep well now." Spinel said not having a clue why he kept talking like he was. It was so unlike him. He turned to leave like he had meant to earlier but a nagging feeling told him to walk slower.

"Wait Spinel. I don't mind." Tomoyo called out. He turned around a looked at her once more. She was a mess. Her usually brilliant colored eyes were pale and so full of sadness. Her hair was tangled and twisted. Most of it was sticking to her pale, sweaty skin.

"I'll let you rest now." Spinel told her in a soothing voice hoping she could sleep after he left.

"I don't want to be alone. Please stay with me at least until I fall asleep. Please Spinel. I don't want to be alone anymore. Don't leave me. Just stay right here until I'm asleep. I'm scared Spinel. Don't leave. I can't be by myself. Not now. Not after that. Please stay with me Spinel. I'll even give you my bed." Tomoyo pleaded with tears dwelling in her eyes.

She sounded so sad. So upset. So un-Tomoyo like. He did like how she sounded or how she looked in the moonlight the snuck in through the curtains.

"Sleep Tomoyo. I won't leave your side until morning if that what you wish." Spinel said walking back towards her bed.

Tomoyo gestured for him to get up on the bed and with a little hesitation he was laying down beside her. Tomoyo wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face into his fur. Things would be alright with Spinel Sun there. He would let anything happen to her. She wouldn't have to break her promise not now.

"Thank you." She whispered still afraid to close her eyes.

"Hush. Sleep now. Ruby Moon will be up carrying on soon. We need what sleep we can get." Spinel mumbled finding it rather strange to have her arms wrapped around him so. Long as she didn't attempt to pet him he would be just fine. Tomoyo did finally fall asleep and Spinel as well. He didn't plan on leaving her alone again. So he stayed while Tomoyo dreamt of walking in Eriol's painting with Spinel.

And Spinel dreamed of a world without Ruby Moon.

~**~

Eriol rolled over on his side. Why was this happening? Why was he sharing dreams with Tomoyo? He didn't want her dreams. He didn't want dreams like that for anyone. Poor Daidouji-san, he thought to himself. It wasn't right for her to suffer like that. He'd have to see that she did not. Spinel would have to be thanked in the morning.

Kaho stirred beside him curling with him tighter. Yes, he thought to himself. Tomoyo would never have nightmares again.

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AN: Yes I know this chapter was longer and drug out more then the others. Don't tell me everyone OCC on me. I know it already. The shame. The shame. See what you make me do Starchick. Be ashamed of yourself. But like you all wouldn't want to curl up with Suppi after a bad dream. Or maybe that's just me. Who knows? I thought it was a cute idea. I'm weird that way. Feel free to e-mail me anytime at foxie1@gte.net to tell me so too. Long as your not flaming me I won't cry.