This chapter takes place a few days after the first one. This chapter contains flashbacks from ER episodes as well as my previous Kerry/Carter fanfic


Chapter 2: Memories Of The Heart

Two days have passed since Kerry's accident and she still hasn't regained consciousness. Carter hasn't left her side. His friends kept coming in trying to get him to take a break but he refused to leave Kerry. He sat at her bedside holding her hand in his. He whispers "I love you Kerry I love you so much please come back to me" Tears filled his eyes as memories filled his mind.


Dr. Weaver?
Carter? What are you doing here?
I came to see about a room for rent.


Keep your day job Carter!


Ha! You were a student!

Jamaican vomiting sickness!?
Look it up John.

John I got this go see if Dr. Kovac needs some help.
She knows you she doesn't feel comfortable.
But she just paged Dr. Greene!
Yeah but he's not delivering now go on get out of here!

You know Dr. Weaver it's not too late to get in on this little gift exchange.
You know John there's actually nothing I really need.

Now you need scrubs

Dr. Weaver as Mrs. Claus!

John, Gabe he, he passed away last night
I'm so sorry honey, I'm so sorry

I love you Kerry.
I love you too John.

Dance with me Kerry.

I love you with all my heart I knew I loved you from the start and I never want us to be apart.
Kerry, Will you marry me.

John I'm pregnant
A baby?! Are you sure?
Yes John I'm sure.
This great I'm going to be a father!
Our love created something special...Our baby

Congratulations! It's a Boy!
Our son's name is John Gabriel Carter.


Carter looked at Kerry. She looked so fragile and pale. He lightly caressed her face. Elizabeth walked into the room and up to Kerry's bedside. She looked at Carter. "How are you holding up" He tried to smile a little. "Okay I guess" She handed him a small radio "I thought you might want to hear something besides silence" He took the radio. He whispered "Thanks"

Elizabeth examined Kerry and checked her vitals. Carter whispers "How is she?" Elizabeth sighed sadly "There's no change Carter, I'm afraid she's in a coma" Tears filled his eyes again "A coma" he whispered. She nodded. "She will wake up won't she Elizabeth" Tears began to fill her eyes too. "Carter we're both doctors and we both know that there is no way of knowing if she'll wake up or not all we can do is hope an pray" Elizabeth's pager sounded. She looked at it. "Well I'm needed down in the ER but if you need anything just page me" He nodded and hugged her. "Thank you Elizabeth" She nodded as she left the room.

Carter sat there looking at his wife laying so still. The words "In a coma" echoed in his head. He needed to get those awful words out of his head. He switched on the little radio Elizabeth had brought him. He held Kerry's hand in his. "You have to wake up Kerry. I love you so much you're my life I'm nothing with out you. I need you" The soft sounds of LeeAnn Rimes " I Need You" came from the small radio.


I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothin'
With all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want when it comes to lovin you
You're my only reason, You're my only truth

I need you like water, like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy from Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms that carries me through
I need you

You're the hope that moves me to courage again
You're the love that rescues me when the cold winds rage
And it's so amazing cause that's how you are
And I can't turn back now
Cause you've brought me too far

I need you like water, like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy from Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms that carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need You.


By the time the song ended Carter was sobbing. He looked at his true love, his soul mate laying motionless in a hospital bed. His heart ached for her but there was nothing he could do he feared he was going to lose her and the thought of living with out her was more then he could handle. He made up his mind he knew what he had to do. He whispered "I'll be right back Kerry" He walked out of the room and went across the hall to the drug lock up. He fought hard to beat his addiction but it didn't matter anymore. He filled a syringe with morphine and walked back into Kerry's room. He took her hand and whispered "I love you Kerry and soon we'll be together again" He tapped the syringe and tapped his vein. He looked at Kerry. He looked at the syringe in his hand. Tears ran down his cheeks as he set the syringe against his skin. He was interrupted by a voice. "Carter?! What in the hell do you think you're doing"
Carter just looked up and said "Just walk away pretend you never saw me"


Will Carter take the lethal dose of drugs. Who walked in the room. Will he or she stop Carter from taking the lethal dose Will Kerry's condition improve?
Find out in Chapter 3: Not Without Kerry.......Coming Soon!!!!!!