1 CHAPTER THREE

1.1.1 If I could turn back time

The ambulance pulled up outside county. The full horror of the patient within, unknown. Stood in the snow, in trauma gowns, Mark and Kerry wait. The doors fly open, and the gurney hoisted to the ground. Mark and Kerry stood in disbelief, stood in shock.

"Luka? What happened?" Kerry called as he exited the ambulance and rushed into trauma one.

"I don't know...I just found her"

"She's lost about 3 units of blood, arrested once in the field. We had to intubate on route" The paramedic relayed the information to the doctors. "G.C.S is 6, pulse is weak"

"Chunni? Get as much O-neg down here as possible, Luka we need X-ray down here stat. Malik we need a tox screen, chem.7 and blood works" Mark orders.

"What are her vitals?" Kerry demands.

"B.P is 90 over 50. Pulseox is 82"

The situation grows tense, the atmosphere desperate as the Doctors try to save another life, but this time it's one of there own.

"We got 5 units of O-neg going in on the rapid infuser" Chunni calls out as she returns.

"Lydia, get a central line in."

"Breath sounds are improving" Kerry shouts. Just as she calls out the constant beat of the heart monitor turns to a prolonged droning.

"She's in V-fib" Chunni exclaims.

"Get an amp of epi, lidocain and nitro-glycerine! Luka start CPR"

There is still no improvement. The frantic concern shows on everyone, as they watch their friend slowly deteriorate.

"Sats are down to 85!"

Kerry grabs the crash cart and starts the peddles, "Charge to 100"

The heart monitor remains with a droning flat line.

"Still in V-fib"

"Charge to 200. Clear!"

Everyone steps back as Kerry shocks the lifeless body in front of her. Abby's lips are still blue, her face still pale, and her blood everywhere. Carter, having heard the news, charges into trauma one. He stands there, just staring as the chaos goes on around him.

"How long has she been down?" He calls out to anyone who would hear.

Mark looks up at the clock, "35 minutes"

"Charge to 250." Kerry yells, "Come on Abby, I'm not gonna lose you"

She places the paddles on Abby's chest, and shocks her. Her body convulses as the electric current passes through. The droning continues, there are no signs of life. Then, the droning turns to a regular beat.

"Sinus. Tach" Lydia calls; the heart monitor begins to register a heartbeat. Just as she starts to improve, Elizabeth comes rushing in.

"Oh my God, what happened?"

There is silence until Luka speaks out, "suicide". Everyone falls silent, the full horror of the situation finally revealed, as it is something that no one wants to believe. No one had seen it coming, just like when Carol tried. But that situation was different. Carol survived. The silence remained until Kerry calls out, "We need to get her upstairs now, Chunni check her pressure and vitals"

"Pressure is 90 stistolic, pulse is up to 92"

Mark and Elizabeth wheel the gurney out through the ER and into the lift. They head up to the OR.

Everyone still in trauma one is silent. Luka stands against the wall, and slides down until he meets the ground. He sits in silence. Carter stands in the centre of the room and gazes around. The trauma gowns and empty medical supply boxes litter the floor. The floor underneath stained with blood. Lydia and Chunni stand on the opposite side of the room, them too with their backs against the wall. The atmosphere now indescribable.

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"This isn't looking good, Elizabeth" Romano calls out.

"I know it doesn't Robert but I'm not willing to give up on your judgement,"

Blood is still seeping from the wounds to Abby's wrists.

"She's done a pretty good job at trying to end it all"

Elizabeth looks up at Romano, how could someone be so insensitive? She thought to herself.

"B.Ps falling" One of the OR nurses exclaims.

"Lizzy we need to stop that bleeding now" Romano calls attempting to close the wounds. Elizabeth takes a surgical instrument from the table, and does the same.

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2 If I could turn back time

If I could find a way

I'd take back those words that hurt you

And you'd stay

The world outside goes on, as the ER staff sit, huddled around a table in Doc Magoos. Kerry had some how manage to persuade Luka to go with the others, telling him that there was nothing he could do at the hospital. But then he thought to himself that he had already done enough. If he had believed Abby in the first place then none of this would have happened. But instead he chose to believe the rumours, and now his girlfriend was lying in a hospital bed fighting for her life.

The ER staff had continued to gather around the tiny table in the corner, as each of their shifts came to an end. Opposite Luka sat Carter. All he could do was blame himself. If he hadn't told Abby his feelings then none of this would have happened. Everything would have been the way it was supposed to be. But it was too late now, the future had already been changed.

The Coffee pot in the middle of the table was stone cold. No one had the nerve to disturb the emotional atmosphere. Each person was in a world of their own, only one thing on their minds. The door to the diner opened and two figures walked in. It was Elizabeth and Mark. They walked over to the table, where everyone was gathered. As their presence began to sink in, everyone glanced in their direction. The expressions on their face, neither good nor bad. Luka broke the silence, "How is she?"

"She made it through surgery" A sign of relief spread across the faces around the table. "But she's in a deep coma, she might not make it through the night" The relief turned to distress. The sudden realisation hit each and every person around the table. The realisation that they might lose one of their friends. It hit Luka the most. He felt his stomach churn and his heart sink to the bottom of the void within him, at the thought of losing Abby. If only he could turn back time.

Words are like weapons

They wound you sometimes.

2.1 I didn't mean to hurt you

I didn't want you to go

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The constant beat of the heart monitor was a tune that was all too familiar. Sometimes the rhythm would remain, others it would turn to prolonged humming. Luka walked into the ICU, just like he had many times before. He looked at the body in front of him, lost amongst the tubes and machines. He had seen this scene time and time again, but he had some how shielded himself from the emotional torment that the families of his patients had gone through. But this time it wasn't a patient he was staring at, it was someone he loved, it was someone he couldn't shut out. He sat down beside her and took her hand in his. The wounds on her wrists were concealed by a dressing, but the pain in which they were received, was all too evident as blood seeped through. Luka sat, searching for the right words, he knew that he had to talk to her, but what could he say? He stared at her face, the life that was once behind it, now hanging on the smallest of threads.

"I'm sorry" he whispered calmly "I'm sorry for everything. I should have listened to you" Those words sliced through him like a knife cutting cake. "Abby," tears began to roll down Luka's cheeks "Abby, please don't leave me, please" His voice trailed of, as the emotion became too much to bear, and he broke down, his head coming to rest on her chest. His fear had finally consumed him.

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Well that's part 3 guys, hope you all liked it. Keep those reviews coming. Part 4 coming soon