1 CHAPTER FIVE

1.1 One Step Closer



Luka had finally made it back to the hospital. He got little sleep at Abby's apartment; he sat on the bathroom floor for most of the time. He arrived back looking no different from when he had left. He walked into the ICU just as the monitor displayed no heartbeat, and a humming tone rang out. He rushed over to her, only to be pulled back by Carter, who had been with Abby while he was out of the way, to save them from clashing. Kerry and Mark rush over to Abby.

"Abby!" Luka calls out in desperation, "Abby, Don't leave me!"

Carter manages to get him out of the ICU. He slides down the wall, meeting the cold, hard ground. He puts his head in his hands and begins to weep.

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And I won't say goodbye,

Because I was never here,

I won't say hello,

Because it wouldn't be true

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Just as I am about to enter the ocean, I hear my name being called. The voice sounds so familiar, yet so far away. I begin to retreat from the ocean, and look around, but see no one there. I hear my name once more, this time it is said more frantically. It's as if someone is trying to call me back, away from the ocean, but there's no way I can go back to living now. What is there for me back there? I can't go back to Luka, not now. I can't go back to the loneliness, not again. It's a life not worth living. I hear my name again, echoing around the emptiness of this dark place.

"Are you sure that's the way you want to go?" It is Lucy again.

"You pointed me away from life and towards death, so why are you pointing me back to life?" I ask, confused at the further appearance of my dead college.

"I can't point you anywhere. I am here to help you decide, but I cannot make the decision for you"

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"Charging to 100" Kerry calls, as Mark performs CPR in desperation.

Kerry places the paddles on Abby's chest and her body convulses in reaction to the electric current.

"Still in V-fib" Mark exclaims

"Charging to 250"

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"Not many people get a second chance"

I still stand there confused, an impossible decision lying ahead. I peer out into the ocean, it looks so amazing, and then I peer toward the light, it's slowly fading, slowly disappearing.

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Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me,

Distracting/reacting

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection

It's haunting how I can't seem to find my self again

My walls are closing in

Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced

That there's just too much pressure to take

I've felt this way before

So insecure.

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"Clear"

Kerry shocks Abby's body once more, "Come on Abby, don't do this"

The flat line tone still screams from the heart monitor.

Mark continues CPR.

"1,2,3,4,5...1,2,3,4,5." His anxious whispers can be heard above the shrieking tone.

But still there is no improvement.

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I pull my hand from the ocean and stand in the centre of nothingness. The only things that I see are the ocean and the bright light. A hundred thoughts rushed through my head at once and I can't decide which way to go. My heart is telling me to go back, but my mind is telling me to leave, leave all the pain behind.

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Kerry and Mark take a step back. The flat line tone continues. They glance at each other. Carter bursts through the doors.

He stands and stares at the lifeless body in front of them all. His heart telling him to make them carry on, but deep down he knows that it is too late.

"How long?" He asks, his voice in a depressed tone.

Kerry peers up at the clock, "15 minutes"

Tears begin to weld in his eyes; he knows that this is the end. . .

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Well that's chapter 5 guys, let me know what u thought. . .please. .!

The 6th and final chapter will be here very soon, just hold on a little longer!!!!

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