I watched the entire 3rd season of CCS on Sunday, went to bed at three, woke up at six, went to school, and wrote this in first period English.
I love Yukito, and Touya, and when I saw Touya give his powers to Yue, I wondered what ore white-haired guardian thought of them both. This is my take.
PLEASE R&R! I'd appreciate it!!
Peace, Love and Anarchy!!
~The Elemental!
Reflection.
I am of the moon. I have substance, but lack a light of my own. I shine by mere reflection.
We have separate minds, my false form and I. Though I am beginning to believe Yukito is no more false than I.
Or perhaps I am no more real.
Clow Reed granted us that much, at least. We are fully aware of each other's actions, words, but our thoughts remain our own. It is a small thing, but hardly insignificant. When you share your form with another, it is a gift to hold your own thoughts private.
Yukito does not know. Cannot know.
While my love for Clow remains strong, there is another whom I find my mind turning to more and more often.
Yukito loves him, and he loves Yukito, and through my shared form I can hear his words, smell his scent, though I am denied his touch.
I feel nothing.
If I took control I would feel, but there would be no reason for him to touch me. He sees me as Yue, the guardian of his sister. Nothing more. Why should he?
Sometimes I wonder if my love is nothing but a reflection of Yukito's, brought forth through their contact, no more real than Yukito's memories before meeting Touya.
But I would not feel this strongly if it was a mere reflection. A reflection is always weaker, fainter.
This is no reflection.
But I will remain silent.
Their hearts belong to each other; there is no room in their lives for one such as I.
I wonder sometimes, that if perhaps Touya saw me more often, more than just when I transform and rush off to help Sakura, could he grow to love me? To feel for me as he does Yukito?
I promised him I would look after his sister, and myself, so that he would never lose Sakure or Yukito.
And that is what it comes down to. I wonder, if he was to love me, a being of the moon, would he love me? Yue?
Or would I be as the moon, existing, but as a mere reflection. Would he love me as I am? Or would he love me because he saw me as a reflection of his beloved 'Yuki'?
So silent I'll remain.
I am of the moon. I hold substance, but shine without a light of my own. A reflection of thesun. Until now.
I will use my strength, my will, and allow myself to shine with my own light. Even if that love is never returned. I will cherish every moment I spend with him. If it means I mush live through Yukito, so be it.
I am of the moon, I will be patient. The moon is the sign of time eternal, as am I.
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Please R&R!
I am the Breeze of Wisdom, I am the Wind of Insanity.
All I want is a kind word, a warm bed, and unlimited power….
~The Elemental
