The Pain Behind The Mask pt6
Disclaimer: I don't own DBZ or it's characters. Just the ones I made up. I also do not own anything that I mention that isn't mine.
A/N: I am actually going to be serious for a moment and issue a warning. This chapter contains some very delicate issues such as physical abuse and suicide. If either of these things upset or alarm you in any way then please don't read on.
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"Well I've underestimated you Natalie. You're determined…just like your father." Hikari said. A low growl emitted from Natalie's throat. Lightning flashed as the rain continued to trickle down slowly.
"How dare you talk about Papa like that?!" Natalie seethed. Hikari just grinned even more sinisterly.
"Why are you fighting?" Hikari asked. Natalie looked at her with a quizzical face.
"What kind of a question is that?! I'm fighting to protect my family and friends." Natalie replied.
"Well that's ironic! Why should you bother to protect them when they failed to protect you?!" Hikari asked.
It starts with [you]
One thing, I don't know why
"Shut. Up."
"Ooh! Did I strike a nerve?" Hikari asked.
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to explain in due time
All I know
"I said shut up."
"Why? I think they should hear about it!" Hikari screeched as she ran towards Natalie and started an assault on her. Natalie just seemed to take the beating and not fight back.
"C'mon Nat!! Fight back!" David urged.
"Did you ever wonder why Natalie is short when the rest of her family is so tall?! Because I refused to give her proper nutrition." Hikari said, continuing to pummel on Natalie.
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
"SHUT UP!" Natalie cried.
"Did you ever wonder why she never cries?! Because her stupid eldest brother told her not to give me the satisfaction."
"STOP IT!!" Natalie yelled.
"Did you ever wonder why SHE HATES ME SO MUCH?!" Hikari asked insanely.
"What in the blue hell are you talking about?" Tony asked. Hikari kicked Natalie to the ground as Natalie coughed up blood. Hikari continued to kick Natalie throughout.
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
"I hated her from the moment the doctor told me 'it's a girl!' I knew that she would grow up to defy me, to disobey me, to be prettier and more talented than me! So I made sure she didn't. I hated all my brats but I hated her with a passion and do you want to know why? Because even when she was a child, she still protected her brothers and it made me sick. I beat her until she bled. I beat her so hard that she may not be able to have children! I beat her and beat her and she still did not cry." Hikari seethed as she kicked Natalie again.
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, didn't even know
"What about father? Didn't you love him?" Charlie asked.
"I only married Fred because of his heritage." Hikari replied.
"Because he's Spanish?" Tony asked.
"No you baka! Because of his Tocopheran heritage." Hikari answered.
"I…knew it." Natalie barely said as Hikari kicked her in the abdomen.
I wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
"But none of the brats showed any signs of carrying the gene…I was so infuriated that I wanted to beat it out of you…but she stopped me. 'Don't hurt my brothers! It's not their fault!' She said. It pissed me off."
"You…monster." David cried. Hikari picked Natalie off the floor and smacked her across the face. Natalie shook her fists and fought back. She kicked Hikari in the gut and she fell on the floor. Natalie struggled to pick up a metal pole she found and picked it up above Hikari's head.
What it meant to me will eventually be a
Memory of a time when I [tried so hard]
"Now you die!" Natalie said.
**It's like death and killing don't even matter to her anymore. I thought I knew all my friends equally, how could I have not seen it? All that pain, suffering that was going on inside one of my best friends** Gohan thought as he watched Natalie breathe in ragged breaths.
Tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
"You can't kill me." Hikari croaked. Natalie kicked her again.
"Why shouldn't I? I spent my whole childhood afraid of you!!! Beating after beating when sometimes I just wanted to curl up and die." Natalie seethed. The rain started to pour down ten times harder. It was like a monsoon.
"Dios Mio!" Charlie gasped.
**FLASHBACK**
A four-year-old Charlie looked into the bathroom via the crack of the door.
"What in the hell were you thinking?!" Ricky yelled. Natalie just looked up at him.
"It's my fault she left Papa!" Natalie replied.
"But that is no reason to overdose in paracetemol and try to kill yourself!!" Ricky screamed as he hugged her. Tears went streaming down his face. "I love you mi Natalia pequeña. Just remember that."
"Okay."
**END FLASHBACK**
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to remind myself how (I tried so hard)
I tried so hard
"I should kill you because you are an evil person. You thought you could exploit your children into becoming an army to pay off your debt. Three sons all born one after another with special abilities in return for eternal youth. But I messed up the order, didn't I? I should kill you but I can't and do you want to know why?" Natalie said as she finally let loose the tears she had been holding since she was a two-year-old toddler. "Because my father begged me not to. 'Please Natalie' he said 'even though she never loved me, I still love her! Don't kill her, she's the mother of my children!' he begged. And then…" By this time she was trying her hardest not to sob her heart out.
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so [far]
"He died."
"What?! You mean Papa is…" Charlie couldn't even finish his sentence.
"The only parent I've ever loved, ever known. The only parent that took care of me and loved me and would give the world for me is dead. As far as I am concerned I am an orphan now. You never were my mother. Because a mother wouldn't try and destroy her daughter. If I hadn't promised then I'd be busting your head so hard but then I figure…death is too good for you." Natalie angrily said.
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a
Memory of a time when I [tried so hard]
"The police are on their way and just to agonise your jail sentence I shall tell you what you always dreaded. I'm the one. Second sight sure can be useful. You know what I saw when you came to dinner and you touched my hand? I saw what you've been doing all this time. You've been killing innocent…children so you can keep your stupid YOUTH!! I saw when you killed grandma and grandpa in front of Charlie and me and told us it was just a bad dream!! I saw what a cruel heartless bitch you are and I still say death is too good for you." Natalie said.
Tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
A police siren was heard in the distance as two police vans parked at the top of the mountain road trail and a hoard of policemen came running down.
"FREEZE! YOU'RE UNDER ARREST!" Ricky yelled as he held a gun to Hikari. "Mom." He smirked mockingly. Natalie dropped the pole on the floor as they dragged Hikari away.
"You have been charged with numerous accounts of murder one and physical abuse against a minor. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law. You have the right to an attorney. If you can't afford one then one will be provided for you…" The police officer read Hikari her rights. The others were let out of the cylinders.
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
"Are you okay?" Ricky asked Natalie, as he looked her over. "She beat you up pretty badly."
"Nat?" Ricky asked. Her eyes filled with water as she let out a heart-wrenching sob. Ricky embraced her. "There, there mi Natalia pequeña."
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
"I couldn't save him Ricky! I couldn't save Papa and now he's dead and it's all my fault and I don't know what I'm gonna do!" Natalie sobbed as fresh hot tears streamed down her face replacing the old ones.
"You poor baby! You thought Papa was dead?" Ricky asked.
"Nani?" Natalie asked.
"Right after you left…it was like a miracle. He's totally fine now." Ricky said. Natalie smiled.
"Really, really?"
"Really, really."
"Good…" Natalie said. Suddenly 6 people engulfed her. "Um, hi?"
"Ohmigosh! You brave sweetie!" Videl said.
"I owe you my life!" Charlie and Tony said.
"Dude!" Andrea said.
"I'm so sorry Nat!" Gohan said.
"Dude! You totally rock! I'm so sorry!!" David said. "But what about Nick?" Everyone froze.
"Ah, he's fine!" Ricky said as everyone looked at him bewildered. Nicholas got up slowly with a big grin on his face.
"Am I the greatest actor in the world or what?" Nicholas asked.
"You…bastard!" Everyone excluding Natalie and Ricky exclaimed.
"I'll take that as a yes." Nicholas smirked as he walked beside Natalie and kissed her on the cheek. "And here's my baby!" Natalie smiled.
"Ok! Now for those of you who have just tuned in I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IN THE BLUE HELL IS GOING ON? WHY ARE YOU HERE RICARDO?! WHAT IS A TOCOFALOOZA?! WHY ISN'T HE DEAD?!" Tony yelled.
"Geez, you'd think he wanted me dead." Nicholas whispered as Natalie laughed.
"Ok, first we need to go check on my dad and then we'll go out for pizza. My treat." Ricky said. "Then I'll explain everything. Geez, Ton you are such a hothead!"
"Am not!" Tony said sticking out his tongue.
"Listen guys, I'll catch up with you later…" Natalie said walking off.
"I'll go after her." Gohan volunteered. Nicholas put his hand on Gohan's shoulder.
"Listen man, you're my best friend but if you hurt her in any way…she's very delicate right now." Nicholas said, with pain in his eyes.
"I just want to go and apologise." Gohan said as Nicholas grudgingly let him go. Gohan found Natalie sitting near a tree. The rain had finally let up. "Mind if I sit?"
"Knock your socks off." Natalie said. Gohan sat down.
"Nat, I just want to tell you how sorry I am…I didn't know…" Gohan tried to get the right words out but Natalie just shushed him.
"It's ok, no one knew except Ricky and Nick." Natalie replied.
"Are you mad at me?" Gohan asked.
"No Gohan, I'm not mad at you. I actually envy you." Natalie said.
"Why's that?"
"Because you seem to see the best in everyone…you have such an innocent look on life that I never had. You see the world through the eyes of a child sometimes…I wish I had that for even one second of my life." Natalie sadly smiled as tears started to roll down her face.
"Nat…"
"You know why I didn't fight her at first? Fear. Here's this woman that had been trying to kill me since the day I was born and…I just thought to myself who in the blue hell do I think I am? I'm not some superhero or Lara Croft. I'm just a semi-average 18-year-old girl. I really wanted her to just end it. To end this pathetic excuse for a life…but then I thought my father wouldn't have wanted it that way. I'm not fighting for me…but for his honour. I just wanted the pain to go away." Natalie said. Gohan embraced her as she started to sob.
"Ssh, it'll be okay Nat. She can't hurt you anymore." Gohan said.
"I wish I had a childhood Gohan…why did she have to take that away from me?" Natalie asked.
"I don't know."
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter…
"Nat, I want to thank you. Even though we weren't really that close before…you are like family to me." Gohan smiled.
"Great…another brother to care for." Natalie laughed as Gohan laughed with her.
To Be Concluded…
Well now! Shock horror ne? I told you it was going to be sad! Well there's one part left peeps! Leave a review and tell me what you thought please. Thanks!
