Author: AmberKid
Feedback: always welcome
Archive: just ask
Warning: hints of Yaoi (will be more in later parts), maybe a little OOC
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters. I'm just a poor university student, so don't sue me.
Writer's notes: I had the idea for this while listening to the OST of the movie. It's mainly based on the song "AnÃron".
The term "AnÃron" means "I desire", according to the lyrics in the booklet of the OST. And that is, what this is all about, and how I use the term in the fic.
AnÃron
"I don't know, when my feelings did change, but I must admit that they are different now.
I fully realized the change inside, as we were entering Lothlorien.
I can still feel the weight of the small necklace around my neck, although I took it off days ago. I feel, I am not allowed to rightfully wear it, now my heart has turned to another..."
Sighing deeply, Aragorn put down the small journal he had been writing in. Most of the times, writing his thoughts down helped him to clear his mind, but this time it didn't work.
"Something troubling you..?" a soft voice demanded to know. When Aragorn looked up, his eyes met with those of the elven queen, Galadriel. And again Aragorn felt like her gaze was looking deep into his soul, reading his deepest and most secret thoughts and feelings.
"I can not look into your eyes and lie..." Aragorn said, turning his face away from her still intense gaze.
A soft laughter answered his statement.
"Is that, why you turn away from me?"
Galadriel moved, to sit down at Aragorn's side.
"So there are thoughts troubling you?"
"You already seem to know, so why do you ask?" Aragorn replied without looking up.
Galadriel smiled. "Because I wanted to hear it from you. What you just said was already an answer..."
Aragorn smiled a sad and desperate smile, agreeing to her words with a nod.
"My heart is heavy with feelings that I do not fully understand...disturbing feelings that burden my heart and cloud my mind..."
Galadriel nodded. "Continue. What kind of feelings are these?"
Aragorn sighed. "For quite some time I thought to have fallen in love with one of the most beautiful elven maidens. And I was happy seeing her answering to these feelings. And my heart was overflowing with joy, when she told me, she desired to bind her life to mine..." Aragorn paused, overwhelmed by his memories.
It was Galadriel's voice that brought him back to the present.
"And..?"
"And now I find myself betraying her by having feelings for someone else...It feels like every little bit of love I have ever felt for Arwen is now drawn away from her...to be directed at...at..."
"At whom? Who is it you desire to be close to?"
Aragorn shook his head. "I am sorry, mylady, but I don't seem to be able to bring the name over my lips. I..."
Galadriel put a hand on Aragorn's shoulder. Her feather like touch made Aragorn tremble.
"I understand." she said, "But as long as you refuse to say the name, your heart will be burdened with these troubles."
With these words she got up and quietly left, leaving Aragorn alone with his thoughts and his doubts.
Later that evening Aragorn joined the others to get some rest and sleep. Although he was sure that he wouldn't find much sleep, Aragorn drifted off to dreamland almost immediately after he had closed his eyes.
When Legolas returned to the fellowship's camp, the others, including Aragorn, were already asleep. The elf moved without a sound and finally settled on the ground near where Aragorn was sleeping. Quietly he watched his old friend.
"His worries follow him even to his sleep." he mused. "I wonder what it is that torments him so..."
As he looked at Aragorn closer, Legolas realized something was missing.
"Arwen's necklace...Why did he take it off? Do his worries have to do with her?"
Still wondering about this, Legolas heard Aragorn mumble something in his sleep. Turning his attention from his musings, he listened closer.
In his dream, Aragorn was again talking to Galadriel. It was exactly the same talk that they'd had a few hours before.
And again she asked:
"At whom? Who is it you desire to be close to?"
And this time the answer flowed freely from his lips.
"Legolas. AnÃron Legolas..."
Legolas could not believe what he had just heard. What had Aragorn said in his sleep? The sound of those elven words still rang in his ears.
"Legolas. AnÃron Legolas..."
TBC
Feedback: always welcome
Archive: just ask
Warning: hints of Yaoi (will be more in later parts), maybe a little OOC
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters. I'm just a poor university student, so don't sue me.
Writer's notes: I had the idea for this while listening to the OST of the movie. It's mainly based on the song "AnÃron".
The term "AnÃron" means "I desire", according to the lyrics in the booklet of the OST. And that is, what this is all about, and how I use the term in the fic.
AnÃron
"I don't know, when my feelings did change, but I must admit that they are different now.
I fully realized the change inside, as we were entering Lothlorien.
I can still feel the weight of the small necklace around my neck, although I took it off days ago. I feel, I am not allowed to rightfully wear it, now my heart has turned to another..."
Sighing deeply, Aragorn put down the small journal he had been writing in. Most of the times, writing his thoughts down helped him to clear his mind, but this time it didn't work.
"Something troubling you..?" a soft voice demanded to know. When Aragorn looked up, his eyes met with those of the elven queen, Galadriel. And again Aragorn felt like her gaze was looking deep into his soul, reading his deepest and most secret thoughts and feelings.
"I can not look into your eyes and lie..." Aragorn said, turning his face away from her still intense gaze.
A soft laughter answered his statement.
"Is that, why you turn away from me?"
Galadriel moved, to sit down at Aragorn's side.
"So there are thoughts troubling you?"
"You already seem to know, so why do you ask?" Aragorn replied without looking up.
Galadriel smiled. "Because I wanted to hear it from you. What you just said was already an answer..."
Aragorn smiled a sad and desperate smile, agreeing to her words with a nod.
"My heart is heavy with feelings that I do not fully understand...disturbing feelings that burden my heart and cloud my mind..."
Galadriel nodded. "Continue. What kind of feelings are these?"
Aragorn sighed. "For quite some time I thought to have fallen in love with one of the most beautiful elven maidens. And I was happy seeing her answering to these feelings. And my heart was overflowing with joy, when she told me, she desired to bind her life to mine..." Aragorn paused, overwhelmed by his memories.
It was Galadriel's voice that brought him back to the present.
"And..?"
"And now I find myself betraying her by having feelings for someone else...It feels like every little bit of love I have ever felt for Arwen is now drawn away from her...to be directed at...at..."
"At whom? Who is it you desire to be close to?"
Aragorn shook his head. "I am sorry, mylady, but I don't seem to be able to bring the name over my lips. I..."
Galadriel put a hand on Aragorn's shoulder. Her feather like touch made Aragorn tremble.
"I understand." she said, "But as long as you refuse to say the name, your heart will be burdened with these troubles."
With these words she got up and quietly left, leaving Aragorn alone with his thoughts and his doubts.
Later that evening Aragorn joined the others to get some rest and sleep. Although he was sure that he wouldn't find much sleep, Aragorn drifted off to dreamland almost immediately after he had closed his eyes.
When Legolas returned to the fellowship's camp, the others, including Aragorn, were already asleep. The elf moved without a sound and finally settled on the ground near where Aragorn was sleeping. Quietly he watched his old friend.
"His worries follow him even to his sleep." he mused. "I wonder what it is that torments him so..."
As he looked at Aragorn closer, Legolas realized something was missing.
"Arwen's necklace...Why did he take it off? Do his worries have to do with her?"
Still wondering about this, Legolas heard Aragorn mumble something in his sleep. Turning his attention from his musings, he listened closer.
In his dream, Aragorn was again talking to Galadriel. It was exactly the same talk that they'd had a few hours before.
And again she asked:
"At whom? Who is it you desire to be close to?"
And this time the answer flowed freely from his lips.
"Legolas. AnÃron Legolas..."
Legolas could not believe what he had just heard. What had Aragorn said in his sleep? The sound of those elven words still rang in his ears.
"Legolas. AnÃron Legolas..."
TBC
