I Still Believe

Title: I Still Believe
Author: talena
Disclaimers: Don't sue 'cause I own nothing except this story.
Category: M/L angst
Genre/Spoilers: Angst.Drama/CYN
Author's Notes: Nothing really to say I guess except hoped it's not that bad and please leave feedback!



You look in my eyes and I get emotional inside
I know it's crazy, but you still can touch my heart


I'm Liz Parker, and two weeks ago I lost two of my best friends, both taken from me by Fate's cruelty. I thought I would be over Max Evans by now. After all the pain we've put one another through, I thought my heart would finally forget. I was wrong, nothing changed, I still love him, he's still my soul mate, but there's one difference…he stopped believing in me. The one thing I knew Max would always do was believe in me, and now he can't even do that.

And after all this time you think that I, I wouldn't feel the same
But time melted to nothing and nothing has changed


"You just don't want to admit an alien killed him because then you are responsible!"

"Alex killed himself, there's nothing else to it. Let's go."


His cold words echoed in the air beside her as she stood staring at the stars, sitting quietly. The words had hurt yes, but when their eyes locked, the iciness in his, shot straight through her heart, piercing and destroying it. No longer was there warmth and love in those depths for her, no longer did she see the usual longing she knew was present in her eyes.

Yes, she still longed for him, just as he had longed for her. When Future Max had come to her, and after she had put on that charade of sleeping with Kyle, Liz had still believed that she and Max would be together one day. Happier and more in love than ever, that thought was what had kept her going. That secret little hope shining brightly in her otherwise miserable and dark world. Her dreams were haunted of what might have been, what should have been, and what still may be.

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again


However, everything changed the day of Alex's funeral when he had supported the Sheriff's theory of suicide and would not listen to her reasoning, none of them had, and that had crushed her because she knew that right then Max Evans had stopped believing in her, and the hope she harbored began to diminish.

She vainly struggled to keep it, in effort to keep her sanity, because the only things now that were keeping her going was that small bit of hope, and the desire to prove Alex's death a murder and not suicide. This was proving difficult because everyone had abandoned her; all accepting that Alex had just killed himself, even Maria who knew him better than that would not fight for the truth. While she had been looking through the pictures, flashes came with each image she had touched. These memories of a better time, when everyone seemed happier, careless, haunted her bringing her whatever happiness left to spare in the suddenly bleak world.

Flash

The six of them at the Quarry before Tess had even entered their lives. Each of them off in their own little pairs.

Flash

Her first kiss with Max…and the many kisses that came after.

Flash

The flutter in her heart at seeing Max again after their summer apart.

Flash

Seeing herself through Max's eyes, learning that in his eyes, she was beautiful.

Flash

Watching Max serenade her, a smile ever present on her face.

Flash

The wedding dance she would never know, dancing with Future Max to their song.

Flash

Dancing with Max in Las Vegas, seeing the flash of them exiting the chapel, newlyweds with only eyes for each other causing her to almost break free from the tangled web of lies.


Each day of my life, I'm filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I am not the desperate type
If there's one spark of hope left in my grasp I'll hold it with both hands
It's worth the risk of burning to have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no, I need you, baby
I still believe that we can be together, ho...
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again

Liz was pulled out of her thoughts at the sound of an approaching engine, and her heartbeat sped up upon seeing whom the driver was. The hope sparkling as she watched him stride over to her, hoping against all hopes that he had finally believed her, and that he was here, not to reproach, but to help her.

I still believe (Yeah)
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again (Oh, baby, yeah)

I had a dream
Someday you and me (You and me)
Will find ourselves
In love again


"What are you doing here?" He demanded, and her smile faded upon seeing that steely look in his amber depths. Her earlier thoughts vanishing as if they had never existed.

"What does it look like I'm doing? I'm waiting for a cab." She snapped, her heartbeat slowing down again, almost lifeless.

"Where are you going?"

"To the airport, I'm going to Sweden. I know Alex wasn't murdered." She replied, defiance echoing in her voice, defiance she did not feel, and she felt that light of hope beginning to diminish again. In her heart, she missed the way he held her, the way his arms felt like home, and that she need not be anywhere else, but safe in his welcoming embrace.

I still believe (Ooh, baby, I do)
Someday you and me (Just give me one more try)
In love again

"Max…"

"I'm coming for you Liz Parker."

Flash

"You put your life in danger just to save me. Why?"

"It was you."

Flash

"Don't you realize what you are to me...and you're always gonna be? You're the love of my life. Everyone else is gonna be second best. There'll never be another you!"

I had a dream (I miss your love)
Someday you and me


"That King card might work on Isabel, and it might work on Michael, but you know what Max? I'm not someone you can order around!" She was livid, but her heart was also breaking upon hearing his ultimatum. "If you leave, our friendship's over."

She stared at him a moment, and then resignedly, yet in a strong voice, "That's just a risk I'm willing to take."

Will find ourselves
In love again

As the cab drove further and further away from him, she watched as his figure vanished from sight just as any hope she had for their love disappeared also.

I still believe (Yeah, I still believe)

Max stood staring at the stars, anguish and confusion coursing through him as the thought of everything falling apart came to mind. He was losing everyone he cared for most. First it was Michael, then Alex, and now Isabel and the one person he thought he would always have, Liz. He was drowning and now trying to grasp onto something that could be his safe hold. Hearing footsteps behind him, Max turned around at her voice.

"It's beautiful isn't it?" She commented as she leaned against his jeep, eyes glistening in the moonlight. He nodded in agreement, grasping onto the now visible safe hold. As he continued to converse with the one who was his love, his human side slowly began to disappear as he began to embrace his alien side, finally embracing his destiny with Tess, leaving behind his love for a certain petite doe-eyed brunette.

Someday you and me (Baby, yeah)

She was angry at herself for caring for what he said, angry at herself for letting him hurt her once again. She was livid beyond belief, and in that brief moment, Liz Parker truly began to believe that she could possibly hate Max Evans, and the thought both sickened her and scared her.

Will find ourselves

But no matter how much irritation, no matter how much annoyance, hatred, and mistakes that lay between the two, both could not douse that small glimmer of fiery hope and belief for what was once theirs as the two went their separate ways on paths leading away from one another and a love once so sacred.

…in love again

~*the end*~