Can't Lose You Now
Chapter 4
She flew towards the portal; with little Kero following closely in suite, they soon entered back into their world. She speeded towards the ground causing Syaoran's grip on her waist to tighten. Shortly they were on the ground once more. They both got off her wand, and soon Fly and Create floated to her awaiting hands. She looked up as if she just remembered something.
"Sya- Li, here"
She said as a slight blush stained her cheeks, as she handed him back the time card.
"I'm glad you're safe, and I hope that you are alright."
She paused for a moment.
"I'm so sorry that I put you in danger"
She bowed in apology, then slowly turned and started to head back to her home, with a little stuffed animal closely behind. Every now and then turning to glare at as he called him 'The kid.' Syaoran just watched her retreating form.
He felt a little confused, and sat on a near by bench.
"She loves me"
He thought to himself.
"But I love Yukito-san, don't I?"
He asked himself, before he was disrupted by a noise he heard from behind him. He turned and saw Yukito and Touya walking together. He looked at Yukito momentarily as a stain appeared on his cheeks, but it quickly disappeared.
"Hello Li-kun, how are you doing?"
He slowly looked up,
"Hello, Tsukishiro-san, Kinomoto-sama"
He said while directing a glare at Touya the whole time. He broke his glaring contest and looked back to Yukito for a moment.
"Tsukishiro-san can I ask you, your opinion?"
He muttered shyly, Yukito smiled brightly at him but Syaoran didn't blush wildly like he would have usually.
"This girl admitted that she loves me, I thought I hated her. Well not exactly hated, but well, anyway. I thought I cared for someone else, but I know I don't anymore, at least not like I did. And I think I might have feelings for her as well, but..."
He said as an intense blush stained his cheeks.
"Who would like you Chinese gaki?"
Touya asked laughing hysterically, but keeping his glare on him.
"Wouldn't you like to know." 'But you already do"
He whispered with a smirk.
"What was that?"
He seethed at the young teen before him.
Touya was about to continue when he noticed the look that Yukito was giving him and stopped before the next insult permeated his lips.
"Li-kun, I think you like this young girl more than you're admitting, to Touya, myself as well as yourself. "
He sat there for a moment a subtle daydream floating through his head; a figure was floating away from him. His heart started aching.
"Li-kun, Li-kun"
He snapped out of his thoughts he quickly got up and started to run off.
"Thank you for the help"
He yelled back as he was rounding a corner.
"I need to find my blossom"
He blushed at his own words and saw Touya shooting him a suspicious look before he turned the corner. He remembered Sakura was walking awfully slow and hoped he could catch up to her. He was running full speed when he noticed someone sitting on a bench on the side of the road. He took a quick glance then stopped and looked back at her but she didn't seem to notice him standing there looking at her.
"Saku- uh-uh Kinomoto"
He whispered. She didn't notice him or his words because she was to fascinated with the ground.
"Sakura"
He whispered as he sat down next to her, startling her. She looked at him for a moment before she spoke surprised.
"Li-kun?"
As he looked at her beautiful face he noticed that she'd been crying. 'Probably over me' he thought to himself.
"How are You?"
He asked feeling stupid for asking such a thing.
"I just talked to Yukito, he was with your…"
"I'm sorry, you should have heard it from Yuki, not me."
She interrupted him as she rose to her feet and again began walking away. Syaoran rose and was quickly at her side.
"What are you sorry for Sakura?"
She blushed just now noticing he wasn't calling her Kinomoto.
"I know if the situation were switched I'd want to hear it from Yuki, himself. And I was the one you had to hear it from, probably the last person you ev- ever would"
By this time she was crying again. He placed an arm around her shoulders to try to console her.
"What's wrong? Please don't cry."
He whispered into her hair, she continued to let the tears fall for a moment. She sighed in defeat and looked up and found she was staring into his fiery amber eyes.
"You still care about him and it's my fault that you found out he loves another, and that you had to find out I… I'm just sorry."
She looked at the ground again desolately trying to find comfort in the cold dark pavement.
"Sakura, I- I need to tell you something."
He carefully removed his arm from her shoulders and placed his hands on them trying to make her look at him.
"I realized something not to long ago, true I do like Yukito and did have a crush on him but I don't love him."
She looked back up at him with confusion again meeting with his intense amber eyes. Syaoran returned her confused gaze with one of love and adoration. She was confused by the feelings she saw in his eyes, he removed his hands from her shoulders and circled them around her waist. And pulled her close into a tight hug, not wanting to let go.
"Wh- why?"
She muffled into his shirt as he tightly hugged her. She soon returned the hug as she asked him again.
"Why, uh why are you hugging me?"
She mumbled confused as to what was going on. He pulled away slightly to look into her hopeful emerald eyes.
"There is something I want to get straight with you."
He stated; she gave him an embarrassed and confused look as she still held onto him.
"What you told void did you-…?"
She blushed brightly at his question and more she saw a faint blush rise in his cheeks. She lowered her head back to the ground and nodded as she whispered.
"Yes I did"
He turned a bright shade of red and a huge smile threatened to show itself. He raised her chin so she had to look him in the eyes. He saw that her eyes filled with unshed tears.
"Sakura I have something I want to tell you. When I first arrived from Hong Kong, you were the last person I would have ever thought should be the master of the cards. And I wanted to take them but even if I have they would have found their way back to you. I came here in search of more power. But I ended up making friends. In Hong Kong I was not liked by people, I was cold and uncaring to all of them and probably always will be. None of them have ever showed me the love and friendship you have, even when I didn't want it. I made a promise to myself to protect the only one who can make me smile the one who's captured my heart as well as the cards, the one with the biggest and most trusting heart. I made a promise to protect you. The one I love most is you Sakura."
She stared at him wide eyed. The tears she had been holding fell like a waterfall.
"I didn't mean to make you cry"
He said as he wiped some of the tears away. She continued to stare at him in shock by everything he had just said. Syaoran looked into her eyes a slightly worried look appearing on his face. Her eyes quickly saddened.
"Syaoran thank you for the nice thought but I don't need you to pity me. You feel bad that I said I loved you and you don't feel the same way." 'I know you don't love me how can you, just a few days ago you hated me and thought I was worthless.'
She thought to herself sadly, as she tried to push herself out of his arms. But he wouldn't let her go so easily.
"Sakura, I've never hated you, I just acted so cold to you because I didn't want you to know I cared. I thought it was my mission and only my mission that was important, then I realized I stopped caring about my mission a long time ago I've only been protecting you."
She looked at him still stunned. 'How'd he know, I didn't say it, but I do love him I just don't know' she scolded herself inwardly.
"Li-kun, it's ok really. I don't want feelings that are forced from anyone no matter how much I care about them. But a part of me wants to believe it but I just…"
"Sakura, why are you so hesitant to believe that I do love you?" 'Maybe it was wrong to tell her how I really feel. Damnit, I love you! I want nothing more than to take her pain away' he yelled to himself.
She looked at him for a moment processing all that he had just said to her.
"I- I'm so Sorry Li-kun"
He looked at her with surprise in his eyes. 'Why does she keep apologizing when she has no need to?' he questioned himself.
"What for?"
She looked directly at him now,
"I didn't mean to make you regret telling me how you feel, It's just I- well I mean to say-"
She sighed and closed the distance between them and hugged him.
"I'm sorry for making you go through every thing that you've been through. I promise from now on to do my best to not let anything harm you."
He looked down at the girl holding him with fond eyes. And he tightly hugged her back.
"Sakura I want nothing more than to be with you, protect you and make you happy."
She looked deep into his burning amber eyes and saw the truth behind his words. And tears started to form in her eyes, and she hugged him again very tightly. He pulled away only slightly and wiped away the tears. And lifted her chin and kissed her, kissed her with all the love he had inside of him for her. She was a little shocked at his sudden display, but kissed him back with the same love. The kiss was unwillingly ended and they stood there in each other's arms.
"Let me walk you home." he offered.
She gladly accepted and he took her hand and walked in the direction of her home. They soon arrived at her doorstep. They looked at each other for a moment neither wanting to leave the other. Finally Sakura broke the silence.
"I'd better get in it's getting late, and Kero may worry. I'd invite you in but I know Meilin, and Wei are worried about you."
She said finally. He gave her a small smile that caused a blush to rise to her cheeks. She gave him a hug before she started to run inside, but he caught her shoulder before she could get away and kissed her lovingly. He soon pulled away and they were both as red as tomato's. She went to her door and waved as he started out of her driveway. When he was no longer in sight she shut the door and leaned against it sighing. Kero came down to see if his mistress was OK, when he left her on the bench she had been very sad. He came down to see a smiling girl sitting on the floor. He looked at her strangely for a moment.
"Sakura, are you doing all right."
He eyed her disconcertedly. She seemed happy as in contrast to how she was only a little while before in the park. She looked up at him and gave him a big smile.
"Kero I'm doing great."
She yelled as she got up and ran towards Kero and started dancing around the house with him.
"He loves me back Kero, he really does. I'm so happy."
"Who Kaijuu? I'll kill him… Uh, why are you talking and dancing with a stuffed animal?"
A familiar male voice quizzed. She turned and glared at him.
"Don't call me that. Oh well, I'm so happy you can get away with it this once. He loves me, he loves me!"
Yuki then walked in and noticed the big change in her attitude from a few days prior. He looked at Touya who looked ready to kill someone.
"Hello Sakura. Why are you so happy?"
He questioned with a smile.
"He loves her too."
Touya stated flatly. As he looked back to Yuki who's standing in the doorway.
"Who?"
"I don't know but I bet it has everything to do with our talk with the gaki!"
Sakura had since stopped dancing and looked at the 2 of them with interest. She wanted to inquire as to what they were talking about, but they were to into their conversation and she was tired. She took Kero (Who'd nervously been in doll form the whole time.) and went up to her room and got ready to go to bed.
At Syaoran's home, he just walked in the door and was instantly tackled by Meiling.
"You're home. Where have you been I've been so worried and so has Wei. I bet that Kinomoto had something to do with this."
Meiling seethed. Syaoran just sighed. And looked at the angry but grateful girl in front of him. 'I don't love her. I have to find someway to tell her.' he thought to himself.
"Where's Wei, Meiling? I need to tell him that I'm ok then I need to have a talk with you."
He said in a solemn voice. She looked at him and could already sense what he needed to talk about. She sighed and took him to Wei.
"Wei"
He looked up and saw his young master in front of him. He quickly stood and greeted his young master with concern.
"Are you alright, we've been so worried about you. Where have you been?"
He asked Syaoran began from the cave and the card and told them all that happened leaving out a few events with Kinomoto, and the Void telling him about their feelings. Wei looked at him grateful that he was back safely. 'I have to thank the young Kinomoto' he noted mentally.
"Well you've had quite an adventure, now why don't you go get ready for bed you've hard it hard the past few days."
Meiling and Syaoran went up stairs to get ready. Meiling went into her room and Syaoran stood in the hallway for minute thinking of what to say to her. He slowly entered her room.
"Meiling, I need to talk to you."
She looked up at him with a sad smile. He frowned a little but was insistent on doing what he set out to do.
"Meiling remember the promise we made a long time ago when we first got engaged?"
He asked hopeful. She sadly nodded.
"Yes, you'd stay engaged to me till you found the one you truly love."
She admitted sadly. He nodded and cleared his throat uncomfortably.
"I'm really sorry Meiling but I've found the one that I love most. An- and she loves me back."
She looked up at him through teary eyes.
Who is it?"
She demanded.
"Uh, Kinomoto Sakura."
Her mouth nearly fell to the floor in shock. She wanted to yell at him make him feel as bad as she felt at that moment. But then she remembered why they made the promise. "So he'd be happy and marry who he loves more than life." She whispered to herself.
"Xiao-lang, are you sure she returns your feelings?"
She asked uncaringly. He blushed bright red.
"Yes, she's the one that admitted her feelings to me."
"Well Xiao-lang I know I can't do anything to waver your love for her. I've noticed it for a while now. Please take care of her, and if she ever does anything to hurt you I will not hesitate to kill her."
She finished with a smug smile. He gave her a tight hug and thanked her for her understanding.
"Wait Meiling, You knew what?"
He questioned, as he walked towards the door. He turned to see her just smile at him.
"I knew you liked Kinomoto. I could see it in the way you look at her, the way you treated her, and the way you punished yourself when you hurt her. You are both lucky"
He smiled at her as he left the room and continued to go get ready for bed. He finished and returned to his room and lay in his bed.
Back at the Kinomoto's Sakura had just gotten into bed. They both lay in there bed staring out the window.
"I love you, Sakura"
"I love you, Syaoran"
They both thought together as they slowly faded into sleep. With thoughts of each other playing in their heads.
That's the end. I hope you liked it. For any of you who have read my other story Written I want to let you know that there is going to be a sequel. I'm starting it soon so the first chapter should be on FF.net soon. So keep an eye out. I hope you'll like it. I've also decided to start working on another story to go along with this one. When it comes out I hope you'll like it as much as you like this one of not more. Do you think there should be one let me know?
