The usuall... don't own, don't sue. No money made. Even if it is needed. ^^ for entertainment only.

UNTITELED FF8 STORY

By: © Simon Erif

I can't see ahead of me I'm so tired of walking aimlessly but I have to go on. It was after all the only thing I have left, to just keep walking.

My only friends are my own thoughts as I keep pondering on what could have been or what might still be no matter how unlikely it might be. I can't help but wonder what might have happened if I'd went back just like everyone else. I can see all the other options before me all the alternatives that I could have if I had just gone back with the others.

I know it's all so futile after all I am not going back. I can't go back. I have no reason to go back to that life. I have no happy memory of my life that I could zoom into. So I have no portal for returning.

I know they're all more than a little disappointed in me. I know most of them must hate me or at least despise me.

Squall He has hated me since we met. I don't know exactly why but none the less he hates me with vigour I have never seen before and doubt never seeing from any other person than him.

Zell he hates me too. Mostly because I have tormented him since we were kids. I only did that because I didn't want him to get to know me too well. Everyone I know always gets hurt by me or by someone I know.

Quistis She's disappointed in me mostly but I believe she hates me too for what I've done to everybody.

Selphie... I can tell that she despises me almost as much as Squall. I'm not her rival but I've hurt the people she consider friends and some even lovers.

Irvine I hurt his bride. So he hates me for that and because I hurt Selphie, no one gets away with hurting his girl after all.

Raijin and Fujin... I love them. They are the only two people that have really been my friends. But I guess in the end... even friendship is not enough to keep people around you. I hope thay are all right.

And last but not the least. Rinoa I did love her once, you know. But now she's Squall's girl like she ought to be. I know she hates me. She has a good reason. I hurt the man she loves and will love till she dies. After all why would she have chosen me over Squall? He is after all everything I'm not and so much more.

I wasn't meant to be with anyone. So I keep Drifting because there isn't a place for me to go I keep walking with out purpose.

I can't go back I just can't. It's not that I don't want to. I just don't want to ruin all of their lives with memories of time when everything was like it was. I don't want to go back and remind them of the war of Ultimecia or all the pain they went trough in that time. I don't want to be in the centre of all that they hate or despise. Even if I want to go back and feel the warmth of the sun and the tenderness of the wind as I sit on the sand on the beach of the orphanage.

I can see them you know. From time to time I can see them as they life their lives. I saw a Squall and Rinoa got married. I saw Quistis becoming the Garden's Headmistress. I saw Zell's first date with that cute guy from Balamb Nida I think his name was. I saw as Rinoa gave birth to her and Squall's First baby it was a boy and they named him after Laguna. I've seen him grow and get married and grow old. I saw the death of my rival and his wife Rinoa.

I see them all the time. Different times of their lives I could join them, but I know I'm not welcomed. I don't belong there, just like I don't belong to anywhere. I'm alone and I drift in this endless sea of memories and missed chances.

I am Seifer Almasy And I was the Sorceress Knight

THE END