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One More Time

I am ashamed. I have come so far only to recieve punishment. Punishment in chains. The tearing of my flesh with those talons. Then when I'm healing my wounds, she turns into my desire. The one with the dark hair, that I think about every single passing moment. Taunting me, giving me pleasures beyond my own capability. And laughs at me for my weakness, and.... my mortality.

I pray to Gilean that he does not write of who I really see. No, it would be to embarassing to say that Raistlin Majere, the archmage has fallen in love with another man. Another man..... my own pupil. Yes, you can already guess can you? My own apprentice I have longed for. Imagine the look on Caramon's face if I ever told him that. I laugh despite my surroundings, seeing the stupified look I would get.

Let me explain something to you. I've never really liked women that much. Yes, I'll say it,....I'm homosexual, happy now? I put on the charade that I'm jealous of all the women Caramon had gotten. Alright, maybe just alittle bit. Then I secluded myself from having impure thoughts about another man.

Dalamar....ah yes the name seems to send a shiver up my spine. My dear apprentice. The enchanting elf, how many women have you been with? Many I believe, and men? Oh, I'm sure you've had your taste of men to haven't you? Dalamar the Dark, the love of Raistlin Majere's life. Do you know how bad that would sound to others. The most powerful mage in the world, lusting after another man, not only another man but his own apprentice! But, you my queen know, for you saw it in my heart when I was at the temple of Istar. It was not Crysania that you took shape of, it was that of Dalamar.

So many things I could have done. Life is but short for me. What will you do Dalamar with all your years left? Will you think of me? Maybe if I could come back just one more time to tell you. One more time.....

Author Notes: Umm yeah, just a short thing I wrote on the spur of the moment....tell me how you liked it. I might do a continuation of this if I get enough persuation. Continuation might be when Raistlin is allowed to come back into the world (Dragons of Summer Flames) and he meets Dalamar again.