Title: Seifer's Journal

Author: Tongari (a.k.a. Loi)

E-mail: land_of_insanity@hotmail.com

Rating: R (for language & suggestive themes ^__^)

Summary: Seifer's POV. His thoughts on his friends/enemies and himself.

Warnings: Suggested Yaoi; Character Death; BAAAAD Language (^_^)

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the FF8 characters. I make no profit from their use here. Please, I beg of you...do not sue me...I can't afford it.

Author's Notes: I just happened to find this...and decided that it was good enough to post...if I did it in sections. There are still parts that need to be written, and while I should be working on other stories (Harry Potter to be exact) I have been bitten once again by the Seifer-muse...and must continue/finish this story. I find it's easier to write than the others...maybe I'll get it done very soon. Note that this is how *I* see The Knight...and what *I* think is going on in his head...I also think he's British (just thought you should know lol). Please read/review...I'd like to know if the seeming success of my HP fic isn't just a fluke. Also, take note that any sentece/grammer problems are more than likely intentional...since Seifer is writing this himself...and doesn't seem to care. Please don't bash me cause my structure it off -smirk-

I also apologize for the sections being so short...but they are journal entries...^_^;;


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INTRO

I can't believe that I'm actually doing this. Writing in a journal...it seems so...unlike me. So...womanly. Yeah, that was a bad comparison...but I've only ever heard girls talking about writing in journals...or diaries. Then again, would a guy want to walk around talking about it if he did? I know I don't.

This is just for me. Only me...because I don't want to end up like Squall, talking to myself in my head. A year may have passed since I helped in a plot to take over the world, but it still feels as if it happened yesterday. Everyone tells me that I shouldn't keep all my feelings inside...that I should talk about them. When the hell have I ever talked to anyone about the way I feel? Never. I'm not going to start now either. So I'll just write them down in here. That's getting them out...isn't it? Of course it is.

Bloody hell...go away! Shit...I'm going to be late for class. That's just what I need. To be late again, to have Quistis glaring at me as I walk into the room, to have everyone stare at me as I sit down. Guess I should go then.

Why did I go to class? It was a waste of my time. Oh yes, I remember now. I went because...if I ever want to become a SeeD...I have to look like I care about all the things I already know. Oh well. Back to the journal I guess. I've no clue what to write in here really...Maybe I'll just start out with everyone that I know. Yeah, so that when they come in here and dig through my stuff...they can see how I really feel about them. Heh, always thinking of the worst possible situation...that's me.