RINOA
Annoyingly sweet and caring Rinoa. Not to mention almost completely helpless as well. Maybe I'm the only one who's bothered by her smothering personality. Not that I hate her or anything. I just...can only take so much of her at once. Rinoa in moderation please. I don't know how Squall does it. How does he stay sane? I respect him a little more for that. It takes talent. I couldn't handle it when I dated her. It also didn't help that I wasn't really in to women to begin with...Kudos to you Squall.
But I don't hate her. Why do I feel like I have to keep saying that? Probably because of how I act around her now. She's a sorceress...and that makes me nervous. I know it's stupid...and that it shouldn't bother me, but it does. I know that Ultimecia's gone...that she'll never possess anyone ever again, but I can't get over it. I don't know...and I WON'T ask how Rin feels when shy away from her and go pale. She looks hurt...but I can't help it.
Once, a few weeks after I first came back, she came up behind me and touched my shoulder. When I turned and saw who it was...I almost jumped away from her...like she had the plague or something. I don't know the exact look on my face, but I'm sure it was one close to pure terror. I probably looked so bloody pathetic as I cowered against the wall. She looked about ready to cry...in fact, I think she did. I stayed in my room for three days after that...I needed to get a hold of myself. I knew she was having trouble with what she'd become...I knew the way I'd acted didn't help at all...but I was sure that what she'd gone through was nothing compared to what had happened to me. I still think that's the case...I think I'm the only one.
Maybe I should apologize to her. She didn't deserve all that shit. She didn't deserve to be used by me in my attempt to be "normal". She never asked to become a sorceress. She never wanted any of this...at least I don't think so. I, on the other hand, walked right in, never looked back, took what was offered, and deserved every fucking moment of pain that I got. Yeah...so...I guess...I'll have to tell her I'm sorry...for everything...eventually.
Annoyingly sweet and caring Rinoa. Not to mention almost completely helpless as well. Maybe I'm the only one who's bothered by her smothering personality. Not that I hate her or anything. I just...can only take so much of her at once. Rinoa in moderation please. I don't know how Squall does it. How does he stay sane? I respect him a little more for that. It takes talent. I couldn't handle it when I dated her. It also didn't help that I wasn't really in to women to begin with...Kudos to you Squall.
But I don't hate her. Why do I feel like I have to keep saying that? Probably because of how I act around her now. She's a sorceress...and that makes me nervous. I know it's stupid...and that it shouldn't bother me, but it does. I know that Ultimecia's gone...that she'll never possess anyone ever again, but I can't get over it. I don't know...and I WON'T ask how Rin feels when shy away from her and go pale. She looks hurt...but I can't help it.
Once, a few weeks after I first came back, she came up behind me and touched my shoulder. When I turned and saw who it was...I almost jumped away from her...like she had the plague or something. I don't know the exact look on my face, but I'm sure it was one close to pure terror. I probably looked so bloody pathetic as I cowered against the wall. She looked about ready to cry...in fact, I think she did. I stayed in my room for three days after that...I needed to get a hold of myself. I knew she was having trouble with what she'd become...I knew the way I'd acted didn't help at all...but I was sure that what she'd gone through was nothing compared to what had happened to me. I still think that's the case...I think I'm the only one.
Maybe I should apologize to her. She didn't deserve all that shit. She didn't deserve to be used by me in my attempt to be "normal". She never asked to become a sorceress. She never wanted any of this...at least I don't think so. I, on the other hand, walked right in, never looked back, took what was offered, and deserved every fucking moment of pain that I got. Yeah...so...I guess...I'll have to tell her I'm sorry...for everything...eventually.
