hey again...its me. this is my third fanfic, and i know that i haven't finished the other fanfics, but i got this idea i just had to write it down before it went away.

in this story, everyone is seventeen, with the exception of Yukito and Touya of course, and they aren't even going to be mentioned too much.

i wanted to take Tomoyo and make it so that she had powers and wasn't just the "watcher". also, i wanted to take her character, and since in this story she has so much loneliness and pain, take that and make it so that someone can make it go away. that's where Eriol comes in. his life is so mysterious, so i wanted to give him something unexpected.

also, since no one really knows about tomoyo's father, i wanted to give him a part in the story. which is part of tomoyo's big secret of forgotten memories of her awful past.

DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own CCS or any of the characters in it. though, i own Hiramazi, Talathas, Liathano and any other characters or names such as Earth Angels or whatever that are not CCS characters.

Please read and review...





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I Wanna Be Bad



By: hidden dreamer







Chapter One





Tomoyo sighed, looking at Sakura and Syaoran hugging each other. They looked so happy, so perfect together. And she knew that she would never find someone to be that happy with.



She was all alone. Her mother was never at home, and her friends all had boyfriends or girlfriends to keep busy with. And...Eriol was in England, as he had been for the last six years. The gang was seventeen now, and in their senior year of highschool.



A light rain started falling, and Syaoran and Sakura pulled apart from each other. Sakura called out to Tomoyo, "We better get in before it starts raining too hard!"



Putting on an extra-cheery, but completely fake, smile, Tomoyo said, "You two go on ahead. I'll come inside in a minute!"



Shrugging, the lovers walked down the street towards Sakura's house. Leaving Tomoyo alone. Again.



Tomoyo tilted her head up towards the sky and closed her eyes. Letting the gentle rain fall on her face and soak her hair and clothes, she sighed. Tears welled up in her eyes as she felt her heart tear and shatter into a million pieces. All her years of loneliness, pain, and sadness suddenly burst from her in those tears.



She sank to her kness, not caring whether she soiled her clothes. Curling up into a ball, she just wept. Moments passed, and moments turned into longer moments. And even longer moments. Tomoyo didn't care.



"You shouldn't be out in the rain, you know," a voice said from not too far away.



Tomoyo jerked her head up and saw a young man leaning against the cherry blossom tree. It was...Eriol. He studied her, and she saw something in his eyes. But, she couldn't identify it.



"I don't care," she whispered, her voice hoarse.



"And why don't you care?"



"Nothing matters anymore. I can't care since no one cares about me. Who would care if I suddenly died?" Tomoyo said.



"I'd care."



"No you wouldn't."



He raised his eyebrows at this, and asked, "Why do you think I wouldn't care?"



"Because no one cares about me. I am all alone, and am destined to always be alone."



"Tomoyo-chan, people care about you. And you are not destined to be alone," he told her.



Suddenly Tomoyo looked into Eriol's eyes, and was captivated by their impossible depth. They beckoned her...calling to her...and she couldn't look away. She was paralyzed, and knew that she was stuck. She saw what was hidden in his eyes. Danger. And yet, she couldn't look away. Her heart raced, her breath was ragged and uneven.



And then...all she knew was darkness as she fainted.





Tomoyo woke up, hearing someone whisper her name. Opening her eyes, she saw the face of Eriol right in front of hers. She was in a bed, turned sideways. Knowing that she was in Eriol's house made her feel a little...different.



"I see that you're up," a voice said to her.



Without even turning around, Tomoyo knew who it was. Eriol stood in the doorway, leaning against the door frame.



Wait...how did she know that? She got confused, but shook it off and turned around, putting on one of her many masks as she always did.



"Breakfast if ready, and when you are done you can go home," Eriol told her.



"But what if I don't want to go home?" Tomoyo asked, a strange tone in her voice.



Am I flirting? she asked herself, but shook her head at the thought. It was simply too preposterous. She loved Sakura, even though she could never have her.



"It isn't safe for you here," he said casually.



"And why is it not safe?"



"Something could happen to you."



"What could possibly happen to me? You are here so I am safe."



"Yes, you are safe from other things. But you aren't safe from me," Eriol said, the threat faint in his voice.



"Oh yeah? How?"



Sighing, he explained, "I am dangerous, if you hadn't already realised. And you could do something you might regret while you are here."



"There is nothing I can do that I might regret. Damn you. I am not some dense, innocent girl like Sakura. I am not half as innocent as you think I am, Eriol-kun," Tomoyo said, her anger flaring.



"But yet you are still innocent."



"No I am NOT! I may look all sweet, but inside I am a raging fire. You can't even begin to imagine what goes through my mind, or how I feel. No one can. To everyone I am sweet Tomoyo, but I'm not! I am someone entirely different," Tomoyo yelled, her mask slipping for a moment as her fury burst.



Of course no one knew the real Tomoyo. If anyone did, they'd be afraid, terribly afraid. And she'd still be alone, except this time with everyone fearing and hating her. She was dark, and full of deep, terrible secrets. Secrets that haunted her dreams sometimes. She remembered things from her early childhood, a few memories, but some nontheless. Sakura knew none of this, and neither did her own mother.



"Tsk, tsk. You let your mask fall for a moment there. You're slipping, my dear Tomoyo-chan," Eriol said calmly, practically ignoring her outburst.



"I don't give a damn! I am completely sick and tired of the way you act. You act so fucking cool and uncaring all the time! I just want to wring your neck!"



"Give it a try."



Tomoyo felt a strange emotion rising up within her, and it frightened her. She knew all kinds of emotion. Fear. Anger. Pain. Love. But this...this was something entirely different. Something that she had never felt before. Something she thought she'd never feel. Passion. Such intense and terrifying passion.



She backed away, scared. But the wall blocked her retreat. Even though Eriol made no move towards her, she felt threatened by him nonetheless. And she finally understood what he had meant.



Gulping, she pretended to be nonchalant as she said, "But then I might actually hurt perfect Eriol. And that would be a terrible shame."



Of course, Eriol saw through her act, and advanced closer towards her. A small smile played at his lips. His deep blue eyes danced.



"But you could never hurt me, dear Tomoyo," he told her.



"Oh yes I could, Eriol. I definetely could. See, you are a lot like me, and I'm sure you've realised that by now. We both are alone. Even though we have the entire world. You, the reincarnation of Clow and the most powerful sorceror in the world. Me, the daughter of the famous Sonomi Daidouji and best friend of the Clow Mistress. You pretend not to notice, but I see you do," Tomoyo said, and saw that she was right.



He blinked, and looked at her closely. The strange expression from before came back onto his face and he murmured, "Yeah, I guess you're right. But I'm still different from you."



"How?"



"You haven't seen the terrible things I have. I've seen more death, pain, and fear than you ever will," he said softly.



Death. Pain. Fear. Those words rang out in Tomoyo's mind, and suddenly she was engulfed in darkness, and forgotten memories burst into her vision.



*Flashback*



A four year old Tomoyo sat in the grass, happily playing with her favorite doll. Her father watched her, sitting in a chair nearby.

"Look Daddy, Niara has braids!" Tomoyo said gleefully.



Her father smiled and said, "And they look mighty beautiful. But not as beautiful as my precious plum blossom."



"Oh daddy!" she admonished, giggling.



Her father chuckled and leaned back in his chair.



Suddenly Tomoyo felt the skies darkening, and lightening crackled across the sky. She cried out in fear as the rain started pouring heavily. Trying to get up, she was suddenly stuck as a strange force wouldn't let her move.



"Daddy!!!" she cried out helplessly.



"Tomoyo!" her father yelled, but he was stuck also.



Tomoyo felt a blazing fire within her, and her hair flew wildly around her face. She floated up into the air, her arms and legs spread wide, as if welcoming the storm that raged on above. She was crying in terror as the fire burned brighter within herself.



Her father was shaking his head, and all of a sudden a bright light burst from the sky. A cold and icy voice rang out from it, "The Earth Angel Prince shall die! And the line of the Angel Earth Family shall die out! No more will I suffer by the pureness of this family! Die Hiramazi Daidouji! With your death, your daughter will die too No more will I suffer!"



Hiramazi cried out, "Noooo!!!!"



A terrible black energy shot out from the light in the sky, and raced towards Hiramazi and Tomoyo. Suddenly free from his invisible bonds, Hiramazi flew up in front of his daughter and took the full impact of the energy blow, shielding his daughter while using all of his magic to keep her from dying along with him.



All of a sudden, the light was gone, and with it was the storm. Hiramazi and Tomoyo crashed to the ground, and Tomoyo looked at her father lying on the ground next to her, laboring with each shallow breath.



As he took his final breaths, he murmured to her, "My dear Tomoyo, I should have told you before. You are now the heir to the Earth Angel throne. Protect Earth, and help the Card Mistress when she arrives. Never forget who you are."



And...Hiramazi died. Tomoyo clutched at her father's lifeless body, and wept bitterly.



After a few moments, she lifted her tear streaked face up, and cried out, "I will avenge my father's death!"



*Flashback Ends*