"You don't know me, but I'm always around. Well, you

know my name and you've seen me, but you never took

any notice. That's ok, I don't mind, I've never been

one to be in the spotlight. But I know everything.

I'm a lot like you, I see and I hear but I don't take

part. I have opinions but I'm never heard. I'm

always there but never seen. So straight away we have

all this in common. I like that, you know that we're

on the same wavelength. I was there before you

though. In fact, I was there at the beginning. Not

of time, but of her life. I watched her as a baby in

her crib, then I watched her skate in her Dorothy

Hamill phase, but I'm not a phase, I'm always there.

You see, she talks to me. I don't know why because

she never hears my answers, but she does. In fact,

they all do, but I'm digressing. I saw her called to

her post, I saw the pain it caused her and how her

parent's fighting didn't help. And if I had a heart I

know it would have been broken to watch her cry and

hurt, but I don't. I wanted to, but I couldn't. She

coped though, and she took on her dutys as I knew she

would and if I could feel pride...but I don't. But

anyway, I've seen it all and she spoke to me about it,

then I saw everything else. Angel. Riley. I liked

Angel best, he noticed me more than the others, even

when he was evil he still noticed me. Yeah, sometimes

I was "afraid"but he never hurt me, and I knew he would

be good again one day, I trusted them to find a way.

I wasn't disappointed (But as you know I feel

nothing). She went on and lived on, I went with her

to college and back, I got to spend more time with

Willow. She was always good to me, looked after me as

if I was hers. Her caring nature shines through in

everything she does. People like her are hard to

find. I'm with her now. Dawn thought I would be

happier with Willow and I am. I think I miss them,

Buffy was good. I think if I were capable of love I

would love her more than anybody, yeah I'm sure I

would. Dawn was great as well but she's young and I

think that one day Willow will give me back. At the

moment Willow cries a lot just like the rest and when

she cries, Tara holds her and Willow cries more. Then

she'll look at me and I remind her of all the

sleepover's they had and all the good times. Well, I

hope I do. I missed Buffy's last battle, I know I said

that I know everything, and I do, but I don't see it

all first hand and for that I'm glad. I remember her

being brought home from the hospital with little pink

hands and feet. I couldn't imagine her dead, no,

never. I think it should hurt me but it won't and

perhaps that will "hurt" more. Perhaps I should try

not to think of that kind of thing, too philosophical

for someone such as I. But sometimes I do. I can't

help it sitting here day after day watching the

slayers world go by and end, and you can't help wonder

what makes Willow and Tara good witchs? Or what makes

Giles such a loyal watcher? Why is Xander brave when

he is needed but not in normal life? And will Anya

ever be comfortable in this world? All these things

and more pass through my mind, I like it that way.

You never know when my opinion will count and I need

to be ready. But why am I talking to you now? Well

this little amateur writer asked me so I'm taking my

chance, who wouldn't? I have something to say and why

should my opinion not count? SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE

DIED! In fact she should never have been called. She

was just a girl, and Fate dealt her the death card and

now she's gone, how am I supposed to last without her?

Will someone love me as much as her? I hope so (well

I would if I could). Oh, I need to go. Willow is

dusting and if she catches me talking to you then my

life is over. Thanks for listening."

*Willow passed by the shelf of her dorm room with a

duster in her hand, it helped take her mind of the

thoughts of everything. She passed by her soft toys

and picked up the one that meant most to her.

"Hi, Mr. Gordo how are you?" she did not hear any answer*

"You don't know me, but I'm always around. Well you

know my name and you've seen me but you never took any

notice. That's ok, I don't mind, I've never been one

to be in the spotlight."