"You don't know me, but I'm always around. Well, you
know my name and you've seen me, but you never took
any notice. That's ok, I don't mind, I've never been
one to be in the spotlight. But I know everything.
I'm a lot like you, I see and I hear but I don't take
part. I have opinions but I'm never heard. I'm
always there but never seen. So straight away we have
all this in common. I like that, you know that we're
on the same wavelength. I was there before you
though. In fact, I was there at the beginning. Not
of time, but of her life. I watched her as a baby in
her crib, then I watched her skate in her Dorothy
Hamill phase, but I'm not a phase, I'm always there.
You see, she talks to me. I don't know why because
she never hears my answers, but she does. In fact,
they all do, but I'm digressing. I saw her called to
her post, I saw the pain it caused her and how her
parent's fighting didn't help. And if I had a heart I
know it would have been broken to watch her cry and
hurt, but I don't. I wanted to, but I couldn't. She
coped though, and she took on her dutys as I knew she
would and if I could feel pride...but I don't. But
anyway, I've seen it all and she spoke to me about it,
then I saw everything else. Angel. Riley. I liked
Angel best, he noticed me more than the others, even
when he was evil he still noticed me. Yeah, sometimes
I was "afraid"but he never hurt me, and I knew he would
be good again one day, I trusted them to find a way.
I wasn't disappointed (But as you know I feel
nothing). She went on and lived on, I went with her
to college and back, I got to spend more time with
Willow. She was always good to me, looked after me as
if I was hers. Her caring nature shines through in
everything she does. People like her are hard to
find. I'm with her now. Dawn thought I would be
happier with Willow and I am. I think I miss them,
Buffy was good. I think if I were capable of love I
would love her more than anybody, yeah I'm sure I
would. Dawn was great as well but she's young and I
think that one day Willow will give me back. At the
moment Willow cries a lot just like the rest and when
she cries, Tara holds her and Willow cries more. Then
she'll look at me and I remind her of all the
sleepover's they had and all the good times. Well, I
hope I do. I missed Buffy's last battle, I know I said
that I know everything, and I do, but I don't see it
all first hand and for that I'm glad. I remember her
being brought home from the hospital with little pink
hands and feet. I couldn't imagine her dead, no,
never. I think it should hurt me but it won't and
perhaps that will "hurt" more. Perhaps I should try
not to think of that kind of thing, too philosophical
for someone such as I. But sometimes I do. I can't
help it sitting here day after day watching the
slayers world go by and end, and you can't help wonder
what makes Willow and Tara good witchs? Or what makes
Giles such a loyal watcher? Why is Xander brave when
he is needed but not in normal life? And will Anya
ever be comfortable in this world? All these things
and more pass through my mind, I like it that way.
You never know when my opinion will count and I need
to be ready. But why am I talking to you now? Well
this little amateur writer asked me so I'm taking my
chance, who wouldn't? I have something to say and why
should my opinion not count? SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE
DIED! In fact she should never have been called. She
was just a girl, and Fate dealt her the death card and
now she's gone, how am I supposed to last without her?
Will someone love me as much as her? I hope so (well
I would if I could). Oh, I need to go. Willow is
dusting and if she catches me talking to you then my
life is over. Thanks for listening."
*Willow passed by the shelf of her dorm room with a
duster in her hand, it helped take her mind of the
thoughts of everything. She passed by her soft toys
and picked up the one that meant most to her.
"Hi, Mr. Gordo how are you?" she did not hear any answer*
"You don't know me, but I'm always around. Well you
know my name and you've seen me but you never took any
notice. That's ok, I don't mind, I've never been one
to be in the spotlight."
know my name and you've seen me, but you never took
any notice. That's ok, I don't mind, I've never been
one to be in the spotlight. But I know everything.
I'm a lot like you, I see and I hear but I don't take
part. I have opinions but I'm never heard. I'm
always there but never seen. So straight away we have
all this in common. I like that, you know that we're
on the same wavelength. I was there before you
though. In fact, I was there at the beginning. Not
of time, but of her life. I watched her as a baby in
her crib, then I watched her skate in her Dorothy
Hamill phase, but I'm not a phase, I'm always there.
You see, she talks to me. I don't know why because
she never hears my answers, but she does. In fact,
they all do, but I'm digressing. I saw her called to
her post, I saw the pain it caused her and how her
parent's fighting didn't help. And if I had a heart I
know it would have been broken to watch her cry and
hurt, but I don't. I wanted to, but I couldn't. She
coped though, and she took on her dutys as I knew she
would and if I could feel pride...but I don't. But
anyway, I've seen it all and she spoke to me about it,
then I saw everything else. Angel. Riley. I liked
Angel best, he noticed me more than the others, even
when he was evil he still noticed me. Yeah, sometimes
I was "afraid"but he never hurt me, and I knew he would
be good again one day, I trusted them to find a way.
I wasn't disappointed (But as you know I feel
nothing). She went on and lived on, I went with her
to college and back, I got to spend more time with
Willow. She was always good to me, looked after me as
if I was hers. Her caring nature shines through in
everything she does. People like her are hard to
find. I'm with her now. Dawn thought I would be
happier with Willow and I am. I think I miss them,
Buffy was good. I think if I were capable of love I
would love her more than anybody, yeah I'm sure I
would. Dawn was great as well but she's young and I
think that one day Willow will give me back. At the
moment Willow cries a lot just like the rest and when
she cries, Tara holds her and Willow cries more. Then
she'll look at me and I remind her of all the
sleepover's they had and all the good times. Well, I
hope I do. I missed Buffy's last battle, I know I said
that I know everything, and I do, but I don't see it
all first hand and for that I'm glad. I remember her
being brought home from the hospital with little pink
hands and feet. I couldn't imagine her dead, no,
never. I think it should hurt me but it won't and
perhaps that will "hurt" more. Perhaps I should try
not to think of that kind of thing, too philosophical
for someone such as I. But sometimes I do. I can't
help it sitting here day after day watching the
slayers world go by and end, and you can't help wonder
what makes Willow and Tara good witchs? Or what makes
Giles such a loyal watcher? Why is Xander brave when
he is needed but not in normal life? And will Anya
ever be comfortable in this world? All these things
and more pass through my mind, I like it that way.
You never know when my opinion will count and I need
to be ready. But why am I talking to you now? Well
this little amateur writer asked me so I'm taking my
chance, who wouldn't? I have something to say and why
should my opinion not count? SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE
DIED! In fact she should never have been called. She
was just a girl, and Fate dealt her the death card and
now she's gone, how am I supposed to last without her?
Will someone love me as much as her? I hope so (well
I would if I could). Oh, I need to go. Willow is
dusting and if she catches me talking to you then my
life is over. Thanks for listening."
*Willow passed by the shelf of her dorm room with a
duster in her hand, it helped take her mind of the
thoughts of everything. She passed by her soft toys
and picked up the one that meant most to her.
"Hi, Mr. Gordo how are you?" she did not hear any answer*
"You don't know me, but I'm always around. Well you
know my name and you've seen me but you never took any
notice. That's ok, I don't mind, I've never been one
to be in the spotlight."
