The concert.
Tash: sob, thank you to everyone who has reviewed (it's taken me this long to realise how to read reviews). After re-reading my fic on ff.net I have discovered that none of my clever italic or bold bits worked so I'm in the process of re-doing the first three chaps again.
Mat: get on with it will you.
Tash: Fine. I don't own digi, if I did I'd strand Tai and Mat, Ken and Davis and T.k and Kari on an island and watch what happened (Sigh). However I do own Emy, (who is in no shape or form my way of sneaking myself into this fic. Emy is dark I'm blond (Mat: explains sooo much)) and the song that will be cropping up later, steal if you must but at least give me cred for the words!
Mat: As usual spelling and grammar mistakes are due to a vile loathing for the English language. Apologies for writing out of character or copious amounts of swearing are extended in your direction. Flames are being utilised in a cunning plan to destroy the world and so will be highly welcome. Thoughts are now listed by a ^ then the thought then another ^ phone convos will use an @ before they start. { indicates a song.
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"Write him a song." Takeru said simply.
"What?" I enquired, totally unaware of where T's (I'm tired of writing Takeru every single time T is Takeru abbreviated!) train of thought was heading.
"Look you have a concert tonight right?"
"Right."
"So write a song for Tai, get the guys to learn it then play it tonight. If Tai returns your feelings he'll understand that the song is for him, if not you haven't lost anything."
"When did you get so smart?"
"Right after I hit puberty." T replied smiling gently.
"There's only one problem."
"Which is?"
"It takes a month of the group to learn new material, how will they manage it in a day?"
"Bribe them."
"How?"
"I know for a fact that your keyboard player has a thing for Yolie and that your drummer has a few interesting habits that he would rather keep secret." T said as he turned his mouth up into an evil smile. I starred at him for a moment then closed my mouth gently.
"When did you become so evil?" I asked. He smiled and gave me a playful wink.
"Don't know, must run in the family." He said as he barely contained his laughter.
"I'll ignore that remark. Well if you don't mind I have some composing to do."
"I'll see you tonight Mat." T said as he vanished out of the door. ^A song for Tai huh? That's a tough one^ my inner voice provided. I found myself agreeing with that remark and I realised that this was going to take a really long time (A/n how very true, this god damn song has kept me up for the past three days as I searched blindly for lyrics.)
%Tai.
After seeing me try on about twelve different outfits Emy decided my blue tracksuit (A/n The one in the dreaded cookies ep (shudder)) was casual yet attractive.
"If he doesn't fancy you now the boy's either blind or as straight as a ruler."
"I'm not so sure about this any more Emy." I said as my throat became as dry as the Sahara desert.
"Chickening out are we Taichi?"
"Yes."
"Not if you want to live till 20 your not. Look you're a `friend` going to a `friends` concert to support that said `friend`." Emy said her hands making vast air quotes every time the word friend was mentioned. I gave her my last line of pleading, the famous Kamiya puppy dog eyes. She visibly wavered for a moment then bit her bottom lip. "Oh no you don't, your going and that's that. Besides the others are waiting for us." She said smiling gently. Sighing I admitted defeat and allowed myself to be dragged out of the house (A/n or flat or condominium or whatever the hell Tai lives in) down the stairs (A/n lift was out of order) and towards the hall where Mat's concert was being held. (A/n After the whole said cookie ep Mat learned never to do a concert in a tent again!)
%Yama.
The tension's always the worst thing before you start a concert. The knowledge that in the briefest of seconds your either going to make a complete ass of your self or that you've just assured that another album goes platinum. I became a musician because of the rush I got when people complimented me for my music but I kept being a musician for a totally different reason. The way I see it is that the audience are there for the music and to stair at you body, hair, eyes or whatever the hell they find attractive, they couldn't give a shit what you think or feel or do. That's what being a musician is for me, a way to escape from people wanting to see inside you, a way for me to be cool and collective Yamato Ishida. God that's one thought that is guaranteed to darken event he brightest of days. My eyes flicked up word as the stage manager entered the dressing room.
"Five minuets left guys." He said before vanishing again. I tapped my pocket to make sure that Monica (A/n his harmonica, very private joke between me an my pal Gem but logical if you think about it!) was in my pocket then I turned so that I could see the other three members of the band.
"You guys remember all the notes to the song we rehearsed today?" I enquired. Three heads nodded emphatically and I had to fight back a smile, T's plan had worked a treat in getting the bands ass in gear and had also given me all new superiority over the group. Four minuets later I grabbed my guitar, checked that the strings were still in tune then with mounting anticipation walked out of the dressing room, up the stairs and out onto the stage.
%Tai.
God I forgot how good his voice was, the voice of an angel. He just looked in our direction ^don't see Emy, don't see Emy. ^ was the silent prayer that was flickering through my mind.
%Yama
As the music flows from my soul I scan the front row for Tai's familiar face (A/n Yama supplied the tickets.) Ah I just saw T with his tong half way down Hikari's throat. ^You go T^ my inner voice screamed in a typically American blond way. Hikari and Tai are usually close together so if I keep looking in that direction. Wait a second I recognise that dark, mysterious, green eyed girl sat next to Hikari. Damn. Emily Kimono. I'd met her on Tai's 18th and I had instantly hated her for a number of highly logical reasons. 1.She was beautiful in a sultry temptress kind of a way. 2. She seemed to share with Tai the kind of relationship that I dreamed about. 3. Jealousy 4. She had the unnerving ability of being able to read everyone like an open book. 5. Jealousy 6. She'd seen Tai naked (A/n Emy told Mim and Sora this during a girl chat and Sora (who was meadaling) told Mat) 7. Jealousy 8.she was actually smarter than a chicken 9. Jealousy 10. She refused to hate me. As my eyes met her Jade green ones she smiled and cocked to head to one side her eyes now reading my very soul. Jaded but not abashed I allowed my eyes to move to Emy's left. Sure enough there was Tai, looking lost, alone. ^Hot. ^ I felt the blush on my cheek and quickly moved my eyes to where June was waving pompoms in the air. ^Beautiful distraction June. ^ As the song came to a close I removed my guitar from around my shoulder and placed it gently to the floor. As I rose back up to meet the mike I grabbed Monica from my pocket, her gentle weight somehow comforting
"This next song is one I wrote today for a very special someone." I said as T disentangled himself from Hikari and gave me big thumbs up. Sighing I looked to Yakato (keyboard dude.) and he started up a gentle back melody.
{"The many emotions behind this mask I wear,
Flow like raindrops when you're standing near me.
Empty truths and stolen lies,
Crumble to nothing in the heat of your eyes.
Love seemed so simple before you found me, seemed like empty promises in the rain,
Seemed to me to be no more substantial than sand in the wind.
But you showed me that friendship needs courage. (A/n clever non?)
You showed me that love has strength.
Without you I am no more than this mask.
Without you my life holds no vitality.
You are my courage, my strength and my love.} I allowed the words to echo around the room as I put Monica to my lips and played. The music represented Tai, at first flighty breathy then solid. I played gently to represent his fraternal instinct then I played strongly to represent his courage. Finally Yakato, Ruki (drums) and Yuri (guitar (acoustic not electric)) played the tune that represented me. Harsh and cold to represent the front I put on, soft and sultry to represent my fraternal instinct. Then almost seamlessly Yakato took up Tai's tune the piano making it bind gently to my tune while still retain its own unique style. As the final bar of the music floated around me I sang the chorus again as I fought the urge to see how Tai was reacting.
{ Without you I am no more than this mask.
Without you life holds no Vitality.
You are my Courage, my strength and my love.} As the words died so did the tune. For a moment the empty silence of the vortex, then a wave of applause that pushed away the silence and filled the hall with sound. I felt my eyes stray to where Tai was sitting, hope rising in my stomach. My eyes connected with his, searching, longing, for a flash of any emotion. Then I was aware of arms around my waist, arms that pulled me down for a kiss. For a moment Tai was livid in my mind, his breath, his soft supple skin then I awoke. I pushed forcibly away from the kiss and looked Jun in the eyes. She seemed inquisitive for a moment then she seemed to understand.
"That song wasn't for me was it" stated simply.
"No, it wasn't." I said as gently as possible.
"I understand." She said smiling sadly. I watched her hop from the stage and join her friends. Then my eyes were drawn back to Tai. Or at least to the empty seat that had held Tai. I jumped from the stage without a second thought and ran through the crowd as quickly as my feet could carry me. Emy was in the entrance foyer, a livid red slap mark imprinted on the side of her face. She gave me another penetrating stair then her brow furrowed.
"Where's…Tai?" I enquired as I tried to encourage air into my lungs.
"Gone." Was her only reply.
"I know that you bitch, now tell me where in the hell Tai is." I said my tone unusually cold.
"Since you asked in such a nice way I'll tell you the truth, he wouldn't tell me. All I know is that he's skipping the country."
"Why?" Was the only question my mind could give as it shut it's self down.
"Because he thought that you loved June. I know as well as you do that the song was for him but he wouldn't listen to me when I told him that. He said that it was my fault for dragging him here and that I could go fuck my intuition." She said gesturing to the red mark on her face.
"Tai…" Was all I could muster before I broke down into tears.
*
Tash: Wow! I actually managed a cliffhanger.
Mat: How dare you leave it there! * shudders * you should have put a Junto warning on this chapter.
Tai: I'm curious as to why I seem to be getting less and less time in the story as it goes on.
Mat: That's just Tash's residual hatred of you slipping in.
Tai: Tash hated me * sob *
Tash: Now look what you've done Yama. I didn't exactly hate you Tai I just hated the fact that T.k crotched you while Yama was away and that you beet Yama up.
Tai: Look I didn't want the squealer, he came out from nowhere. As for beating up Yama, if I hadn't of beet on him he'd have no angst.
Tash: And that is the very reason that I don't hate you anymore. Sorry guys for keeping you here so long but my imagination is having fun with the sugar high that I'm on. * sigh * I should really stay away from macaroons. …Anyway, review and I may lend you Yama's soul. Flames as stated are being utilised in my plot to take over the world (don't ask) . Next chapter really soon I promise (
Tash: sob, thank you to everyone who has reviewed (it's taken me this long to realise how to read reviews). After re-reading my fic on ff.net I have discovered that none of my clever italic or bold bits worked so I'm in the process of re-doing the first three chaps again.
Mat: get on with it will you.
Tash: Fine. I don't own digi, if I did I'd strand Tai and Mat, Ken and Davis and T.k and Kari on an island and watch what happened (Sigh). However I do own Emy, (who is in no shape or form my way of sneaking myself into this fic. Emy is dark I'm blond (Mat: explains sooo much)) and the song that will be cropping up later, steal if you must but at least give me cred for the words!
Mat: As usual spelling and grammar mistakes are due to a vile loathing for the English language. Apologies for writing out of character or copious amounts of swearing are extended in your direction. Flames are being utilised in a cunning plan to destroy the world and so will be highly welcome. Thoughts are now listed by a ^ then the thought then another ^ phone convos will use an @ before they start. { indicates a song.
*
"Write him a song." Takeru said simply.
"What?" I enquired, totally unaware of where T's (I'm tired of writing Takeru every single time T is Takeru abbreviated!) train of thought was heading.
"Look you have a concert tonight right?"
"Right."
"So write a song for Tai, get the guys to learn it then play it tonight. If Tai returns your feelings he'll understand that the song is for him, if not you haven't lost anything."
"When did you get so smart?"
"Right after I hit puberty." T replied smiling gently.
"There's only one problem."
"Which is?"
"It takes a month of the group to learn new material, how will they manage it in a day?"
"Bribe them."
"How?"
"I know for a fact that your keyboard player has a thing for Yolie and that your drummer has a few interesting habits that he would rather keep secret." T said as he turned his mouth up into an evil smile. I starred at him for a moment then closed my mouth gently.
"When did you become so evil?" I asked. He smiled and gave me a playful wink.
"Don't know, must run in the family." He said as he barely contained his laughter.
"I'll ignore that remark. Well if you don't mind I have some composing to do."
"I'll see you tonight Mat." T said as he vanished out of the door. ^A song for Tai huh? That's a tough one^ my inner voice provided. I found myself agreeing with that remark and I realised that this was going to take a really long time (A/n how very true, this god damn song has kept me up for the past three days as I searched blindly for lyrics.)
%Tai.
After seeing me try on about twelve different outfits Emy decided my blue tracksuit (A/n The one in the dreaded cookies ep (shudder)) was casual yet attractive.
"If he doesn't fancy you now the boy's either blind or as straight as a ruler."
"I'm not so sure about this any more Emy." I said as my throat became as dry as the Sahara desert.
"Chickening out are we Taichi?"
"Yes."
"Not if you want to live till 20 your not. Look you're a `friend` going to a `friends` concert to support that said `friend`." Emy said her hands making vast air quotes every time the word friend was mentioned. I gave her my last line of pleading, the famous Kamiya puppy dog eyes. She visibly wavered for a moment then bit her bottom lip. "Oh no you don't, your going and that's that. Besides the others are waiting for us." She said smiling gently. Sighing I admitted defeat and allowed myself to be dragged out of the house (A/n or flat or condominium or whatever the hell Tai lives in) down the stairs (A/n lift was out of order) and towards the hall where Mat's concert was being held. (A/n After the whole said cookie ep Mat learned never to do a concert in a tent again!)
%Yama.
The tension's always the worst thing before you start a concert. The knowledge that in the briefest of seconds your either going to make a complete ass of your self or that you've just assured that another album goes platinum. I became a musician because of the rush I got when people complimented me for my music but I kept being a musician for a totally different reason. The way I see it is that the audience are there for the music and to stair at you body, hair, eyes or whatever the hell they find attractive, they couldn't give a shit what you think or feel or do. That's what being a musician is for me, a way to escape from people wanting to see inside you, a way for me to be cool and collective Yamato Ishida. God that's one thought that is guaranteed to darken event he brightest of days. My eyes flicked up word as the stage manager entered the dressing room.
"Five minuets left guys." He said before vanishing again. I tapped my pocket to make sure that Monica (A/n his harmonica, very private joke between me an my pal Gem but logical if you think about it!) was in my pocket then I turned so that I could see the other three members of the band.
"You guys remember all the notes to the song we rehearsed today?" I enquired. Three heads nodded emphatically and I had to fight back a smile, T's plan had worked a treat in getting the bands ass in gear and had also given me all new superiority over the group. Four minuets later I grabbed my guitar, checked that the strings were still in tune then with mounting anticipation walked out of the dressing room, up the stairs and out onto the stage.
%Tai.
God I forgot how good his voice was, the voice of an angel. He just looked in our direction ^don't see Emy, don't see Emy. ^ was the silent prayer that was flickering through my mind.
%Yama
As the music flows from my soul I scan the front row for Tai's familiar face (A/n Yama supplied the tickets.) Ah I just saw T with his tong half way down Hikari's throat. ^You go T^ my inner voice screamed in a typically American blond way. Hikari and Tai are usually close together so if I keep looking in that direction. Wait a second I recognise that dark, mysterious, green eyed girl sat next to Hikari. Damn. Emily Kimono. I'd met her on Tai's 18th and I had instantly hated her for a number of highly logical reasons. 1.She was beautiful in a sultry temptress kind of a way. 2. She seemed to share with Tai the kind of relationship that I dreamed about. 3. Jealousy 4. She had the unnerving ability of being able to read everyone like an open book. 5. Jealousy 6. She'd seen Tai naked (A/n Emy told Mim and Sora this during a girl chat and Sora (who was meadaling) told Mat) 7. Jealousy 8.she was actually smarter than a chicken 9. Jealousy 10. She refused to hate me. As my eyes met her Jade green ones she smiled and cocked to head to one side her eyes now reading my very soul. Jaded but not abashed I allowed my eyes to move to Emy's left. Sure enough there was Tai, looking lost, alone. ^Hot. ^ I felt the blush on my cheek and quickly moved my eyes to where June was waving pompoms in the air. ^Beautiful distraction June. ^ As the song came to a close I removed my guitar from around my shoulder and placed it gently to the floor. As I rose back up to meet the mike I grabbed Monica from my pocket, her gentle weight somehow comforting
"This next song is one I wrote today for a very special someone." I said as T disentangled himself from Hikari and gave me big thumbs up. Sighing I looked to Yakato (keyboard dude.) and he started up a gentle back melody.
{"The many emotions behind this mask I wear,
Flow like raindrops when you're standing near me.
Empty truths and stolen lies,
Crumble to nothing in the heat of your eyes.
Love seemed so simple before you found me, seemed like empty promises in the rain,
Seemed to me to be no more substantial than sand in the wind.
But you showed me that friendship needs courage. (A/n clever non?)
You showed me that love has strength.
Without you I am no more than this mask.
Without you my life holds no vitality.
You are my courage, my strength and my love.} I allowed the words to echo around the room as I put Monica to my lips and played. The music represented Tai, at first flighty breathy then solid. I played gently to represent his fraternal instinct then I played strongly to represent his courage. Finally Yakato, Ruki (drums) and Yuri (guitar (acoustic not electric)) played the tune that represented me. Harsh and cold to represent the front I put on, soft and sultry to represent my fraternal instinct. Then almost seamlessly Yakato took up Tai's tune the piano making it bind gently to my tune while still retain its own unique style. As the final bar of the music floated around me I sang the chorus again as I fought the urge to see how Tai was reacting.
{ Without you I am no more than this mask.
Without you life holds no Vitality.
You are my Courage, my strength and my love.} As the words died so did the tune. For a moment the empty silence of the vortex, then a wave of applause that pushed away the silence and filled the hall with sound. I felt my eyes stray to where Tai was sitting, hope rising in my stomach. My eyes connected with his, searching, longing, for a flash of any emotion. Then I was aware of arms around my waist, arms that pulled me down for a kiss. For a moment Tai was livid in my mind, his breath, his soft supple skin then I awoke. I pushed forcibly away from the kiss and looked Jun in the eyes. She seemed inquisitive for a moment then she seemed to understand.
"That song wasn't for me was it" stated simply.
"No, it wasn't." I said as gently as possible.
"I understand." She said smiling sadly. I watched her hop from the stage and join her friends. Then my eyes were drawn back to Tai. Or at least to the empty seat that had held Tai. I jumped from the stage without a second thought and ran through the crowd as quickly as my feet could carry me. Emy was in the entrance foyer, a livid red slap mark imprinted on the side of her face. She gave me another penetrating stair then her brow furrowed.
"Where's…Tai?" I enquired as I tried to encourage air into my lungs.
"Gone." Was her only reply.
"I know that you bitch, now tell me where in the hell Tai is." I said my tone unusually cold.
"Since you asked in such a nice way I'll tell you the truth, he wouldn't tell me. All I know is that he's skipping the country."
"Why?" Was the only question my mind could give as it shut it's self down.
"Because he thought that you loved June. I know as well as you do that the song was for him but he wouldn't listen to me when I told him that. He said that it was my fault for dragging him here and that I could go fuck my intuition." She said gesturing to the red mark on her face.
"Tai…" Was all I could muster before I broke down into tears.
*
Tash: Wow! I actually managed a cliffhanger.
Mat: How dare you leave it there! * shudders * you should have put a Junto warning on this chapter.
Tai: I'm curious as to why I seem to be getting less and less time in the story as it goes on.
Mat: That's just Tash's residual hatred of you slipping in.
Tai: Tash hated me * sob *
Tash: Now look what you've done Yama. I didn't exactly hate you Tai I just hated the fact that T.k crotched you while Yama was away and that you beet Yama up.
Tai: Look I didn't want the squealer, he came out from nowhere. As for beating up Yama, if I hadn't of beet on him he'd have no angst.
Tash: And that is the very reason that I don't hate you anymore. Sorry guys for keeping you here so long but my imagination is having fun with the sugar high that I'm on. * sigh * I should really stay away from macaroons. …Anyway, review and I may lend you Yama's soul. Flames as stated are being utilised in my plot to take over the world (don't ask) . Next chapter really soon I promise (
