A/N: I realize it can be taken as very OOC. Definite Yui/Miaka hintage, although y'know, some people can get that attached to their friends! Really. Just for dramatic effect. The idea was poking the inside of my head until I wrote it, so I did. Enjoy.

Phoenix Rising

Inevitable, it comes, the sweeping rushing bitter cold. Aching. Shrieking. Shaking, tearing, ripping me to shreds with its icicle blade.
Alone. Alone, and thrashing nightmare monster shadow light. I am waiting, still waiting, for your burning heat. My sun. My salvation. When I wake you are always there, soothing, warming, mine. I wait. But the echoes mock me, freeze me, drag the words from my lips.
Gone, you're gone, you left me, shaking, freezing, alone. You who loved me, held me, saved me, you, my light, my sun, my soul.
Lost.
The dark resounds, thrums like death with the echoes of your name. Don't you know? I'm drowning, dying, swallowed by the twilight that descends. It is cold, so cold, without your light.
Find liberty, fly free; soar with scattered ashes and wings of reborn flame. No shadow shackles chain you; I have lost you now. Haunting, creeping, I lie unseen. No more will I be your night, fettering you from the sky. Fly, fly now, as I drown.
No good, just darkness, just insatiable night. All I was, all I could be, falling at your side. Tangles of liquid fire, trickling words I lapped up at your feet. No need for the shadow, not now, not ever, not any more. For there is him and he is your light, your darkness, your fulfilling love. Gone now, I cannot reach you. And fall, wither, perish without.
I hate him, hate him, hate hate hate because he has you. Hate because you have him. And still I love him, for he is part of you, is of you, is you. I can taste your breath on his lips, see you reflected in his eyes.
They want you, crave you, need your warmth and smoldering words and ever after smile. They beg for the chance, the fire. They need. But you were mine once, yes, mine, laughing the rivulets of ice away. You were mine, my sun, my heart, my ever precious everything. I would kill for you, would bleed, tear myself apart to find the one you once loved. No one else did. No one could but you…but you…once.
I need it; now, the diamond tears and rose red petals and breath like flaming sunset. Need the champagne euphoria river, the sunlight melting my shell like ice.
But you left, you left me, ran onward to your newest jewel. I stumbled, faltered, fell amongst discarded whispers and broken glass. Lost.
Twisting aching tearing lonely, needing, grasping, but falling again. I loved you, needed you, worshipped you. You made me, shaped me, forsook me at last. Left me to the vultures, claimed by night's raging carrion seekers. Cast me to the hounds leaping on shadowy tendrils of night, left me to fend against that which you had always shielded me from. Fight, or be swallowed, drowned, enveloped, taken.
You are gone and I am fallen, twisted, misshapen now in the absence of your flame. No more can we ascend to what we were, no longer do the memories whisper. The lies we lived surround me like the corpses of years past, my echoing puppets of midnight's shadow. What reins do I clutch, dragging me towards perpetual perdition? What endless shadows do I rage against, where do I fall without your light?
Dance on, feathery light, flickering flame, burning searing endless. Fly without me, find your new chains, wrap them about you like a cloak of possessing silk. Use them, leave them, need them if you must. Forsake me; think no more of those never reborn. Scatter the embers beneath your feet as you rush on, casting no glance to the sparks that fade without your glow. Fly, burn, throw your chains of light through the sky like the benevolent rays they seem. Rise; rise again, from my ashes.
I will stay, burning in the fire cold as ice. I will ache, suffer, here. Freezing in the shadows created by your sun.