Well I think I should warn those who do not like yaoi there is a little Takedai in here badly written but still Takedai nevertheless. And don't bother flaming me for how bad this chapter is I already know its crap but it would be nice if you would review.
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon if I did it wouldn't be a kids show.
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Chapter 5
Early morning sunlight flittered through the cracks in the curtains waking me up a lot earlier than I would have liked. Opening my eyes I was greeted with the sight of Daisuke hunched over drawing something on a sketchbook and humming softly to the music playing over the radio I yawned and stretched to get rid of the heavy feeling in my limbs.
"What are you doing?"
Daisuke glanced up at me briefly before going back to what he was working on.
"None of your business just yet." Daisuke answered cheerfully I yawned again and rubbed my eyes in an effort to wake myself up more.
"What do you mean its none of my business yet?"
"Exactly that. It doesn't concern you just yet."
"Fine." I was still too sleepy to be playing silly games. I sat up yawning some more before locating the clock it still felt early.
"Its only just gone 7:00 your not usually up before 9."
"Yeah well I guess I had a flash of inspiration and it couldn't wait."
"You draw much?"
"A little bit."
"So...what are you drawing?"
"I told you it's none of your business just yet."
I sighed and leant back against the pillow. It seemed that I was going to have to be patient until Daisuke was finished. A sudden soft scratching noise at the door told me that Nelson wanted in. Nelson had almost doubled his size over the six months that Danny had had him for he had gotten more playful too. Nelson had grown quite attached to Daisuke and me and was always trying to sneak into out room, which we wouldn't have minded except Nelson had a nasty habit of chewing off our shoelaces. I got up to let him in waiting first until Daisuke had shoved anything chewable out of sight then I opened the door. A mini white blur came streaking in and leapt up onto my bed purring madly I sat down and pulled Nelson onto my lap.
"Dannies probably looking for him right now." Daisuke said and on cue Danny came rushing in breathing a sigh of relief when he saw Nelson was safe.
"Oh good for a minute I thought Randy had gotten a hold of him."
Danny still hadn't forgotten about Randy's little warning about keeping an eye on Nelson some time ago but so far nothing had happened and I was beginning to dismiss the warning as just an idle threat though Daisuke still remained unconvinced.
"Hey Daisuke what are you drawing?"
"Don't bother asking him he wont tell you."
"Oh ok I'm going to go down to the dinning room the get something for me and Nelson to eat any of you want to come?"
"Sure." I handed Nelson to Danny then got up brushing cat hair off of my boxers I pulled on some clean jeans and a t-shirt then turned to Daisuke.
"Are you coming?"
"Nah I want to finish this first."
I followed Danny out into the corridor and we made out way to the dining room. It must be pretty important if Daisuke was going to skip breakfast just to finish it.
As it turned out Daisuke didn't come out of our room all day so after my enlightening session with Sonya, later in the evening, I smuggled some food out of the dining room and brought it back with me.
"Gotcha something to eat since you insist on being anti social today." I said as I threw the little wrapped up package to him. Daisuke caught it and gave me one of his dazzling smiles that made me want to melt.
"Thanks."
"Oh and Mrs Katsunuma wanted me to give you these." I handed over the little plastic cup that contained our daily medications in them. Daisuke looked less than thrilled with these but took them anyway swallowing them in one go.
I flopped down on his bed and watched him eat and draw it seemed that I had been watching him a lot lately.
"There I've finished." Daisuke threw the coloured pencil he had been using aside looking pleased with himself.
"Good...so now can that be my business?" I asked tapping the top of the sketchbook with my finger.
"Well I guess so...but it isn't very good so don't laugh at it all right." Daisuke surrendered the sketchbook over to me with a slightly nervous look biting his lower lip awaiting my reaction. To be honest it was the most amazing thing I had ever seen. It was a very detailed beautiful drawing of Pegasusmon in mid flight. Coloured in wonderfully it almost looked like a photo.
"I hope it's not too bad I was working purely on memory."
"Are you kidding its great!"
"Really?"
"Definentaly can I keep it?"
Daisuke blushed.
"Well I sorta drew it for you."
"You spent all day working on this for me?" Now I was blushing.
"Yeah well like I said I had a flash of inspiration don't feel special or anything."
I felt special anyway. He spent all day even going without eating to get this finished just for me.
"Thanks." I whispered I didn't know what else to say.
"Yeah well your welcome." Daisuke didn't look like he knew what to say either. There was a moment of awkwardness and then I did something I never thought I would do in a million years. I leant forward and kissed him. It was nothing special didn't even last a minute but I'm pretty sure it shocked the hell out of Daisuke it shocked the hell out of me too and as soon as I was fully aware of what I was doing I leapt away from him. Daisuke just stared at me eyes wide, mouth slightly open.
*Shit oh fuck why did I do that? Why, why, why! *
*What's the big deal? You've been thinking about doing that for months now. *
*Thinking about it is a big difference to actually doing it! *
*I thought it was kinda romantic, spontaneous kiss to show your gratitude, just like in the movies. *
This was nothing like the movies though. In movies the first kiss was always a romantic gesture here it was clumsy and awkward and I don't think the characters in the movies have to worry about getting the shit beat out of them afterwards which is what I was waiting for to happen now. Daisuke though hadn't moved and the silence was beginning the get on my nerves.
*Well say something then! *
"Look Daisuke...I'm really sorry about that...I...well I got carried away...I didn't mean anything by it...it just happened I'm so sorry."
I was babbling in an effort to avoid being hit I was sure I had ruined the friendship that we had built up over the time I had been here.
*That's it its over, His going to hate me, I-*
"I should draw you things more often."
*I was not expecting that. *
"Excuse me?" I spluttered out. Daisuke had come out of his shock now and didn't look mad at all on the contrary he looked pretty amused.
"I said" Daisuke shifted closer "that I should draw you things more often."
Now this was completely unexpected it was better than being hit but I was confused. If the kiss didn't gross him out then it meant one of two things: Daisuke was really open minded and was being really good natured about it all or Daisuke was...but he couldn't be.
"Are you?" That was all I needed to say Daisuke smiled at me in a rather sexy way.
"Let's just say I'm no stranger to both worlds." He shifted even closer practically purring.
"So what about you Takeru gay? bisexual? Or is kissing people your way of showing gratitude?"
"Well I thought I was straight but I'm not sure anymore."
"You could be bisexual...I think it would be best if we found out for sure don't you?" This time Daisuke leant forward and kissed me taking my breath away. I had always thought kissing Hikari was quite satisfying but Hikari had nothing on Daisuke. I could have stayed like this forever but all too soon we had to break away for air.
"Wow." I breathed out gasping for air. Daisuke leant back grinning.
"Why have I been wasting my time with Hikari?"
"Don't spoil the mood with talks of her please we have other much better things to be doing..." Daisuke trailed off suggestively.
"Mmmmmm like what?" I asked playfully crawling up to Daisuke and settling myself in his lap.
"Shut up and I'll show you." Murmured Daisuke beginning to nibble gently on my neck...
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Some time later I lay in Daisuke's arms dozing contently while Daisuke played with my hair.
"Well I think we found out what you are." Daisuke said laughing gently. I smiled this felt right to me it never felt this good with Hikari.
"Are we in love now?" I asked quietly having never really been in love before I wasn't sure what it felt like to be in love.
"I don't think so I don't believe people can fall in love that quickly."
"So where does that leave us then?"
"Friends just a lot closer than before."
" A lot closer." I said feeling pretty happy with the answer Daisuke had given me.
"Hey Takeru hate to bring it up but I really want to know...why did you try to kill yourself?"
I immediately tensed up. I was hoping that Daisuke wasn't going to bring that up again...but he did tell me why he was sent here and I felt I could trust him.
"You don't have to tell me if you really don't want to."
"No I'll tell you. I cant really give much of a story and it will probably sound like a really stupid reason to try and kill yourself but I did it because I was...well I guess I was angry."
"Angry? Why were you angry?"
" I was angry because no one would ever listen to me. You remember back when we were still active Digidestined? Well I always seemed to be the one everyone talked to about their problems and I would always listen, giving advice when asked for it, but when I ever had a problem no one wanted to hear it. I could just never find someone to listen to me it got so confusing and frustrating it was as if they didn't think I had any problems that I was always a happy little ray of sunshine who just floated through life. It just got worse over the years and when Yamato had his little breakdown any attention I had from other people disappeared. I started to spend more time alone and still no one cared so one day when I was alone in the apartment, and I don't know why I did it, but I went into the bathroom and pulled out the bottle of sleeping pills that mum sometimes uses and I swallowed them all. I realised what a stupid thing it was to do after I had took them but I passed out before I could do anything I was just lucky that mum decided to come home early that day."
"So you did it to get attention?"
" I don't know maybe."
Daisuke shifted slightly drawing me closer and wrapping his arms more tightly around me. I sighed it had felt good to finally get that off of my chest it felt even better that someone was willing to listen to me other than some know-it-all psychiatrist.
"Hey Takeru have you told Sonya any of this?"
"No why?"
"I think you should."
I sat up staring at Daisuke feeling confused.
"Why should I tell Sonya?"
"So she can help you get outta here."
"You want me to leave?" I asked anger sparking inside me I just spilled my heart out to him and now he wants me to leave?
"No I don't want you to leave but I don't want you to stay either. You seem to forget where we are Takeru. This is an institution for really fucked up people but your not. You don't really need to be here."
I had never seen him look so serious before I could see the point he was trying to make but I had no desire to leave him.
"I don't want to leave you."
"That's not a good enough reason to stay here. I don't want you to stay here as long as I have just cause you don't want to leave me." Daisuke gently grabbed my arms forcing me to look at him. He had an almost pleading look.
"You need to leave here and go back to your friends if you stay you'll just fuck up the rest of your life."
"They're not my friends!" I burst out angrily "They didn't care about me."
"They do they just didn't realise how badly you wanted help. You were the most liked out of the digidestined I know because I could see it in the way they looked at you. Why else would everyone come to you when they wanted to talk? Because they admire and trust you that's why."
I had never really looked at it that way before could there be truth in what Daisuke was saying?
"Talk to Sonya please the sooner you talk to her, and I really mean talk to her don't just argue with her, the sooner you can get on with your life don't drop anchor here."
"But I'll have to leave you cant I stay here till you get out?"
"No." Daisuke said firmly "That's not how it works don't hang around waiting for me you need to worry about yourself. Now please promise me that you'll try to get out of here Takeru promise me."
I looked at Daisuke he looked like he was going to start crying he was so desperate for me to promise him. I suddenly felt like crying myself and I felt a lone tear make its way down my cheek. How could he want me to leave him? I wouldn't want him to leave me...but what he said made me see that I did need to make an effort to recovering and anyway I couldn't say no to him even though I wanted to.
"I promise I'll talk to Sonya."
"Good" Daisuke reached out and drew me closer gently kissing me.
"Now It's pretty late we should get some sleep."
"You're kicking me out of your bed already?"
"Hey no one said anything about you leaving my bed."
I giggled like a silly schoolgirl at this lying down getting comfortable and returning the kisses enthusiastically. I promised I would talk to Sonya and I would but that didn't mean that I couldn't enjoy the time I had left with Daisuke.
"Hey Daisuke?" I mumble between kisses.
"What?"
"Thanks for listening to me."
"You're welcome."
