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Rating: PG

Summery: Deb writes in her Diary about her first day back at the ER as an attending. Spoilers for Season 8.

Dear Diary,

I didn't think I would be able to get my job back. I quit because Dr. Weaver wanted to save herself from losing a job, but allowed me to lose mine. Well I did find a good lawyer and he talked to Romano who then told Kerry that she better give me a attending job or else there would be worst problems to come such as her missing pager. Well that is enough about why I came back, the reason I'm writing tonight is because what happen on my first day back.

I had walked in to the ER to start my day at 7:00am but I wasn't working until 8:00am, I basically wanted to see everyone again. I saw Mark and he welcome me back then said he was going to be away for a while, I later found out that he was having family problems. As I walked into the lounge I saw Carter talking to Susan. He saw me and gave me a hug and then told me he was happy to see me back but sad that I was attending. I couldn't help but notice the way Susan was looking at Carter when he gave me the hug. I said hello to Susan and asked her how she liked being back. She said it has gotten much better. That's when I saw Carter smile. They then said they needed to get to work, so I told them bye but I was still wondering what waa going on between them. I thought maybe they were dating but then I told myself that was a lie, because when I left Carter wanted to be with Abby. Randi who came into the lounge to get some coffee interrupted my thoughts. I asked her what gossip I had miss while I was gone. It was then I found my instinct to be correct. Carter and Susan were dating and have been since Christmas. I asked her why they were dating and she laughed and said that's what everyone else wants to know. She then left the lounge. As the day past I saw more of Carter and Susan together. The staff keeps talking about how weird it is to see them dating.

Well I finally mange to get a break during the day and I found Carter in the lounge resting. I told him he looked tired, and he said yes, since his parents were getting a divorce he hadn't had much sleep because he was trying to be a peacemaker. I asked him how he likes dating Susan, I saw a smile cross his face and he told me that he had never been more. He told me that with Dr. Benton leaving, Sobriki return and the thing with his parents that Susan was the only good thing going on his life. I told him I was happy for him and I was since it was nice to see Carter happy. Well the rest of the day went without any nightmares. I found new things out about the people I work with. I guess you can say that many things have happen since I've been gone, but now I'm back and I hope to stay on task with everything going on in the ER. Well that is what has happen at first day back diary, I'm sure I'll have more to write tomorrow, but right now I need sleep. Goodnight.

Deb