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This whole chapter is Usagi talking but the stared, shorter and italicized paragraphs are Mamoru's thoughts and actions towards what Usagi is saying.
Usagi's story
Noticing the smile she blushed as she began to talk "I'm sure in one way or another Minako mentioned my past. My childhood was different and not very loving. My dad was strict, uncaring, unloving and sometimes abusive. Ever since I could remember he was so controlling of me. He wouldn't let me out of the house until I started school. And even then that was the only time. I couldn't make friends because what my father used to always tell me. He used to always say "Usagi you're a sweet girl, but guys don't like the sweet ones, they like the pretty ones. You just aren't that kind of girl. You'd be better to not get your hopes up for a guy who's just using for money, pity or just a joke. And the girls will pretend they like you but there just shallow people to make themselves feel better."
* ' How could anyone use this beautiful girl and insult her.'
Mamoru questioned in his mind. It wasn't often but the few times I raised my voice, or my opinion I was met with a slap in the face. Maybe that's why Tai didn't seem to faze me. It didn't seem wrong to me. Neither did his comments on my stupidity, ugliness, klutziness, and the number of other things that he said to me. "Even when he called me nothing but a worthless tease." "Just because I didn't want to kiss him" she sobbed. His eyes widened. As tears started welling in her eyes. I don't have the ability to love, at least not right now. But all I want is to be loved.
My mother knew all that was happening what my dad would say to me, what he'd do to me, how he trapped me in this house. But she loved him so much she just looked the other way. But then over a year ago my dad divorced my mom. Since she didn't treat me badly when I was growing up she didn't know what to do with me. So she ignored me, and everything that happened to me, so she wouldn't heave to deal with her feelings by looking at me. She knew how Tai treated me and saw her father in his actions. So she didn't say anything I don't know if I would have listened anyway. It seemed natural in a sickening way.
*"It isn't natural" he mumbled to himself.
She paused and looked at him quizzically before continuing. "I don't know how I should act around people that I want to know and become friends with. So I get defensive getting into arguments with everyone. Or I just shut everyone out not talking to anyone. ''Some people call me mute, freak, silence.'' But I ignore what they say making them make fun of me even more. But then I met Minako at first I shut her out and argued with her all the time. But one day she came up to me and reached her hand out to me, and said " Why do you always fight with me? I want to call a truce, I'd be a good friend if you'd give me a chance to be." I was shocked and uneasy but I shook her hand." I was happy, but I felt uncomfortable around her she's so beautiful, smart, graceful and everyone likes her. But she was and to this day is my only friend.
One day I was walking and I saw this guy standing outside of the arcade, and I thought he was cute. I had seen him before and finally decided to talk to him but when I tried to walk up to I him I got nervous and tripped falling on him. "He said smooth move Odango atama." All though I felt uncomfortable I also felt happy. I know it sounds stupid.
*Mamoru's mind drifted to the day he met Usagi 'she tripped on him. It was then the first moment they met that he felt a connection to the young girl. But sorrowfully I never mentioned it to the young girl.' He was brought back by who she was speaking about now.
Then I met Tai and I wasn't alone. I had my best friend and a guy that liked me and cared about me. I really did care about him in the beginning I wasn't lying when I said that. He was my first boyfriend, the only guy who seemed to care about me. But after a while my feelings faded, and I was with him for the sake of having someone to be with. That was probably the second weakest thing I've ever done.
*'I wish she'd understand that she's not weak. She's one of the strongest girls I know. She beautiful, sweet, kind caring, and his drifted with the thought that she might possible like him in return' His eyes returned to her and listening intently to every word she spoke.
I want to tell you something I've never told anyone. Ever since I was young I felt that somewhere in the world there was a prince that belonged to me, and could love me and save me from myself and my troubles. And every now and then I get a feeling like he's right in front of me I just cant' see him. I knew my prince wasn't TAI!
*'Mamoru's heart fell as he heard this. But for some reason a vision of his princess popped in his head and slowly disappeared.' 'He wondered if maybe Tai pushed her and scratched her up? His eyes shot fire as the thought lingered in his mind.
Usagi continued "I'm sorry Mamoru." "I know I'm angering you, I'm sorry that..." She interrupted herself "No, Tai didn't push me I really fell while I was torpedoing to school. But I saw him while I was getting up he came over to me and helped me up then hugged me. But he was starring intently behind me then squeezed me really hard, pushed me away then walked away. Then you caught me. You keep helping me. I know how you feel towards me but you keep helping me. And I've never thanked you. I don't understand why you keep helping a weak little girl like me that you hate?
*'If you knew how I feel towards you Usa-ko you know I would do anything for you. I care about you more than life it's self.' He released a gentle sigh.' " I could never hate you," he said under his breath.
"I'm sorry you're probably asking yourself why I'm just admitting all this to you." "Ilikeyou.'' She blurted fast and barely coherent. I know you could never like me the way I like you. But I wanted to be honest with you. Let you know why I am the way I am, and act the way I do. I have more emotional and physical scars than most people my age do. And someday I'll trust and I will find my prince. Reflecting on all that she has told Mamoru she breaks down and cries. She feels her wall is breaking and is starting to feel emotions, the hurt from Tai, the confusion of Mamoru. And she finally felt the effects of Tai's violent actions. And with all that pain rushing to her she moaned in pain. Mamoru quietly asked if she was ok. She looked up her tear stained face frowned as she gasped out "No" and continued to cry. May I ask what's wrong? I'm finally feeling the pain of what Tai's done to me "I hurt so much!" She stood up shakily and took off her robe. Mamoru looked very shocked by what she was doing. She lifted her tank to below her chest and pulled up in the back. Mamoru was perplexed by what she was doing. She stood there her small arms holing her shirt and tears in her eyes. When Mamoru noticed that her skin was weird at first he wasn't sure what it was but then his eyes widened in shock as he realized her skin was severely bruised. Her upper arm, and shoulders thighs and stomach were a dark green purple. She now took off the bandages to show bruising and little crescent marks.
*Mamoru's heart was breaking at the sight his Usa-ko was in. She collapsed on the ground, and her tears slowly subsided. Mamoru got off the couch and walked towards Usa-ko with intentions of comforting her, when a commanding hand came up and stopped him short.
"No, Think about all I've told you, and what you've seen. Then decide if I'm it. For you to know a screwed up girl like my self."
*After a moment Mamoru whispered "I already know."
She hesitantly cried, "Just leave." Mamoru being heartbroken and solon left her house and shut the door tightly behind him.
Let me now what you thought of this chapter should I change, lose it or is it good. Is there anything I can do to make it or my story as a whole better.
Let me know I'm out.
This whole chapter is Usagi talking but the stared, shorter and italicized paragraphs are Mamoru's thoughts and actions towards what Usagi is saying.
Usagi's story
Noticing the smile she blushed as she began to talk "I'm sure in one way or another Minako mentioned my past. My childhood was different and not very loving. My dad was strict, uncaring, unloving and sometimes abusive. Ever since I could remember he was so controlling of me. He wouldn't let me out of the house until I started school. And even then that was the only time. I couldn't make friends because what my father used to always tell me. He used to always say "Usagi you're a sweet girl, but guys don't like the sweet ones, they like the pretty ones. You just aren't that kind of girl. You'd be better to not get your hopes up for a guy who's just using for money, pity or just a joke. And the girls will pretend they like you but there just shallow people to make themselves feel better."
* ' How could anyone use this beautiful girl and insult her.'
Mamoru questioned in his mind. It wasn't often but the few times I raised my voice, or my opinion I was met with a slap in the face. Maybe that's why Tai didn't seem to faze me. It didn't seem wrong to me. Neither did his comments on my stupidity, ugliness, klutziness, and the number of other things that he said to me. "Even when he called me nothing but a worthless tease." "Just because I didn't want to kiss him" she sobbed. His eyes widened. As tears started welling in her eyes. I don't have the ability to love, at least not right now. But all I want is to be loved.
My mother knew all that was happening what my dad would say to me, what he'd do to me, how he trapped me in this house. But she loved him so much she just looked the other way. But then over a year ago my dad divorced my mom. Since she didn't treat me badly when I was growing up she didn't know what to do with me. So she ignored me, and everything that happened to me, so she wouldn't heave to deal with her feelings by looking at me. She knew how Tai treated me and saw her father in his actions. So she didn't say anything I don't know if I would have listened anyway. It seemed natural in a sickening way.
*"It isn't natural" he mumbled to himself.
She paused and looked at him quizzically before continuing. "I don't know how I should act around people that I want to know and become friends with. So I get defensive getting into arguments with everyone. Or I just shut everyone out not talking to anyone. ''Some people call me mute, freak, silence.'' But I ignore what they say making them make fun of me even more. But then I met Minako at first I shut her out and argued with her all the time. But one day she came up to me and reached her hand out to me, and said " Why do you always fight with me? I want to call a truce, I'd be a good friend if you'd give me a chance to be." I was shocked and uneasy but I shook her hand." I was happy, but I felt uncomfortable around her she's so beautiful, smart, graceful and everyone likes her. But she was and to this day is my only friend.
One day I was walking and I saw this guy standing outside of the arcade, and I thought he was cute. I had seen him before and finally decided to talk to him but when I tried to walk up to I him I got nervous and tripped falling on him. "He said smooth move Odango atama." All though I felt uncomfortable I also felt happy. I know it sounds stupid.
*Mamoru's mind drifted to the day he met Usagi 'she tripped on him. It was then the first moment they met that he felt a connection to the young girl. But sorrowfully I never mentioned it to the young girl.' He was brought back by who she was speaking about now.
Then I met Tai and I wasn't alone. I had my best friend and a guy that liked me and cared about me. I really did care about him in the beginning I wasn't lying when I said that. He was my first boyfriend, the only guy who seemed to care about me. But after a while my feelings faded, and I was with him for the sake of having someone to be with. That was probably the second weakest thing I've ever done.
*'I wish she'd understand that she's not weak. She's one of the strongest girls I know. She beautiful, sweet, kind caring, and his drifted with the thought that she might possible like him in return' His eyes returned to her and listening intently to every word she spoke.
I want to tell you something I've never told anyone. Ever since I was young I felt that somewhere in the world there was a prince that belonged to me, and could love me and save me from myself and my troubles. And every now and then I get a feeling like he's right in front of me I just cant' see him. I knew my prince wasn't TAI!
*'Mamoru's heart fell as he heard this. But for some reason a vision of his princess popped in his head and slowly disappeared.' 'He wondered if maybe Tai pushed her and scratched her up? His eyes shot fire as the thought lingered in his mind.
Usagi continued "I'm sorry Mamoru." "I know I'm angering you, I'm sorry that..." She interrupted herself "No, Tai didn't push me I really fell while I was torpedoing to school. But I saw him while I was getting up he came over to me and helped me up then hugged me. But he was starring intently behind me then squeezed me really hard, pushed me away then walked away. Then you caught me. You keep helping me. I know how you feel towards me but you keep helping me. And I've never thanked you. I don't understand why you keep helping a weak little girl like me that you hate?
*'If you knew how I feel towards you Usa-ko you know I would do anything for you. I care about you more than life it's self.' He released a gentle sigh.' " I could never hate you," he said under his breath.
"I'm sorry you're probably asking yourself why I'm just admitting all this to you." "Ilikeyou.'' She blurted fast and barely coherent. I know you could never like me the way I like you. But I wanted to be honest with you. Let you know why I am the way I am, and act the way I do. I have more emotional and physical scars than most people my age do. And someday I'll trust and I will find my prince. Reflecting on all that she has told Mamoru she breaks down and cries. She feels her wall is breaking and is starting to feel emotions, the hurt from Tai, the confusion of Mamoru. And she finally felt the effects of Tai's violent actions. And with all that pain rushing to her she moaned in pain. Mamoru quietly asked if she was ok. She looked up her tear stained face frowned as she gasped out "No" and continued to cry. May I ask what's wrong? I'm finally feeling the pain of what Tai's done to me "I hurt so much!" She stood up shakily and took off her robe. Mamoru looked very shocked by what she was doing. She lifted her tank to below her chest and pulled up in the back. Mamoru was perplexed by what she was doing. She stood there her small arms holing her shirt and tears in her eyes. When Mamoru noticed that her skin was weird at first he wasn't sure what it was but then his eyes widened in shock as he realized her skin was severely bruised. Her upper arm, and shoulders thighs and stomach were a dark green purple. She now took off the bandages to show bruising and little crescent marks.
*Mamoru's heart was breaking at the sight his Usa-ko was in. She collapsed on the ground, and her tears slowly subsided. Mamoru got off the couch and walked towards Usa-ko with intentions of comforting her, when a commanding hand came up and stopped him short.
"No, Think about all I've told you, and what you've seen. Then decide if I'm it. For you to know a screwed up girl like my self."
*After a moment Mamoru whispered "I already know."
She hesitantly cried, "Just leave." Mamoru being heartbroken and solon left her house and shut the door tightly behind him.
Let me now what you thought of this chapter should I change, lose it or is it good. Is there anything I can do to make it or my story as a whole better.
Let me know I'm out.
