I don't own sailor moon or any other characters from this show or others. Standard disclaimers.
This chapter is mostly Mamoru but I indicate others actions and words by a star and name in parenthesis.


Admitting to a feeling, Mamoru's in love..
Mamoru had gotten to the of Usa's drive way when he saw a shadow around the corner he thought maybe it was Tai coming back to try to hurt Usa again. He crept around the corner and was startled when Motoki jumped out at him.

*(Motoki)"What are you doing here, I thought you had to work?" Mamoru gasped. Motoki blushed lightly "ya I had to but I worried about Usa, I couldn't leave knowing what she had just been through. How is she?"

"You have no idea, but she's pretty good. We talked and she wanted to be alone." " How long did they go out?" Mamoru asked concerned.

*(Motoki)"A few months" Motoki simply said.

Mamoru gasped, "and she looks like that." Quickly he blurted "Sorry Motoki I have to leave" Don't tell Minako about any of this but please get her to get Usa to the party. PLEASE!! Mamoru was already off and running before Motoki could to object, or say anything.

He ran to the park. Whenever he was stressed or upset he'd come here and sit in his little private nook. It had comeliness to it. The view of the water was breathtaking. And the beautiful roses that grew from these bushes, were the most elegant he's seen. He's visited this place a lot since he met Usa. She was a beautiful, intelligent, charming, loving, funny, sweet 17 year old girl, with the most intense blue eyes and golden blonde hair. 'But how could she like me, I'm older than she is by 3 years, taller than she is, as insecure and fragile as she is.' He thought to himself. "Oh Mamo what have you gotten yourself into?" He asked himself out loud. "How can you fall for her, especially now that you are fully aware of all that she's been through." "He felt he had to somehow tell Usagi how he feels for her. How he's always felt for her."

After deciding what he was going to do he went back to his medium sized, and very clean apartment. He walked over and grabbed a piece of stationary off of his desk. And began just letting his heart take over. After a solid hour of writing he was finally done, and he reread what he wrote.

" Dear Usagi,
You're not weak. You're one of the strongest girls I've ever met. You're so beautiful inside and out. You're intelligent, funny, and sweet, one of the most caring and considerate people I've ever met. I remember the first day we met. It was definitely the most interesting way I've ever met a girl.
From that first day forth I've felt a strange connection to you. And I could at times sense what you were feeling. I know it might be presumptuous of me but I think on some level that you sense me as well. Just a feeling I have. I care about you strongly Usa-ko. And your past isn't going to scare me away from you. In fact it makes me want to protect you even more. I would never willingly hurt you. You mean everything to me. I'd be willing to say you probably know whom this is from.
If anything I feel I'm not worthy of you and I'm hoping someday you could find a place for me in your heart. You told me things about you, you've never told anyone. And I will never betray your trust.
I want to tell you something. When I was really young about six or seven my parents and I were in a terrible car accident. Both of my parents died. And I had amnesia and remembered nothing from my childhood. I've been a loner my whole life. I only have Motoki and I'm not all that close with him. This is something I've never told anyone, not even Motoki.
I want you tell me what you think about everything that I've told you. Whether you're confused, angry with me or whatever else you might feel. I'm going to the party tonight. I'm going to give you you're space but if you'd like to talk to me about anything I'll be there to hear you. I hope you'll take me up on that.
Bye~my Hoshi Usa.


Mamoru was pleased with what he wrote. He felt that he had at least to best abilities expressed what he felt for Usagi. He folded the note placing it in a small light pink envelope, and wrote ~Usa on the front. He picked up a little before leaving the apartment. He grabbed the note for Usa and walked out the door locking it behind him. And with that he was on his way. He walked a couple blocks away where there was nice little flower shop. He casually walked in and asked the florist "how much It would be to buy 28 red roses?"

*(Florist) "A dozen red roses will cost 20 dollars an additional dozen will cost 15 dollars. And an individual rose would cost 5 dollars per rose."

With out hesitation Mamoru said I'll take 28 red roses."

*(Florist)"Are you sure?"

"Hai"

*(Florist)"Ok that will be 55 dollars."

"Here you go" Mamoru said as he gave the man 60 dollars. "Keep the 10 dollars" He said cheerfully. And with his flowers in hand and his note gently placed in his pocket, he sat down on a near by bench and removed the light pink envelope from his pocket and wrote on the back ~ A rose for every month I've known you since we've met. I hope you like these roses I chose them for you. ~

He thought about what he was doing and blushed. He realized he really loved Usagi. And he was about to tell her. With a confident sigh he got off the bench and headed towards Usa's house. He got to the end of her driveway. He didn't notice a car in the driveway, which meant her mom, wasn't home yet. He walked up to the door and set the roses gently on the floor of the little farmer's porch and carefully placed the note beside them.

After sensing Usagi's presence he ran out of the porch to the bushes at the end of the driveway he watched her as she carefully looked at the door, he watched her bend down and inspect the roses before she carefully picked them up and smelled them. As she was about to leave she noticed a light pink envelope on the floor. She fumbled with the flowers but managed to pick up the envelope without disturbing a single petal. She then returned inside and was out of sight.

Mamoru took this as his cue to head back to his apartment. He returned to his apartment once he did he just collapsed on his couch and napped for a few hours. But during Mamoru's nap he had a vaguely familiar dream.

It was dark but he could see the outline of a girl. She was shorter than him and, had long hair. He could see something sparkling. But he couldn't tell what it was. It was dark but he knew they were both running towards each other. He could sense her coming towards him. As they came close, she ran into his arm and he just held her in his arms. Feeling there was no one else that mattered but them. He still couldn't see her face. But as he asked her who she was she whispered "You'll know soon enough. You saved me when I was about to give up, you were always there never giving up on me. You may not know it yet but I love you very much and soon we'll be together outside of our dreams." She gave me a rose as she faded away.