Rocky Start
Have you ever tried to stop a bad habit? If you have it's really hard to do. However, this little story is about me, Lyndsey, trying to stop a bad habit that could effect my life forever...
I started hurting myself in about fourth grade. I did not know if it was bad or not. Nevertheless, I was still very scared what would happen if I did something, I would regret. I mean all I was doing to hurt myself was throwing myself against the walls, falling down the stairs and many other harmful things to my body. I never did understand why God didn't help me stop; it's like he let me do this to myself. But, I am so glad that I told my friend, Marie. She helped me with everything; she was like my big sister. Marie got me help the next day at school. At first, I wasn't comfortable with it, but later I began to realize that she did the right thing. If Marie wouldn't have told the counselor, I would still be doing something I know I should not do. But thanks to my friend, I am getting the help I need. I am getting better at talking to people again.
This incident really did change my life. What I thought about this was "what would happen if I didn't tell anyone? What would become of me?" Hurting myself soon became a really big habit, I did this every day when no one was home. So every day I kept doing the exact thing repeatedly.
My friends really motivated me to stop, they knew if I didn't I wouldn't be around much longer. Marie always said "Lynds, you got to stop. You don't know what could happen next. I mean you could be in your room with a knife in your hand. But promise me you will try to stop or at least cutback. Or else I will kick your butt." In addition, I would like to thank Mischa, Rocky, Rebecca and Christin for just being by me side, and just letting me talk about how I felt about this.
I still have mixed feelings about what I did, and why it actually started. I really don't remember when it started or why. But that's one thing I want to find out. If I didn't have as good friends as I do know, I don't know what I would do.
I would like to thank Marie again; she has been everything to me. She is always asking, "are you doing better?" I am still having a hard time, I really think recovering from this incident will be hard. But God has given me the courage to succeed, and thats what I'm going to do.
Have you ever tried to stop a bad habit? If you have it's really hard to do. However, this little story is about me, Lyndsey, trying to stop a bad habit that could effect my life forever...
I started hurting myself in about fourth grade. I did not know if it was bad or not. Nevertheless, I was still very scared what would happen if I did something, I would regret. I mean all I was doing to hurt myself was throwing myself against the walls, falling down the stairs and many other harmful things to my body. I never did understand why God didn't help me stop; it's like he let me do this to myself. But, I am so glad that I told my friend, Marie. She helped me with everything; she was like my big sister. Marie got me help the next day at school. At first, I wasn't comfortable with it, but later I began to realize that she did the right thing. If Marie wouldn't have told the counselor, I would still be doing something I know I should not do. But thanks to my friend, I am getting the help I need. I am getting better at talking to people again.
This incident really did change my life. What I thought about this was "what would happen if I didn't tell anyone? What would become of me?" Hurting myself soon became a really big habit, I did this every day when no one was home. So every day I kept doing the exact thing repeatedly.
My friends really motivated me to stop, they knew if I didn't I wouldn't be around much longer. Marie always said "Lynds, you got to stop. You don't know what could happen next. I mean you could be in your room with a knife in your hand. But promise me you will try to stop or at least cutback. Or else I will kick your butt." In addition, I would like to thank Mischa, Rocky, Rebecca and Christin for just being by me side, and just letting me talk about how I felt about this.
I still have mixed feelings about what I did, and why it actually started. I really don't remember when it started or why. But that's one thing I want to find out. If I didn't have as good friends as I do know, I don't know what I would do.
I would like to thank Marie again; she has been everything to me. She is always asking, "are you doing better?" I am still having a hard time, I really think recovering from this incident will be hard. But God has given me the courage to succeed, and thats what I'm going to do.
