A/N: Wow! I'm so glad ya'll like it! LoL! *happy proud DDP like smile* Well, here is Ravens sap story. Please, feel bad for him... he needs all of our love! LOL! I still own no one. I'd like to own Raven to use for my own *personal* uses... but sadly, until then... Vince and his peeps own everyone. Thats all R&R and buy the new Creed album... Peace *hums My Sacrifice.... mostly just to piss Tracy off*


The story so far: Jeff and Matt had a fight. Jeff ends up in Ravens room (sorry no slash... in this story anyway *whistles*) and we are about to learn why Raven is *so* in love with our heroine, Molly Holly (well, she is in my mind!)




"For years, and I mean years, I'd follow her around. Not like a puppy dog or anything. I like to think that I quietly stalked her, and she never suspected a thing. First, Macho Man was the leader of a group she was in as eye candy. Nothing more, nothing less. They didn't let her true qualities show. But, Randy didn't even want me *looking* in her general direction. Word had gotten wind to her that Randy had beaten the living snot out of me for saying a causal 'hi' to her in the middle of a crowded hallway. She heard of it and came to see me. I remember like it was yesterday. She came in like a heavenly angel, dressed all in white and she knocked on my door. 'Come in' I said, thinking it was Sandman or Kidman or someone. She walked straight in. She wasn't a very shy person back then. I remember how I gazed at her beauty with such love, caring and a hint of desire in my eyes. She was mine instantly. After that, she would sneak out and come to my room night after night. We would do nothing but just talk for hours. A couple times she would even snuggle up in my arms. Yeah, it's a little weird to hear me talking so casually about snuggling. But that's all as far as we went for awhile. The first time I got enough guts to kiss her, we were both quiet for a long time. Digesting what had just happened. I loved it. I loved her kiss. I loved her. My mind was set, right there. She tasted like honey and sugar and all those good things. She, on the other hand, seemed generally freaked out and ran away and stopped talking to me completely. No more midnight Rendezvous . I was devastated. And then Randy found out. Boy did he get mad. Cuz you know how 'they' all talk about me now?" Jeff nodded.


"Well, the backstage politics were no different then in WCW. Savage more or less came in and threaten to kill me if I was even in the same room as her. I agreed quickly because my brain told me to do so, but my heart fought me. My brain and eyes knew she could never love me. But, my heart and mouth, the same mouth that had tasted her, knew better. I kept my distance. I never looked to long at her. Then I was 'upgraded' sent back to the WWF and soon so did she. I started thinking 'this is your chance! You can do it! Make it all better again!' but during those few times we talked, we said nothing about our past. Bob Holly and I go way back, so I thought I could and should have used that to my advantage. But I never did.


Then I met Tori. She and I were never in any sort of sexual relationship. I helped her, she helped me. She wanted to be the first Women's Hardcore Champion and I though she had the potential. Apparently there was some underlying tension between the two of them. Tori and my Mona. Tori would tell me 'oh it's nothing. Don't get so work up over nothing' and then she would turn around and start a fight with Mona. Which got me a little annoyed. Because not only would it get me involved with Mona again, but also I didn't want to see anyone of them hurt. I loved the both of them too much, because I knew that both women were extremely tough and probably wouldn't have stopped fighting until the other drew blood. And I didn't want to be the one with the blood stained hands, like I knew I would've.


Then Tori ended up hurting herself, and she took a chance on Tough Enough. I let her go, but once she left, I realized I missed her. This made me sink into a deeper depression then I'm normally in. Mona, though at this time re-christened Molly, had started talking to me again and she seemed generally concerned. This time I wasn't stupid and I did not rush anything. I waited very patiently for her to move the chess piece, so to speak. One normal, typical day, I was feeling extremely depressed and hated the world and wanted flowers to die because they were way too bright to continue on being. Ya know, a typical Friday. And we were the only ones in the hallway, sitting next to each other, basking in the nice silence. Then, she leaned over and kissed me. I swear to you Jeffie, nothing, and I mean NOTHING could have describe this kiss. Modern poets would stutter at the mere thought of it. She is like potato chips, once you have one....yum. She drew back and got all flushed and she seemed to look like she was going to run away. I was not going to let the opportunity get away from me twice in one lifetime.

I grabbed her arm and asked, "And where do you think your going? I let you run out of my life once and there is nothing short of hell opening its gates right below us, that will let me make the same mistake twice. I love you Mona. I really do."

She looked up at me with those big bright emerald eyes and said, "No you don't. You can't This is all wrong!! How can you love me this long? I....I...I've loved you too! I was so scared the first time I ran away from you. And when I turned around and saw you kneeled on the floor in near tears, I wanted to turn around and wipe them away and push back your hair and tell you it was all right. But I just couldn't do it. So I took the cowards way out and told Savage about you so I wouldn't have to deal with my emotions. And now that I've found you again. Now that you've come back into my life, part of me wants to run to Hardcore and Crash and tell them to make it all better, and the other part of me is yelling that I should stay with you again and see what will happen.' " Raven stops and Jeff looks at him expectedly.

'Well, what happens?' Jeff asks almost yelling, then he gets quieter as he realizes all the emotion that has been drained from Raven.

"It's getting late. If you want me to finish my story, you may not be so quick to jump out of bed in the morning." Raven said as he starts to yawn, even with his eyes watered.

"Yeah, well, that's a price I'm willing to take. That is if you're up to it."

"Well, you are the first person I've told my story to in awhile. Well, when I used to get pissed drunk, I think Rhyno heard it at least twice a night, but by that time he could also say it word for word with me. So that does not count." Jeff smiled and nodded.


"I got up to Molly not knowing which road to choose in life, correct? Correct. Well, at this time she was crying and I was almost crying. Cuz since I'm a guy and all... I don't cry... Well.... that much... Well... in front of the woman I love. That's more like it. I got down on my knees and said, "I love you. I have and always will. I've waited for you and now I'd like to know, in case I might do the wrong thing and chase you away again. Can I kiss you again?" She nodded and she looked so angelic with the tears flowing down her face like rain drops on a lonely old statue of the Virgin Mary standing in the middle of some forgotten Spanish village. We leaned in to kiss and guess who showed up. Spike Mother Fucking Dudley. I hated him in ECW and my hatred was defiantly growing worst at that particule moment. He rushed in and I will never forget this as long as the three of us will live. He rushed from were he was, a couple feet away, and went up to Molly and asked,

'What are you doing?' and he went on and on about what would you cousins think. What would the lockerroom think. Then he really got me pissed. Then he said, looking straight at me the entire time, "Why would you be hanging around this...this... loser? Don't you know how many peoples lives he's reeked havoc on? He's a freak. Plain and simple. He's someone that can hurt you. He's from the wrong side of, well, the train tracks. He's a nothing. He's scum. He will only bring you down. Come with me. I'll make it better." I had so many insults I could have thrown back at that little twerp. I could've kicked his ass. But, I didn't. I did nothing. I wanted to see what she would do. All this time as he was talking her head was sinking lower and lower. With every insult he threw my way she flinched. But, what did she do? What did she do? She stood up, still not looking me in the face and allowed herself to be lead away. She made her choice. Before she left though. Before she left with her hands in that miserable, no good, bad-mouthing, jerk... she looked back at me with so much hurt in her beautiful eyes, and she mouthed, "I love you." You know. I had been waiting so many years for her to say that back to me, and this is the way it had to be? I'd waited in the shadows, watching. And only coming out to tell her my feelings every 5 years or so... And this is the thanks I got? Well, you know how when Benoit had been in his crossface and I smiled before I tapped out. You know how I love pain? How I strive on it? How it keeps me going? Well, I let her go. I didn't stop her. I knew her true feelings. Ones she shared with me. And instead of making the pain lessen, I let it be. I let the pain grow into a festering black hole of disbare. I enjoy the pain. Not because she broke my heart again. I enjoy it because I know that deep down, that one day, she'll come back to me. All because she said those 3 simple words I had been waiting forever to hear, I....Love....You...."

He finished his story and told Jeff he was going to take a nice, long shower and then go to bed. Jeff said Goodnight, all the while the little hamster wheel working overtime in his head. . .