This one's a shocker, guys! Bits of unpleasant imagery so try not to think about it too much! Let me know what you all think, and a big round of applause to my reviewers! You're keeping me going guys!



Lily's confession



She came in and looked around, and when she saw me she ran straight for me and threw her arms around me, crying hysterically. I hugged her and told her it was OK; though I didn't know what was wrong. I finally calmed her down enough for her to be able to talk to me, and we went and sat down on the benches near the back of the Greenhouse.

"Ren, did you do the Buboetubers? We have to get them done by..."

"Lil, I've done them, and even if I hadn't, I don't think you would be crying over some undone Buboetubers. What's the matter? Has Severus upset you?"

She had managed to stop sobbing, but occasionally a silent tear fell down her face. I didn't know her to cry often, she was a tough girl. Suddenly, she burst into hysterics again and buried her head in her hands. I caught snippets of what she was trying to say through her violent sobs.

"Ren, I don't know what to do...I, I'm in big trouble and... its all too much!"

With that she slumped off the bench, and sat in the corner, hugging her lags up to her body and crying into her knees. I knelt beside her and put my arm around her shoulders.

"Lily, you have to tell me what's wrong, I can't help if you don't."

I caught an almost incoherent murmur from her that sounded like "No one can help me" but I wasn't really getting anywhere.

"Lily," I barked. I had to snap her out of this. "Listen to me. Tell me what's wrong or I'll go and get Severus." I felt awful for saying it, and I never ever would have unless I thought if I didn't do something drastic I would get no sense from her.

"No! No, please don't! I'll tell you!" Her head jerked up and she wiped her eyes on her sleeve. I fumbled around in my pockets and found a hankie, and passed it to her.

"Thanks. I...I don't really know how to tell you, its, well, a bit difficult."

"Lily, you are one of my best friends. You can tell me anything, you know that as well as I do."

"But...but this is different!"

"I don't care. You asked me to hurry up here and you've never looked so stressed in all your life. You want to tell me, and prolonging it will only make whatever it is harder. I'm prepared, Lil, you can tell me anything. Just blurt it out, and then it'll be over with."

I looked hopefully at her. I thought I was totally prepared for whatever she could possibly say, but as soon as she said it, you could have knocked me down with a feather.

She looked up, tears welling in her eyes. It was that horrible helpless puppy look, and it scared me white. Lily never looked helpless.

"I...I'm pregnant."