A/N: I think I now know how to make writing bold/italic, etc, but I am not
sure. Forgive me if it didn't work, I'll fix it as soon as I can. If it did
work, YAY!
For Lily and You
For the first time in my life, I felt resentment towards Dumbledore. I did not see the need to make this already abysmal situation worse by telling Edward and Severus I had lied about my parents to them. You may not think that it was such a huge thing, but during Vodlemort's rise to power, Count Bolovnik had famously declared that he and his family would take no stance in such a mortal argument, and he made enemies of more than a few people, on both sides. That was why it was dangerous for me to take such a well- known name in Britain, where many people thought that for their neutral state, the Bolovniks should be punished.
I told them, and they both just gaped at me in amazement. I fully expected a full onslaught from both of them when Dumbledore had left our presence, especially from Severus. This, however, was not to be.
Dumbledore did eventually leave, but asked them both not to jump to conclusions, and to remember that we had to keep our heads for Lily's sake.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?" Ed whispered harshly across the bed. "Didn't you think you could trust us?"
"No, I...I just couldn't. I promised my father before I left for Hogwarts that I would never tell anyone who I really was or my real name. Please, you have to understand, I had no choice!"
Severus just sat there, glaring at the walls. If they hadn't already been made of stone, a look like that would have turned them to it. This was perhaps worse than anything, him not being able to speak to me at all. We just sat by the bed in silence; a morbid tension filling the air. Finally, at gone midnight, Madam Pomfrey shooed us out. We all protested viciously, but she would not let us stay. Ed gave in long before Severus and I, and merely said he was going for a walk.
"Go help Filch if he runs into him." I muttered under my breath. Filch had been there quite a few years, but he was old, mean and vicious even then.
After almost twenty minutes of quarrelling in harsh whispers, Madam Pomfrey at last agreed to compromise.
"Fine! I swear that if this girl comes to in the night, I will send a house- elf up to tell you, Alright? Now get out! Go on!"
Feeling that this would be the absolute best we could do, we left. It seemed much, much colder out in the corridors now than it had ever been. Severus and I walked back to the common room the longest way we could, hoping desperately for a house-elf to come running up behind us. As we began to climb the last set of stairs, I could stand the silence no more.
"Well? Are you going to ignore me for the rest of the year, or what?"
I practically spat the words at him. I just wanted to diffuse all the tension and have done with the inevitable shouting match.
"No. I was actually thinking it would be a more permanent idea. I think it's for the best, don't you?" All at once I knew that the sorting hat had been 110% right in putting him in Slytherin. His words and expressions were pure venom.
"And what do you mean by that?"
"Who knows what other [i]lies[i/] you'd tell me! Or what truths you'd choose to "forget". The two biggest lies I have ever been told were exposed tonight, and you played a part in both."
"And I had no choice in both! You know that if I could have I would have told you."
"Would you?"
"YES!"
"You think of NO ONE but you. You just kept on lying for your own bloody self!"
"THATS RIGHT! I LIED ABOUT MY FAMILY TO STOP MYSELF AND ANYONE WHO WOULD HAVE CHOSEN TO STAND BY ME BEING LYNCHED! HOW [i]SELFISH[i/] OF ME!"
"THEN WHAT ABOUT THAT BABY?"
[b] "I DID THAT FOR LILY AND YOU!" [b/]
And with that, I ran on ahead, not wanting him to see me cry, knowing he had caused it. Once again, the cruelty of children is unparalleled.
For Lily and You
For the first time in my life, I felt resentment towards Dumbledore. I did not see the need to make this already abysmal situation worse by telling Edward and Severus I had lied about my parents to them. You may not think that it was such a huge thing, but during Vodlemort's rise to power, Count Bolovnik had famously declared that he and his family would take no stance in such a mortal argument, and he made enemies of more than a few people, on both sides. That was why it was dangerous for me to take such a well- known name in Britain, where many people thought that for their neutral state, the Bolovniks should be punished.
I told them, and they both just gaped at me in amazement. I fully expected a full onslaught from both of them when Dumbledore had left our presence, especially from Severus. This, however, was not to be.
Dumbledore did eventually leave, but asked them both not to jump to conclusions, and to remember that we had to keep our heads for Lily's sake.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?" Ed whispered harshly across the bed. "Didn't you think you could trust us?"
"No, I...I just couldn't. I promised my father before I left for Hogwarts that I would never tell anyone who I really was or my real name. Please, you have to understand, I had no choice!"
Severus just sat there, glaring at the walls. If they hadn't already been made of stone, a look like that would have turned them to it. This was perhaps worse than anything, him not being able to speak to me at all. We just sat by the bed in silence; a morbid tension filling the air. Finally, at gone midnight, Madam Pomfrey shooed us out. We all protested viciously, but she would not let us stay. Ed gave in long before Severus and I, and merely said he was going for a walk.
"Go help Filch if he runs into him." I muttered under my breath. Filch had been there quite a few years, but he was old, mean and vicious even then.
After almost twenty minutes of quarrelling in harsh whispers, Madam Pomfrey at last agreed to compromise.
"Fine! I swear that if this girl comes to in the night, I will send a house- elf up to tell you, Alright? Now get out! Go on!"
Feeling that this would be the absolute best we could do, we left. It seemed much, much colder out in the corridors now than it had ever been. Severus and I walked back to the common room the longest way we could, hoping desperately for a house-elf to come running up behind us. As we began to climb the last set of stairs, I could stand the silence no more.
"Well? Are you going to ignore me for the rest of the year, or what?"
I practically spat the words at him. I just wanted to diffuse all the tension and have done with the inevitable shouting match.
"No. I was actually thinking it would be a more permanent idea. I think it's for the best, don't you?" All at once I knew that the sorting hat had been 110% right in putting him in Slytherin. His words and expressions were pure venom.
"And what do you mean by that?"
"Who knows what other [i]lies[i/] you'd tell me! Or what truths you'd choose to "forget". The two biggest lies I have ever been told were exposed tonight, and you played a part in both."
"And I had no choice in both! You know that if I could have I would have told you."
"Would you?"
"YES!"
"You think of NO ONE but you. You just kept on lying for your own bloody self!"
"THATS RIGHT! I LIED ABOUT MY FAMILY TO STOP MYSELF AND ANYONE WHO WOULD HAVE CHOSEN TO STAND BY ME BEING LYNCHED! HOW [i]SELFISH[i/] OF ME!"
"THEN WHAT ABOUT THAT BABY?"
[b] "I DID THAT FOR LILY AND YOU!" [b/]
And with that, I ran on ahead, not wanting him to see me cry, knowing he had caused it. Once again, the cruelty of children is unparalleled.
