Chapter 5
"Good morning buddy boy!" duos voice awoke me from the nightmares, and I sat up in a cold sweat.
Duo hopped on the bed and lay down, "You don't look so well, have a bad night?" he asked but I ignored him and rolled over on my side away from him, "Heero's making breakfast today, sushi, yuck, personally I think I'd rather have fish cooked and how 'bout you?"
I shivered, "Duo go away," I said briefly and bent over the side of the bed to vomit.
"Woah, I'll go get you some medicine, I'd think you'd be used to being on the boat by now," he said leaving the room.
But I know that it wasn't just the ship, when I feel insecure this always happens, I often woke up in the mornings and ran to the toilet to relieve my stomach, it was the nightmares... how can somebody have a strong stomach after dreaming of such a horrible event? I hate it! I hate it more then anything, and I hated living and...
I began crying and fiddling with my fingers, I didn't know what to do, with my left arm in a cast and not sharp weapons in sight I didn't know how to release this pain, my heart felt like it was going to explode within me, the others... they may have finally earned my trust back but how could I earn my own, as Trowa said I needed to find myself, but where was I? I cried more and vomited again, if this was the only was to relieve the pain then so be it, I will throw up all my insides! I continued the convulsive motions until I noticed that the liquid coming up was no longer clear, it was a dark crimson red, and my stomach turned,.
"Am I really vomiting up my insides?" I thought, my eyes grew wide, and my stomach began to quake with yet another series of vomiting, I cried out and practically threw myself from my bed, what was happening? I ran out of the room covering my mouth as the blood seeped from the cracks between my fingers, why am I afraid? Isn't this what I wanted? Tears streamed and I grabbed on to the first person I came to, which was Heero, he lay down on a towel tanning him self in the sun.
He looked at me with his sun glasses on and then paused and lifted them up for a better view on things, "Quatre..." his expression turned into fear as he forced my hand from my mouth, I heaved and a stream of blood came from my mouth," Calm down now," he said in a panic.
Duo stumbled in on the situation Oh my God!" he screamed and rushed to my side.
I couldn't speak, my vision became blurred and I passed out immediately.
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"Do you think that we should take him to the hospital?" a voice echoed in my mind causing me to open my eyes and squint from a bright light shining in my face.
"He's waking up..."
"You sure this time, or do you think he'll pass out again?"
"No telling, I don't think he needs a doctor, it's stress, I know it, or at least I don't think he did anything to hurt himself."
"W-what if he dies, Heero?"
"Shut up Trowa, he's too strong to go so early."
"Well you know-"
"Duo, silence is golden!"
"Whatever, all that glitters isn't gold stupid..."
"I think I may take this time from caring just to ring your neck."
"Watch out Duo that sounds like a threat."
"Wow you both can gang up on me, that makes you pretty big doesn't it?"
"Hey I think you might be right... look..."
"He's staring up at us, he hasn't kept his eyes opened this long in a while. Quatre?"
I felt someone shake me softly, the voices were so distant I couldn't make them out, I saw no faces and I tried to squint to see, but all the energy I put into stuggling to hear and see drained me.
"No, he's passing out! Quatre stay up!"
I struggled to fight free from the tiredness I felt, but my eyes kept rolling back, I couldn't see, I wanted to see, "Help me..." I whispered with the last bit of my energy and passed out.
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"Here he comes again..."
"That's what you said the last fifty times Heero, you ass."
"You look at him then, I'm just trying to encourage myself, I know thatone of these times he'll stay up."
"I know but I think one week is so long..."
"Dammit, Maxwell, he's going back again!"
~*~
"Here-"
Heero, shut up! Tell us when he's all the way up."
"You're discouraging him!"
"Whatever! Quatre wake up! Heero is waiting here, he want's to see you and, and, and-"
"Make you his loftily wedded wife!"
"Ouch!"
"Shit, that was my nose!"
"Get out of here before I castrate you."
"Heero wants to see our balls Trowa!"
"I think I'll go hide now."
"I'll join you."
"Ha! You are the real homos!"
"WHAT!?!"
"Go on to your little hiding place together, I wont tell a soul-ow!!"
"I hate you Heero!"
I think Quatre's passing out again-"
"Noooooo..."
