That question is anoyying me... but... why? Why am I here? My feet seem to be detached from my brain as I walk towards the place I had told them to meet me.
Oh God what am I doing? I feel so helpless. What makes me think they can help me? They are powerless and completly ignorant of you...What could they possibly know? What? What does a human know? What do they have that I don't?
My outward appearance in no way displays my inward tormoil... but I have a feeling that my eye's are angry behind my dark shades. Three day's since my rage exploded, three day's of emptyness. It is more than I can bear... I was so close, I had the answer in my hand and it was stolen from me befor I ever had a chance to realize it.
My fists clench and my nails dig into my palms... but I am beyond outward pain... the hurt in loseing such a precious answer still looms like a open wound over my heart. Wait... what heart? I am confused... why am I confused? Humans have hearts... not I... not angel's....
I am gripped with fear and for a moment my steps falter... I do not want the curse of humanity... i want to remain detached to this sinfull evil world, ugly and cruel. No... No... it can't be true... I won't let it.... not human....... not really
Blood drips from my hand, the noise of it as it hit's the pavement is alarming. Why? I have bleed befor but... I glance to my hands, my stepps slowing. Blood, the elixer of life... I lick my finger hungerly, blood... the salty copper tast of it fills my mouth. I tack my finger back and stare at it in shock. What...?
I wipe my hands on my jeans and keep walking. Why is this happening? What is so urgent? Oh God Help me....I hate this place, it is making me question everything i once beleived... Oh God...
Blood runs to my finger tip's, slowley, the small smears on my black jeans barely noticable.
I hate this... I hate this... I hate those ever presistant demons that keep pushing me! Oh God! I would rather be caught in Limbo... anything to stop this fear of what I amy become... Oh God save me!
I glance up and I see them, the other's... Oh God...
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Heehee, ok I am doing this because... next chapter you learn who Angel boy is
