~Myself and I...~

I see... in the darkness a strangly familar face. His dark blue eye's sneere at me, disgusted by my very existance. I know thia man... this was me... staring back at me, standing before me, are bare chests heaving in time.

"I have fallen!" The angel shrieks, wings of white gold at his back. I dully note without a glance behind me wings of shadows.

"I have not!" I cry back.... have not what? fallen from What? Why? Oh God, my heart pounds painfully in my ears.

"How could I have let my self fall so far from his grace." He moves, so fast I can't see it... only feel the air rush past my face as he pulls his hand back, the slap hit hard. Pain shoots threw every nerve as I fall to the side. The taste of blood fills my mouth and my cheeke stings painfully. The angel too falls, as if hit by an invisible barrier.

I spit out the vile taste and I feel his sudden regret as my eye's burn into him. "The angel abandoned Me! I Have fallen because my salvation threw me in the gutter for my humanity. God has not abandoned me! I have abandoned me!" In my outrage I fling myself out him. my hands twisting around his neck. "Help me!" I scream, sight blurred by tears, cold fingers wrapped around my own neck. "COME BACK!"

Oh God! Wake me up from this night mare! Pleasee...GOD! The angel... shakes his head violently in denial. "I will NEVER go back!"