Hey, Raven's back!!!! Of course, w/ another chappy… well, enjoy~!
Her face immediately came into my mind. That same voice, oh god, I had missed her so much!
**flashback**
"Darling, get back over here!"
"Not until you catch me!!!" She giggled and ran around the tree. I caught her, and we both fell to the ground, laughing. Our sparkling eyes locked and we met for a brief panting kiss. She then lay beside me and I stroked her hair gently.
"Why can't yo-"
"- Hush…" She encircled her arms around my neck. Then she quickly let go, her eyes open with fear.
"I… I can't… I must go…"
"Wait!!" I tried to grab her hand, but I only caught air.
**end of flashback**
I turned around, my eyes moist.
"Sweetheart?"
"Yes honey." She cried. We both smothered each other with a hug. I buried myself in her coat. She was the only person who I had really cared for.
"I came to tell you good news!"
"That you and I shall be together, always?" I whispered. She heard me and went pale.
"Quite the opposite, Haruka."
"W-what is it?" I had a feeling that my life was going to change drastically.
"I am married, Haruka."
"Oh god." I whispered. "No, no, you can't!!!"
"I am, Haruka. And I must admit that I love him very much."
"No…" I whispered softly and then screamed. "NO!" I shoved her away from me. "Love is forever…" I glared at her, spiteful.
"Haruk-"
"Don't you call me by my name! You have no right to do that anymore!" I screamed. "I…" I said softly. "Am Mr. Lewis. Don't you forget that!" I turned around and started walking away.
"Haruka, you have not experienced true love. Our love was just puppy love, not the deep love that I have with my husband. Did you feel a spark going through your lips when you kissed me?" She yelled after me. "No, I didn't." I thought sadly.
"Did you have that feeling that you always wanted to be near me, even if I was just reading books?"
"No," I again thought.
"Did you think about me every single second of the day when you didn't know where I was?
"Kind of, not really." I thought again, sighing.
"Well that is what true love is, Haruka! If you answered yes to all of those questions, well, I feel sorry for you because my answers were No." I cringed at her last word, and felt an empty coldness filling my body. Then I heard her whisper something to me as the feverish wind swept clean the gorge between us.
"C-can't we just be friends?" Then I ran. I ran away from her, our "puppy" love, and the fact of existence that we even knew each other. I didn't care if I didn't "love" her. The fact that she would leave me for another man still left me steaming. Am I not good enough for her? Am I not good enough for ANY woman? I thought, running my fingers though my sweat-drenched, dirty-blonde hair. Then I knew. It IS me she doesn't love. I sat down on another bench and one tear streaked down my cheek. She knew I was a woman. She had always known. She loved me in spite of those things. What other woman would do that for me? I don't care if it is puppy love, but it is the only love that I can hold on to in my life. God, I wish I was a man! I spat. Then I stood up, perfectly calm and proposed, and left the park, the trees swaying wildly behind me.
Her face immediately came into my mind. That same voice, oh god, I had missed her so much!
**flashback**
"Darling, get back over here!"
"Not until you catch me!!!" She giggled and ran around the tree. I caught her, and we both fell to the ground, laughing. Our sparkling eyes locked and we met for a brief panting kiss. She then lay beside me and I stroked her hair gently.
"Why can't yo-"
"- Hush…" She encircled her arms around my neck. Then she quickly let go, her eyes open with fear.
"I… I can't… I must go…"
"Wait!!" I tried to grab her hand, but I only caught air.
**end of flashback**
I turned around, my eyes moist.
"Sweetheart?"
"Yes honey." She cried. We both smothered each other with a hug. I buried myself in her coat. She was the only person who I had really cared for.
"I came to tell you good news!"
"That you and I shall be together, always?" I whispered. She heard me and went pale.
"Quite the opposite, Haruka."
"W-what is it?" I had a feeling that my life was going to change drastically.
"I am married, Haruka."
"Oh god." I whispered. "No, no, you can't!!!"
"I am, Haruka. And I must admit that I love him very much."
"No…" I whispered softly and then screamed. "NO!" I shoved her away from me. "Love is forever…" I glared at her, spiteful.
"Haruk-"
"Don't you call me by my name! You have no right to do that anymore!" I screamed. "I…" I said softly. "Am Mr. Lewis. Don't you forget that!" I turned around and started walking away.
"Haruka, you have not experienced true love. Our love was just puppy love, not the deep love that I have with my husband. Did you feel a spark going through your lips when you kissed me?" She yelled after me. "No, I didn't." I thought sadly.
"Did you have that feeling that you always wanted to be near me, even if I was just reading books?"
"No," I again thought.
"Did you think about me every single second of the day when you didn't know where I was?
"Kind of, not really." I thought again, sighing.
"Well that is what true love is, Haruka! If you answered yes to all of those questions, well, I feel sorry for you because my answers were No." I cringed at her last word, and felt an empty coldness filling my body. Then I heard her whisper something to me as the feverish wind swept clean the gorge between us.
"C-can't we just be friends?" Then I ran. I ran away from her, our "puppy" love, and the fact of existence that we even knew each other. I didn't care if I didn't "love" her. The fact that she would leave me for another man still left me steaming. Am I not good enough for her? Am I not good enough for ANY woman? I thought, running my fingers though my sweat-drenched, dirty-blonde hair. Then I knew. It IS me she doesn't love. I sat down on another bench and one tear streaked down my cheek. She knew I was a woman. She had always known. She loved me in spite of those things. What other woman would do that for me? I don't care if it is puppy love, but it is the only love that I can hold on to in my life. God, I wish I was a man! I spat. Then I stood up, perfectly calm and proposed, and left the park, the trees swaying wildly behind me.
