Maria was sobbing over her recent break-up with Michael. She thought back to his last words he had said to her.

"I don't know what I ever saw in you. Get out of my apartment. NOW."

She had gotten out of his apartment and had been able to wait until she had gotten to the car before she broke down in sobs. Now at home she thought about the fight. It was different then the other fights they'd had in the past. This one actually had..venom, poison in it. Poison for her soul. She knew Michael would never come back to her. He was now to busy and involved in trying to find out where they came from and how to get back. Maria wanted desperately to call her best friend Liz or even Tess or Isabel. But Liz was on vacation with her husband Max and not due back for a couple more days. Isabel and Alex were desperately trying to get ready for their wedding that was in 3 weeks and counting. Tess hadn't been seen or heard from in a couple months. Though Alex and Isabel had gotten a response that she would indeed be at the wedding. More tears coursed down Maria's face as she thought about Liz and Max's fairy tale relationship. Why couldn't Michael and my relationship be like that? Maria thought. But she knew the answer already without searching for it. They were both afraid of commitment. Maria because of her Dad leaving her and Michael because of his step-Dad Hank. Maria had desperate to make the relationship work. She had tried to change. To make him happy. To make him love her. But it hadn't work. Non of it had. She was abandoned once more by the person she loved the most. The pain building up inside her crested and she screamed as she threw pillows, blankets and anything else she could get her hands on. When her torrent of throwing and pounding things exhausted her she slid to the floor unable to make herself move.

Liz and Max had come home early because Max had the feeling that if they didn't Alex wouldn't be alive for the wedding. They had arrived home late last night and they had unpacked and fallen asleep. This morning Max had gone off to help with the wedding plans. Liz smiled to herself as she thought of Maria's face when she saw that her friend was home and showing her pregnancy quite well. Liz patted her stomach self-consciously and she quickly finished getting dressed. She grabbed a piece of toast and ate it as she was putting on her shoes. She grabbed her car keys and headed towards her friend Maria's house humming under her breath. She pulled in to the driveway of Maria's house that her mother had given her right after Amy and Jim had gotten married. Liz couldn't help but smile at the thought of Jim and Amy's wedding. It had been a fun one. Liz herself had caught the bouquet of flowers and the saying was true. She was the next to get married. Liz climbed out of the car and her smile faded a little. Maria was usually up at this time. Maybe she's sleeping in or staying at Mike's Liz continued up the walk and peeked through the front window. She saw Maria slumped on the floor in the middle of the living room. The place looked like a hurricane had come through it. I guess Hurricane DeLuca's back Liz thought to herself smiling slightly. Then she stopped smiling figuring out that Hurricane DeLuca would only come out if they had had another fight again. Poor Maria. She doesn't look like she's doing well.Liz pulled out her keyring and looked through them trying to find the key to Maria's house. She finally found it and put it in the door. She turned the key in the lock and unlocked the door. She quietly opened the door and walked in as quietly as possible. She figured she could at least start cleaning up the place for her friend. She went into the kitchen and started a pot of coffee and made sure there was double chocolate ice cream in the freezer before she went back into the living room. She picked up all the blankets she could find and folded them. She started picking up pillows and as she walked closer to Maria to pick up the last pillow besides the one Maria clenched she saw the rust colored stain on the carpet. Liz reached out and touched it drawing back as she realized it was blood. Her heart dropped to her feet and she backpedaled away from Maria, her best friend. She stared in shock and disbelief as she took in the bloodstains on the floor and pillow Maria clutched. Then she saw the bloodied razor next to Maria on the carpet twinkling evilly at her. Liz then got her breath back and she started screaming like she had never screamed before. She slid down to the floor a little ways away from Maria. She pulled out her cell phone with trembling hands and dialed the number she knew by heart. Max's cell phone. She knew he was with Isabel and Alex and she hated having to break the news this way but she couldn't face them.not now.not like this.

"Hello?" Max asked. Liz was startled from her thinking and almost dropped the phone to the floor but she tightened her grip on it and answered Max as best she could.

"Hi."

"Liz? What's the matter?" Max asked concerned for her.

"Maria..Maria's.Maria's dead." The phone line was silent. Max had turned white and was trying to cope with it. Smiling, laughing Maria was gone. No more. How could it have happened?

"What.. happened?" Max finally asked

"She slit her wrist with a razor" Liz said. She was beginning to feel like all this was a dream. That everything was distant and safe. Nothing real and dangerous had happened to Maria. She was still safe and laughing somewhere. Max was talking to her still somewhere distant, through the haze she heard him ask if she was okay. She made some noise that sounded like a whine to her but she heard Max say something else then the line went dead. Liz closed the phone and wept. When the tears had stopped falling and she felt she could handle humanity again she opened her phone again and dialed the police. Letting them know of Maria's suicide.

Max had turned white and everyone in the Crashdown had gotten silent. Max never turned white..

"What happened?"

Then the group started paying more attention. Something had happened to Maria. They could gather that from Max's questions. As soon as Max hung up the phone he turned around to find four faces staring at him. Max sat down heavily on a barstool and put his head down and wept. Everyone stood there shifting from side to side wanting to know what happened but wanting to give Max his space. As Max's tears decreased and his head came up tear streaked he announced in a somewhat choked voice.

"Maria killed herself this morning or last night. I.I couldn't ask Liz.she was too broken up."

Maria how could you do this to us? Max asked himself then thought about it and turned towards Michael to see how he reacted.

Michael stood there as if he hadn't heard the words coming from Max and then the world seemed to stand still to him. His singing bird, his life, had died. They'd had a fight and he had been angry at her for once again interrupting his work on finding out what he was. They had fought but he had never expected her to kill herself! It wasn't possible, yet..Liz and Max wouldn't lie like that. About that. He knew them. Sorrow welled up inside of him and he sat down in a booth. He put his head down and cried a little and then slid out and left the Crashdown and all the staring faces and went out into the desert..his always there comforter, the desert. He'd come here when Hank had beaten him, when Maria and him had first fought, and now he came here to mourn her passing. He screamed his pain and anger into the sky until his throat was raw. He stumbled over to the rock he had always gone to and laid down on it. Sobbing his heart out.

Alex had already been sitting but when the news hit him it felt as though he were still standing. He needed support.a place to steady himself on. He looked around desperately and couldn't find one. Michael sat down across from him oblivious to him or anyone else for that matter as he put his head down and cried. Alex took his note from him and tears started down his face. He couldn't help it. His first best friend. His favorite lead singer of his band would never be able to fill in for Gwen anymore. He knew she loved to sing and had been trying to set her up with the same agent his band had. He had almost completed the work. Now it wouldn't matter and he cried all that much harder for what he lost and what she had lost.

Isabel went over and tried to comfort Alex. He was her best friend before they had even met. She couldn't believe that the girl she scared by changing the radio with her powers, the girl that she had subbed for at the Crashdown, the girl that wanted to be what Michael wanted of her. To make him love her. Isabel got angry with Maria for giving up but she got even angrier with Michael. She was sure he was what caused her to do that. She gave Alex a hug then went and got drinks for everyone. While she was getting the drinks she couldn't stop the tears. They had never been real friends but she was still someone she would miss. Why am I crying? I barely knew her.I never took the TIME to get to know her. Isabel felt lost. She always took Maria for granted and now she wasn't there. Her grief wasn't the same as the others..the ones that KNEW Maria. Isabel had always kept her at arm's length. I don't belong here. I shouldn't be here intruding on their grieving. I never knew her.Isabel took a deep breath and walked out with the drinks placing them in front of people.

"Is anyone hungry? I can go pick something up." Isabel asked. Trying to keep her mind off of Maria. She had decided that even if they said no she would still go. Leave them to their grief. Their pain. Their sorrow..

Max had taken it upon himself to tell Maria's parents. He would have told Tess and Kyle to but he didn't know how to contact them. Maybe they would. Max took a deep breath and stepped out of his car. He walked up the walkway slowly and knocked on the door. Amy Valenti opened the door and smiled at Max until she noticed Max's tearstained face.

"Is Sheriff here to?' Amy nodded her head and lead Max into the living room where Sheriff sat reading the paper. Amy sat down next to her husband and unconsciously took his hand. Max nervously cleared his throat and began his voice cracking slightly with emotion.

"I'm really sorry to tell you this.but Liz found Maria this morning dead. She committed suicide."

Max saw Amy start to tear up and Sheriff stiffening up when he decided to take his leave. He walked out of the house and into his car before he let the tears come out again.

Amy couldn't, didn't want to believe what Max said. Her only daughter dead. By her own hand. Not even a traffic accident or something. She wanted to scream, she wanted to cry, and she wanted to run all at the same time. Jim enfolded her in a hug as best he could and held her as she cried. When her tears dried up he led her to the bathroom and started the bath.

"Take a bath, it'll make you relax and help you sleep." Jim said leaving the room closing the door quietly behind him.

As Amy was in the bathroom Jim let the un-cried tears silently slid down his face. He had to be strong for Amy. He sat down on their bed and ran his hand through his thinning hair and cried thinking back to all the memories he had of the smiling Pixie. He thought of the days where she would run through his office as fast as she could with Kyle chasing her and how she always out ran him. He thought of her working in the Crashdown. He thought of her at their wedding and how she had smiled through the whole wedding. Then he started thinking about her fights with Michael and he made himself stop thinking of the memories. Concentrate on being strong for Amy.

Author's Note: This is my first Fan Fic ever. So PLEEZ send your opinions but be gentle. I break easy. Thanx to Dharma, Roxy, Lolli, & even Spaz who had to try and reach his feminine side for this one. Love all you guys! Sorry.I had to add that. So keep this in mind. Feedback equals more chapters. Tell me if it's worth continuing.