Maria looked out the window of the Crashdown. It was after hours and she could see Max and Liz kissing outside on the curb. Maria sighed and turned away from the scene. Lately all she thought about was Michael and what a big mistake she made by breaking up with him. Just seeing Max and Liz made her extremely jealous, and that wasn't a feeling she enjoyed. She spun around on her stool as she heard the back room door slam shut. What she saw was Michael. They hadn't actually been alone in the same room since they broke up and she was nervous.
"God Maria relax. We just broke up, no big deal." Michael said with a scowl. He hated the fact that she wouldn't even look at him let alone talk to him anymore. It was her choice to break up, what happened to 'We can still be friends'.
Maria looked at Michael alittle hurt, she thought the break up would affect him enough to atleast think it was important. "I know, its just awkward that's all. I don't really know what I can and can't say to you anymore, or even if we're supposed to talk at all." Maria said while staring at her hands.
Michael let out an exasperated sigh. "Don't you think you should have thought about that before?! Yeah it sucks we broke up, but I don't see why we can't atleast talk anymore." Michael knew he was hurting her by acting like he didn't care that we weren't going out anymore. But hell she had hurt him by leaving him.
"Okay, then lets talk." Maria said in a quiet voice. She wasn't really sure if thats what she had wanted. All she knew was that she wasn't happy with out him. She thought she was losing herself when she was with Michael, but without him she didn't even want to wake up in the morning.
Michael sat down next to her on a stool without looking at her. "Kay...was it someone else?" Michael asked while staring at the wall ahead of him with a clenched jaw.
"WHAT??!" Maria yelled, "How could you even think that there was someone else? You know that you were the only one." She said while finally looking at him even though he wouldn't look at her.
"Well I can't think of any other reason! Things were great with us. I mean sure I was alittle jealous of your band camp buddy, but that was just because I didn't want to lose you...but well it looks like I lost you anyway." He said as he looked her in the eye with a very sad look.
"You haven't lost me, atleast I don't think you have. I was just confused. I felt like when I was with you I was a different person. And I just didn't want to lose who I really was." Maria said while trying to find the words to express how she felt exactly.
"I don't want you to lose who you are either! But I don't see why being with me was making you lose that. I never tried to make you be someone you weren't. I love you for who you are Maria." Michael said as he put his hand on top of hers.
Maria stared at their hands then looked up into his eyes with tears in hers. "I know...i'm just so confused Michael. I love you too, but I just don't want to be that girl. That girl who lives her life through her boyfriend and isn't anything without him." she said as tears slipped down her cheeks.
Michael entertwined their fingers together tighter and wiped her tears with his other hand. "Maria look at me...I love you, and I understand what you're trying to do. And if we can't be together than that's fine...but I can't lose you...You're all I have." He said with passion in his voice.
Maria fell into his arms and hugged him tightly. "You'll never lose me Michael, I'm right here...I just want to try this alone for alittle bit. But we're always friends." And with that she stood up and walked out of the Crashdown before she did something she regreted.
Michael just watched her walk away. He would get her back, he had to. He loved her.
"God Maria relax. We just broke up, no big deal." Michael said with a scowl. He hated the fact that she wouldn't even look at him let alone talk to him anymore. It was her choice to break up, what happened to 'We can still be friends'.
Maria looked at Michael alittle hurt, she thought the break up would affect him enough to atleast think it was important. "I know, its just awkward that's all. I don't really know what I can and can't say to you anymore, or even if we're supposed to talk at all." Maria said while staring at her hands.
Michael let out an exasperated sigh. "Don't you think you should have thought about that before?! Yeah it sucks we broke up, but I don't see why we can't atleast talk anymore." Michael knew he was hurting her by acting like he didn't care that we weren't going out anymore. But hell she had hurt him by leaving him.
"Okay, then lets talk." Maria said in a quiet voice. She wasn't really sure if thats what she had wanted. All she knew was that she wasn't happy with out him. She thought she was losing herself when she was with Michael, but without him she didn't even want to wake up in the morning.
Michael sat down next to her on a stool without looking at her. "Kay...was it someone else?" Michael asked while staring at the wall ahead of him with a clenched jaw.
"WHAT??!" Maria yelled, "How could you even think that there was someone else? You know that you were the only one." She said while finally looking at him even though he wouldn't look at her.
"Well I can't think of any other reason! Things were great with us. I mean sure I was alittle jealous of your band camp buddy, but that was just because I didn't want to lose you...but well it looks like I lost you anyway." He said as he looked her in the eye with a very sad look.
"You haven't lost me, atleast I don't think you have. I was just confused. I felt like when I was with you I was a different person. And I just didn't want to lose who I really was." Maria said while trying to find the words to express how she felt exactly.
"I don't want you to lose who you are either! But I don't see why being with me was making you lose that. I never tried to make you be someone you weren't. I love you for who you are Maria." Michael said as he put his hand on top of hers.
Maria stared at their hands then looked up into his eyes with tears in hers. "I know...i'm just so confused Michael. I love you too, but I just don't want to be that girl. That girl who lives her life through her boyfriend and isn't anything without him." she said as tears slipped down her cheeks.
Michael entertwined their fingers together tighter and wiped her tears with his other hand. "Maria look at me...I love you, and I understand what you're trying to do. And if we can't be together than that's fine...but I can't lose you...You're all I have." He said with passion in his voice.
Maria fell into his arms and hugged him tightly. "You'll never lose me Michael, I'm right here...I just want to try this alone for alittle bit. But we're always friends." And with that she stood up and walked out of the Crashdown before she did something she regreted.
Michael just watched her walk away. He would get her back, he had to. He loved her.
