* . . and some insight as to how the brain of Beka Valentine works . .*
Well, Harper's theory is that I'm scared of unconditional love. I'd rather not justify that with an answer simply because I don't want to find out if it's true. I know that I don't trust or commit, but being told that you don't love is scary, like you're an inhuman monster or something. Well, I guess it's not that I don't love, but that I'm scared to be loved, which makes sense I suppose. I mean, I haven't exactly had the best role models in life for it.
"Hey," I said to him as I walked over. I looked over my shoulder for Harper, but he was gone.
"Hi," was all Dylan said.
"I, ah, heard that you got advice from Tyr."
"Oh yeah, more than I think I really wanted to hear," he said with a smile. "What about you, did Harper offer any useable pearls of wisdom?"
"Amazingly enough, he did and some insight as to how the mind of Beka Valentine works at the same time," I said as I sat down on the bench.
"Harper, our Harper? Mr.-I-can't-get-laid-if-I-paid Harper?" he said with a shocked look on his face.
"The very same," I said with a smile. "He may not be able to get any, but at least he knows a thing or two about why he can't get any." I paused for a moment. "I think he may have changed my mind," I said quietly. "I just need you to make me take a break and some help when I need it." I looked over at Dylan, he looked back at me and smiled.
"I'm glad and don't worry, I will," was all he said as he leaned back and wrapped an arm around my shoulders. "Now if Tyr had convinced you, I would have been worried, but since it's Harper . ."
"And you can take him," I interrupted.
"And I can take him, I'm not all that worried," he finished with a bit of a self-satisfactory smile on his face. I shrugged off his arm and stood up.
"Are you trying to make yourself as impressive as Tyr by threatening the little guy?"
"Ummmmmm . . . .No?" he answered hesitantly.
"Yes you are," I said as I came back and sat on his knee. "Just don't go through with it or tell him about this or I'll kill you." I heard Dylan swallow hard.
"Aye aye Captain," he said with a smile. I leaned back against him for a moment. There hadn't actually been any apologies exchanged. Come to think of it, I don't think that we have ever apologized for anything we've ever done to each other.
"Maybe I should go and find Cassie."
"Why?"
"I, ah, kinda publically snubbed her when I was mad at you."
"Ouch."
"Yeah, let's go," I said as I reluctantly got up and took his hand as we walked over to the play equipment where Trance was giving a demonstration of how she could hang by her tail.
*I'll catch you if you fall Cassie*
I laughed as me an' Harper watched Trance swing by her tail, it was fun and I wish I had a tail.
"Where are you going?" I asked him as he slid down the slide.
"Right here," he said as he came over and picked me up. "I think the two little monkeys should be hanging together."
"I'm not a monkey!" I said as he tickled me.
"Sure you are! Grab on," he said.
"You won't let me fall will you?" I asked. I really don't like the idea of falling.
"I'll catch you if you fall. Don't worry," he said as I grabbed on to the bar.
"Now swing your legs up." I tried lots of times and they just wouldn't swing up high enough. Harper finally helped me out.
"Now just let your hands go."
"No! I'll fall! I wanna get down!"
"I'll make sure you don't fall and so will Trance." I watched as an upside down Trance crawled over the top of the bars and held onto my legs. I looked up at her and she smiled.
"Just try it and if you really don't like it, we'll help you down ok?"
"Promise?"
"Yup." I let one hand go and hung onto Harper and then let the other one go. He held on to my waist and I hung up side down for a while. It was fun, but it made my head feel funny. Trance let go of my legs and Harper put me on the ground and held on as I got my balance back. I peaked over his shoulder and saw Beka and Dylan coming.
"Beka and Dylan are comin'," I said as I ran back up to the top of the tower. Trance came with me.
"Are we hiding?" she whispered.
"Yes."
"Why?"
"'Cause Beka's mad and I don't know why."
"I don't think she's mad anymore. Look." I looked, she did look kinda happy. "I think her and Dylan made up."
"What did they fight about?"
"Ummmmm . . . . I'll tell ya later," she said as she looked to Harper.
"But I wanna know now!"
"Maybe if you ask Beka nicely she'll tell you," she said as she swung down. Hmp! I don't think I'm ever gonna figure everyone out!
Well, Harper's theory is that I'm scared of unconditional love. I'd rather not justify that with an answer simply because I don't want to find out if it's true. I know that I don't trust or commit, but being told that you don't love is scary, like you're an inhuman monster or something. Well, I guess it's not that I don't love, but that I'm scared to be loved, which makes sense I suppose. I mean, I haven't exactly had the best role models in life for it.
"Hey," I said to him as I walked over. I looked over my shoulder for Harper, but he was gone.
"Hi," was all Dylan said.
"I, ah, heard that you got advice from Tyr."
"Oh yeah, more than I think I really wanted to hear," he said with a smile. "What about you, did Harper offer any useable pearls of wisdom?"
"Amazingly enough, he did and some insight as to how the mind of Beka Valentine works at the same time," I said as I sat down on the bench.
"Harper, our Harper? Mr.-I-can't-get-laid-if-I-paid Harper?" he said with a shocked look on his face.
"The very same," I said with a smile. "He may not be able to get any, but at least he knows a thing or two about why he can't get any." I paused for a moment. "I think he may have changed my mind," I said quietly. "I just need you to make me take a break and some help when I need it." I looked over at Dylan, he looked back at me and smiled.
"I'm glad and don't worry, I will," was all he said as he leaned back and wrapped an arm around my shoulders. "Now if Tyr had convinced you, I would have been worried, but since it's Harper . ."
"And you can take him," I interrupted.
"And I can take him, I'm not all that worried," he finished with a bit of a self-satisfactory smile on his face. I shrugged off his arm and stood up.
"Are you trying to make yourself as impressive as Tyr by threatening the little guy?"
"Ummmmmm . . . .No?" he answered hesitantly.
"Yes you are," I said as I came back and sat on his knee. "Just don't go through with it or tell him about this or I'll kill you." I heard Dylan swallow hard.
"Aye aye Captain," he said with a smile. I leaned back against him for a moment. There hadn't actually been any apologies exchanged. Come to think of it, I don't think that we have ever apologized for anything we've ever done to each other.
"Maybe I should go and find Cassie."
"Why?"
"I, ah, kinda publically snubbed her when I was mad at you."
"Ouch."
"Yeah, let's go," I said as I reluctantly got up and took his hand as we walked over to the play equipment where Trance was giving a demonstration of how she could hang by her tail.
*I'll catch you if you fall Cassie*
I laughed as me an' Harper watched Trance swing by her tail, it was fun and I wish I had a tail.
"Where are you going?" I asked him as he slid down the slide.
"Right here," he said as he came over and picked me up. "I think the two little monkeys should be hanging together."
"I'm not a monkey!" I said as he tickled me.
"Sure you are! Grab on," he said.
"You won't let me fall will you?" I asked. I really don't like the idea of falling.
"I'll catch you if you fall. Don't worry," he said as I grabbed on to the bar.
"Now swing your legs up." I tried lots of times and they just wouldn't swing up high enough. Harper finally helped me out.
"Now just let your hands go."
"No! I'll fall! I wanna get down!"
"I'll make sure you don't fall and so will Trance." I watched as an upside down Trance crawled over the top of the bars and held onto my legs. I looked up at her and she smiled.
"Just try it and if you really don't like it, we'll help you down ok?"
"Promise?"
"Yup." I let one hand go and hung onto Harper and then let the other one go. He held on to my waist and I hung up side down for a while. It was fun, but it made my head feel funny. Trance let go of my legs and Harper put me on the ground and held on as I got my balance back. I peaked over his shoulder and saw Beka and Dylan coming.
"Beka and Dylan are comin'," I said as I ran back up to the top of the tower. Trance came with me.
"Are we hiding?" she whispered.
"Yes."
"Why?"
"'Cause Beka's mad and I don't know why."
"I don't think she's mad anymore. Look." I looked, she did look kinda happy. "I think her and Dylan made up."
"What did they fight about?"
"Ummmmm . . . . I'll tell ya later," she said as she looked to Harper.
"But I wanna know now!"
"Maybe if you ask Beka nicely she'll tell you," she said as she swung down. Hmp! I don't think I'm ever gonna figure everyone out!
