*That's the thing about love isn't it?*
Trance, Tyr and I watched as Dylan slammed around command before he finally stormed off. Beka had left when Odan made his ultimatum from the planet. Either we give up Cass or signing this planet up with the Commonwealth.
"I, I'm gonna go to Hydroponics," Trance said as she took off. She had tears in her eyes and I knew she was leaving because she didn't want to cry in front of the Big Guy.
"I'm going to keep scanning for Cassidie," Tyr said with determination as he headed over to the far side of the command deck. I just kinda stood there in shock. Odan had basically asked Dylan to choose between Beka or his dream. If he kept the Zillians in the Commonwealth, Beka would leave and probably never come back, never being able to forgive him. On the other hand, this was just a planet and they could ask him to sign them up again after they had delt with the terrorists. Then again, this WAS Dylan and he didn't give into terrorists . . . .
"Ahhh. . .I'm gonna go and . . .yeah," I said as I left the bridge. I wandered for a while before stopping outside of Dylan's office and listened to him and Beka fighting.
"It's an easy choice Dylan!"
"For you maybe!"
"What? Is your Commonwealth more important that her?"
"I won't give into them Beka."
"It's not worth it! So we loose one lowsy planet! We get her back!"
"And when word gets around that Cassidie is a vulnerable point for us? Every where we go will pull the same thing. This is why children weren't allowed on Commonwealth ships!"
"May I offer an opinion?" I heard Rommie ask.
"NO!" They both yelled at her. Rommie appeared in the hallway in front of me.
"They seem a little angry," I said lamely.
"Are you eavesdroping Harper?" she asked.
"How can you not! Listen to them!" I said as I started to walk.
Rommie's avatar caught up to me. "What are we going to do with them?"
"Let them fight it out and then rescue her ourselves?"
"Don't you mean let them fight it out, find her and then rescue her?" I sighed.
"You didn't happen to give tracking bots did you?"
"The general assumption was that she wouldn't be staying with us. I had begun to prepare them just before the banquet." I looked around as we entered the door to the machine shop. I began wandering around, picking things up and putting them down again.
"Can't you just search for her life signs?"
"I've tried. They're masking them some how."
"Then maybe we should solve a problem closer to home," I said as I peaked out the door to see Beka storm by.
"They need to work this out on their own Harper. We've done more than enough to keep them together this long. This whole event will show us what has kept them together."
"Such as??"
"Well, Dylan will realize that Beka's happiness, as well as his own which is connected to hers, matters more to him than the Commonwealth, that Beka is simply a passing amusement and he will sign the planet, or that he is simply using Beka to get closer to Cassidie. Although, the likely hood of the third possibility coming true are miniscule." I sighed and shot Rommie a crooked smile.
"That's the thing about love isn't it? No one really understands how it works do they?"
"No, I don't think they do."
*Just another guy to let me down. . . *
I couldn't believe him! This stupid, back water little world was more important to him than Cassidie is. I don't believe that fact that I talked myself into loving hiom! I'm such an idiot! He's just another guy to let me down and he really did it this time!! That's all I've ever really had in my life though right? Just some other guy to screw me over when he wants something for himself. Of course, I've got to be the bigger idiot. I fall for them every time! I tell myself, that's it, this is the last time I'm gonna let it happen, never again! I said it after Rafe left and after Dad died and after so many drift losers and Bobby . . . . I think he hurt the most simply because he kept leaving and I kept letting him back in. Harper never liked him after the first time he left me . . .
"That's it. This is the end. Dylan can do what ever the hell he wants! I'm gonna find her and take the Maru, go back to the way things were. Any one who wants to come with me, can," I mumbled to myself as I made my way onto the Maru.
"Beka?" I heard Rev call. "Surely that can't be what you want."
"It is Rev. Trust me. I've had it. Maybe I'll join the way, that will keep me away from men won't it?" I asked as I leaned against a wall.
"Keep you away from men, or from commitment?"
"Yeah, both. For some reason, every time I find a guy I'd like to commit to, he takes off and when I don't want a commitment, it's all he wants." I sighed and slid down the wall until I was sitting on the
ground. "Rev, is there something wrong with me? Or does the universe just like to fuck me over?" I watched as he paused for a moment, then joined me on the floor.
"The Divine does many mysterious things, but with most of the things it causes, what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger."
"So being disappointed every time I seek out male companionship makes me stronger?" I asked in disbelief.
"Not exactly. Perhaps that came out wrong."
"I'll say," I mumbled under my breath.
"Although you may not think so, these failed relationships have made you a stronger person in mind, body and spirit. Before that unfortunate incident with Bobby, you never would have even considered taking on a child, or joining some one on a quest to restor a civilization that fell three hundred years ago."
"I joined up with Dylan becuase it was cheeper than living on the Maru and I needed some temporary protection from Gerentex."
"How do you explain Cassidie?"
"She was my good deed for the year. I wasn't planning on her growing on me like she did," I said as I thought about her.
"`I always believed that I didn't need children to complete my life . . .now, I couldn't imagine life without them,'" Rev quoted.
"What?"
"A statement from a very wise man on Earth, before the fall. His name was Picardo . . . no, Picard I think."
"Rev, if I left, would ya come with me?" I asked hopefully. He grew quiet as he thought about my request.
"I do not believe so."
"Why?"
"I do not believe that you will really leave," he said as he stood.
"And why wouldn't I?"
"Because you asked my opinion and you are still here," he said simply as he walked off. I stared at him in disbelieve and tried to hold the tears back. I hate crying, it's a waste of energy. I didn't cry when Rafe left, or when Dad died or when Bobby left the last time . . . . I'm not gonna cry over Dylan Hunt and another failed relationship. I think I might cry for Cassidie though, just this once . . .
Trance, Tyr and I watched as Dylan slammed around command before he finally stormed off. Beka had left when Odan made his ultimatum from the planet. Either we give up Cass or signing this planet up with the Commonwealth.
"I, I'm gonna go to Hydroponics," Trance said as she took off. She had tears in her eyes and I knew she was leaving because she didn't want to cry in front of the Big Guy.
"I'm going to keep scanning for Cassidie," Tyr said with determination as he headed over to the far side of the command deck. I just kinda stood there in shock. Odan had basically asked Dylan to choose between Beka or his dream. If he kept the Zillians in the Commonwealth, Beka would leave and probably never come back, never being able to forgive him. On the other hand, this was just a planet and they could ask him to sign them up again after they had delt with the terrorists. Then again, this WAS Dylan and he didn't give into terrorists . . . .
"Ahhh. . .I'm gonna go and . . .yeah," I said as I left the bridge. I wandered for a while before stopping outside of Dylan's office and listened to him and Beka fighting.
"It's an easy choice Dylan!"
"For you maybe!"
"What? Is your Commonwealth more important that her?"
"I won't give into them Beka."
"It's not worth it! So we loose one lowsy planet! We get her back!"
"And when word gets around that Cassidie is a vulnerable point for us? Every where we go will pull the same thing. This is why children weren't allowed on Commonwealth ships!"
"May I offer an opinion?" I heard Rommie ask.
"NO!" They both yelled at her. Rommie appeared in the hallway in front of me.
"They seem a little angry," I said lamely.
"Are you eavesdroping Harper?" she asked.
"How can you not! Listen to them!" I said as I started to walk.
Rommie's avatar caught up to me. "What are we going to do with them?"
"Let them fight it out and then rescue her ourselves?"
"Don't you mean let them fight it out, find her and then rescue her?" I sighed.
"You didn't happen to give tracking bots did you?"
"The general assumption was that she wouldn't be staying with us. I had begun to prepare them just before the banquet." I looked around as we entered the door to the machine shop. I began wandering around, picking things up and putting them down again.
"Can't you just search for her life signs?"
"I've tried. They're masking them some how."
"Then maybe we should solve a problem closer to home," I said as I peaked out the door to see Beka storm by.
"They need to work this out on their own Harper. We've done more than enough to keep them together this long. This whole event will show us what has kept them together."
"Such as??"
"Well, Dylan will realize that Beka's happiness, as well as his own which is connected to hers, matters more to him than the Commonwealth, that Beka is simply a passing amusement and he will sign the planet, or that he is simply using Beka to get closer to Cassidie. Although, the likely hood of the third possibility coming true are miniscule." I sighed and shot Rommie a crooked smile.
"That's the thing about love isn't it? No one really understands how it works do they?"
"No, I don't think they do."
*Just another guy to let me down. . . *
I couldn't believe him! This stupid, back water little world was more important to him than Cassidie is. I don't believe that fact that I talked myself into loving hiom! I'm such an idiot! He's just another guy to let me down and he really did it this time!! That's all I've ever really had in my life though right? Just some other guy to screw me over when he wants something for himself. Of course, I've got to be the bigger idiot. I fall for them every time! I tell myself, that's it, this is the last time I'm gonna let it happen, never again! I said it after Rafe left and after Dad died and after so many drift losers and Bobby . . . . I think he hurt the most simply because he kept leaving and I kept letting him back in. Harper never liked him after the first time he left me . . .
"That's it. This is the end. Dylan can do what ever the hell he wants! I'm gonna find her and take the Maru, go back to the way things were. Any one who wants to come with me, can," I mumbled to myself as I made my way onto the Maru.
"Beka?" I heard Rev call. "Surely that can't be what you want."
"It is Rev. Trust me. I've had it. Maybe I'll join the way, that will keep me away from men won't it?" I asked as I leaned against a wall.
"Keep you away from men, or from commitment?"
"Yeah, both. For some reason, every time I find a guy I'd like to commit to, he takes off and when I don't want a commitment, it's all he wants." I sighed and slid down the wall until I was sitting on the
ground. "Rev, is there something wrong with me? Or does the universe just like to fuck me over?" I watched as he paused for a moment, then joined me on the floor.
"The Divine does many mysterious things, but with most of the things it causes, what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger."
"So being disappointed every time I seek out male companionship makes me stronger?" I asked in disbelief.
"Not exactly. Perhaps that came out wrong."
"I'll say," I mumbled under my breath.
"Although you may not think so, these failed relationships have made you a stronger person in mind, body and spirit. Before that unfortunate incident with Bobby, you never would have even considered taking on a child, or joining some one on a quest to restor a civilization that fell three hundred years ago."
"I joined up with Dylan becuase it was cheeper than living on the Maru and I needed some temporary protection from Gerentex."
"How do you explain Cassidie?"
"She was my good deed for the year. I wasn't planning on her growing on me like she did," I said as I thought about her.
"`I always believed that I didn't need children to complete my life . . .now, I couldn't imagine life without them,'" Rev quoted.
"What?"
"A statement from a very wise man on Earth, before the fall. His name was Picardo . . . no, Picard I think."
"Rev, if I left, would ya come with me?" I asked hopefully. He grew quiet as he thought about my request.
"I do not believe so."
"Why?"
"I do not believe that you will really leave," he said as he stood.
"And why wouldn't I?"
"Because you asked my opinion and you are still here," he said simply as he walked off. I stared at him in disbelieve and tried to hold the tears back. I hate crying, it's a waste of energy. I didn't cry when Rafe left, or when Dad died or when Bobby left the last time . . . . I'm not gonna cry over Dylan Hunt and another failed relationship. I think I might cry for Cassidie though, just this once . . .
