Disclaimer: I do not own CardCaptor Sakura, do not sue me. This is merely for entertainment, nothing else.
Rating: PG-13
Warning: Mild language
Notes: This takes place when Sakura, Tomoyo, Syaoran, etc are 19yrs old. Pretend the Clow Cards never happened. Pretend that Li Syaoran only came as a transfer student and nothing else. Might not seem like an S&S fic, but trust me, it is. It will turn into one, just gonna take a quite bit of time. Sakura will soon find her feelings for Syaoran...

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And I'm glad I could help, May!


Why Must You Do This To Me?
Chapter Four-Kurushii~Anguished~
by Sakura Maxwell



Sakura screamed. It was something that came on impulse when seeing.. Syaoran.

"Syao-Syaoran! Wha-What are yo-you doing he-here?" she stuttered.

Syaoran was standing in the middle of her room, staring directly at her. His dead eyes boring into her alive ones. He slowly reached his hand out at her.

Sakura stared at his hand. 'What is he doing? ...Am I..supposed to.. But what if.. What if he..hurts me..I..' Without knowing it, she took a step forward. And another.. And another...

'Ahh!! What am I doing?!' Sakura asked herself madly. 'What the—?!'

Her feet stopped right in front of Syaoran. He looked down at her and wrapped his arms around her, bringing her closer to him. He placed a hand on the back of Sakura's head and pressed her into his chest. Sakura gasped softly. 'Why is...he..'

"Sa.."

Sakura's eyes widened. 'He's...trying to say..'

"Sa...."

'He's trying to say.....'

"Sa...ku.."

'...my name..'

Sakura's arms hung loosely at her sides. 'What am I..supposed to do..?' She closed her eyes. 'Please, God, don't let anything happen to me.. Just..'

Hesitantly, Sakura brought her arms up and around Syaoran's waist. She squeezed him gently. 'Syaoran.. Turn back..to normal..'

Syaoran's grip on Sakura loosened and he looked down at her with those dead eyes. Sakura looked up at him. 'Turn back..into the friend..I had..' her eyes pleaded. "Syao..Syaoran.." she whispered.

Sakura blinked in puzzlement. Syaoran's eyes flashed and the shine that used to be there returned. Then in a split second that he was normal, he pushed Sakura back and jumped on the window sill, and prepared to jump. Then his eyes died again and he fell, hand reaching up at Sakura.

Sakura just stood there, shocked.

"Was..that...you? ....My..friend, Syaoran..?" she whispered.

Just then her door burst open and Tomoyo and Fujitaka ran inside.

"Daijoubu desu ka?!" they both asked with pure worry. Sakura's eyes softened and tears spilled out of them and down her cheeks. "He.." she said.

Fujitaka bent down next to Sakura and asked, "Sweety, what happened?! Why are you crying? Why did you scream? Did something scare you?" Sakura tried to choke back the sobs. Fujitaka pulled Sakura in and hugged her in reassurence.

"Shhh.. It's okay, it's okay," he whispered into her ear. "Everything's alright.. No one or anything is here except me and Tomoyo.. Sshhhhh.." He kept repeating soothing words of nonsense in Sakura's ear.

Tomoyo, on the other hand, was looking out the window. 'I'm sure I saw him jump out of here..' She turned to Sakura. 'Oh, Sakura... I vow never to leave you alone for a second. Never ever.. I'm so sorry..'



Sakura trodded up the stairs and into the room Tomoyo and herself had made for Sakura w hile back since Sakura used to sleep over often.

She opened the door and walked in, closed it, and dropped her bags down by her desk and fell onto the bed. She covered her face with her arm. 'This is just too confusing..' She flipped on her stomach and buried her face in the soft, pink pillow. "Just leave me alone!" she cried out, but the pillow muffled her words.

"Leave me alone! Why.. Why can't you just ignore me and get on with your life, Syaoran! Leave. me. Alone." She started crying. "Just...leave..me..alo-alone..da-damnit.. Wh-Why..." she sobbed. "All these things.."

"Why did I hug you?!" she asked no one. "You're a monster and I TOUCHED you!" She grabbed the pillow. "I HUGGED you!" She sat up and threw the pillow against the desk.

"I..let..you..hug..me!" she spat in anguish. "I let..you do.. I keep running. But how! How the hell can I fight back?!" She slammed against the wall and slid down, tears pouring from her eyes. Sakura lifted a hand and placed it on her forehead. "I..let..you.." she said bewteen sobs and laughter. Laughter of sadness.

"You're..ruining my..life," she whispered, sobs and laughter mixing. "I can't... I won't.. I won't let you do this to me.. Do you hear, Syaoran?! You're always following me, stalking me, going wherever I go! I know you can hear me! I. Won't. Let. You. Do. This. To. Me."

Sakura covered her face, crying and laughing of anguish.

Outside her door, Tomoyo sighed. 'Sakura..oh, Sakura.. You're not going to be toyed with.. I don't care hwat Syaoran thinks or does.. You're my friend.. I won't let you beat yourself like this.. Oh, Sakura.. Stop crying, please.. We'll figure out how to mend this.. I'll make sure Syaoran never messes up your life again.. We just need to get rid of him..'



Sakura woke to a knock on her door. 'Ugh.. Where am I..' She raised her head. She saw the familar surroundings. 'Tomoyo's..' She pushed herself to her feet. 'I fell asleep.. Crying.. Laughing..' She walked to her desk and unzipped a bag full of clothes.

"Who is it?" she asked wearily.

"It's me, Sakura," Tomoyo said.

"Door's open."

Tomoyo opened the door. "I told you to keep it locked. Why didn't you?" Sakura fumbled around the clothes. "Guess I forgot," she mumbled.

Tomoyo frowned in worry at her best friend. "Sakura, I don't think we should go anywhere today.." she began.

Sakura grabbed out a yellow bear with wings stuffed animal and placed it on the desk. "That so.. I didn't feel like going anywhere anyway."

Tomoyo said, "Sakura, what's wrong? I know something's bothering you.."

Sakura stopped and closed her eyes. "Tomoyo," she said in a steady voice, "I'd appreciate it if you would just leave me alone for a while."

Tomoyo was shocked by the cold tone Sakura used but nodded meekly and walked out, closing, and locking, the door.

Sakura stared, then collasped.

"No.. Now I'm turning on my best friend," she whispered. She held her head in one hand. "I can't afford to do that.. She's Tomoyo, my best friend always.. I shouldn't have been so..mean to her.. I will apologize later.. Just..not..now.."



Tomoyo lifted her head towards the stairs as she heard Sakura walk down. She watched her walk towards her.

"Tomoyo," she said, head lowered, "I'm sorry about earlier today.. I was..upset.. Please forgive me.."

Tomoyo looked at her with a worried expression, then smiled. "It's alright," she said. "I probably don't understand what this is doing to you but I will respect you. It must be hard."

Sakura looked up. "Yea." She smiled a little. "Say, did Otousan give you the curry he made?" she asked. Tomoyo nodded. "Why, you hungry?"

Sakura grinned. "Yea, as a matter of fact, I am. It's.." She looked at the clock. "It's almost eight. I say we go eat. Unless you already did."

Tomoyo laughed. "I wouldn't eat without you, Sakura," she said, getting up from the chair. "I'll get it ready. Want to come with me?"

Sakura blinked. "I guess," she answered, following Tomoyo to the kitchen.

Tomoyo opened the refridgerator and took out two plastic container. "He said to put it all in these little plastic things," Tomoyo said, pointing to the five other ones in the fridge. Sakura smiled, exasperated.

Tomoyo stuck the plastic containers in the microwave with the lid open partially and set it for three minutes.

Then it dinged and she took them out and placed them on the counter. "Ow..Ow.. My hands.." she said, blowing on them. Sakura laughed. "Should of used gloves."

She handed a spoon to Tomoyo and took on for herself. They both waited for the curry to cool enough so they could hold it and then went back into the living room.

Each sitting next to each other on the couch, they ate. Chatting and laughing, unaware of the two lifeless eyes watching them.



Please R&R! Arigato, minna-san!

Author Note: Whoo-hoo.. Seems I make it as if Syaoran was a zombie...O_o.. Maybe he IS a zombie..X_X Nah.. Or..should I make this story complicated.. @_@ Sorry for another short chapter. I think all these chapters eill be short.. Oh well, at least they come out faster?

Personally, I don't think the chapter title fitted.. But I didn't know what to put..-_-'