Disclaimer: I do not own CardCaptor Sakura, do not sue me. This is merely for entertainment, nothing else.
Rating: PG-13
Warning: Mild language
Notes: This takes place when Sakura, Tomoyo, Syaoran, etc are 19yrs old. Pretend the Clow Cards never happened. Pretend that Li Syaoran only came as a transfer student and nothing else. Might not seem like an S&S fic, but trust me, it is... You'll see..

Important: I never did see what Tomoyo's mansion looked like both on the outside and inside so please don't get mad. I just always see Syaoran's house in Hong Kong when I try to picture Tomoyo's mansion..o.O;;

Special Note: Thank you all ofr those kewl reviews!! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!! You people are so kind..^ ^;; I can see S&S is far more popular than Y&S..- -;; Oh well, I like both



Why Must You Do This To Me?
Chapter Seven-Satoru~Realize~
by Sakura Maxwell




Sakura sat down on the steps of Tomoyo's patio and pulled her knees up to her chest. She closed her eyes and sighed, then looked up at the shining moon.

'I wish things would just go back to normal..'

She looked down at the blade in her hand. 'Everything..will be back to normal. So long I...I..' She narrowed her eyes at the blade. "So long I kill Syaoran," she whispered with hate.

"No one will know.. Except Tomoyo maybe," she said to herself, "But then he won't torment anyone anymore.. I'd be able to live peacefully.. Tomoyo would be able to live peacefully... He won't bother us, won't stalk us, won't harrass us, won't have anything to do with us.."

A tear fell down her cheek.

"So why am I so hesitant to do this?"

Sakura gripped the knife in her hand and lowered her head. "I..I have to be strong.. Syaoran.. No, that.. It isn't the Syaoran that we used to know and like.. So I should have no regrets doing this."

She snapped her head up at the sound of someone's footsteps and narrowed her eyes to slits.

Syaoran stopped walking and stood still, staring straight at her, not even six feet away from her. His eyes were glaring at her, but they were still lifeless eyes.

Sakura noticed that he also had bandages, and they were on his chest. She could tell because his white shirt was stained with blood and part of his bandages were showing. Her eyes widened.

"Who did that?" she asked herself. 'I remember stumbling out of the bathroom and seeing Tomoyo going in..' She gasped. 'No. No way.. Tomoyo slashed him?'

Syaoran's gaze moved to her waist. Sakura looked at it, then looked back at him. She stood up and stared at Syaoran.

Holding the knife, she said, "Syaoran, you are not the Syaoran I know." She held up the knife at him. "I'll kill you." The blade shook in her hand but she tried to keep calm.

Syaoran took a step closer.

Sakura backed up a little and repeated, "I'm going to kill you, Syaoran!" Tears threatened to burst out but she didn't know why. Killing Syaoran would relieve her of her stress and misery, right?

Syaoran took another step, and another until he was not even a foot away from Sakura.

The blade trembled as Sakura held it tightly. "I.. You..die.." she said through clentched teeth. A trickle of sweat slipped down her forehead. Her eyes left his face and fell on his chest.

'If I slash there I'll open the wound, making him bleed more. Then when he's down and strike the final blow..'

She shook her head. "I hate you! I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!" she choked out, tears forming. "Why can't you just leave us alone?! What the hell is your obession with stalking me! Watching me, it's just creepy! Why must you do this to me?!" The tears flowed down her soft cheeks and onto the pavement.

Syaoran looked down at them, then looked back at her. Sakura was crying, shoulders sagged, the knife hanging limp in her hand. He narrowed his eyes and grabbed Sakura's wrist. He tore the knife from her loose grip and threw it far from them both.

Sakura kept crying. Her legs gave way and she was about to fall but Syaoran wrapped his other arm around her waist. He kept her up and released his grip on Sakura's wrist. He put that hand under her head and made her face him.

Sakura opened her eyes slightly. Then they widened. "Syao...Syaoran.." she whispered, tears blurring her vision. Syaoran closed his eyes and leaned in. Sakura's went even bigger.

Syaoran's lips covered Sakura's as he kissed her with gentleness and compassion. Sakura gasped into the kiss and Syaoran pulled back. Pulled back, revealing two soft amber eyes.

Sakura opened her mouth to say something but Syaoran put a finger on her lips. With his bangs covering his eyes, he removed his hand by her waist and stepped back. Sakura stood lightly on her feet and stared at Syaoran, blinking slowly.

Syaoran turned and walked away.

Sakura felt a stabbing pain in her heart as she watched him go and she reached out her hand out to him. But her mouth wasn't functional. Soon Syaoran disappeared into the night.

Sakura pulled her hand back and turned back towards the house. She clutched her hand and looked down. 'Was that..Syaoran..? ..The real Syaoran... It's just like my dream.. He kissed me.. Looked up and his eyes were normal.. And then he disappears into the night..' She closed her eyes. 'And..what was that pain I felt? ...When he was walking away.. Oh..no..'

Her eyes flashed open and she clamped her hands over her mouth. 'Is it possible that I do love him? ...Yes..it is. I do love Syaoran.. Then..Then..' Hot tears of sorrow fell down her cheeks like rivers. 'It's all my fault.. It's all my fault why Syaoran became like this in the first place.. Because..I..rejected him.. When deep down inside..I loved him..'

Her hands tightened on her mouth. 'Because I was so stupid to not realize this feeling earlier I caused all of these horrible things to happen! I'm the bad person.. Not Syaoran... No, I'm the villian..'

Crying softly, she made her way back into Tomoyo's mansion and into her room. She locked the door shut and fell onto her bed. Sakura grabbed the pillow and cried out her emotions in it.



Please R&R. Arigato, minna-san!

Author Note: So, all you peoples happy now? It's the beginning of S&S implications..Sorta..I guess? @_@ Well, they kiss! Sakura realizes her feelings for Syaoran! Sheeze, isn't that good enough for now?? Should Sakura commit suicide? Or try to? I gots an idea.. If she trys to or not it doesn't really matter. ^ ^;;