Don't look at me with those eyes. Please... please turn away. The innocence glazed over those deep cobalt eyes skim the very depths of my internal fire. The things you do to me. You drive me closer to completion no matter how hard I push you away. My words and actions harsh, yet you treat me like gold. You test me both physically and mentally with your games. The games you play with my soul. You have a hold on me that's indescribable. Why won't you just let go? Find someone who will treat you with care and return the fragile love that you so willingly pass on to me. I can't understand how you're so willing to give everything up just for this lonely soldier. For that's all I am and ever will be. A soldier. Never will I be anything more. Yet when I look at you, I feel. For once in all my life I finally feel something that's more than skin deep. A wanting to live. Live on for you. I want to hold you when you cry and bring those tears to joy. I want to cloak you from reality so never will you hurt. Yet, hurt is all I'm able to do to you. The words I say aren't real. And though you laugh them off and cover your stained eyes with a mask of a brilliant and contagious smile, I know what's hidden beneath it all. The pain of too many concealed fears exiting my mouth. Never can I bring myself to admit how I care for you. Though in my dreams, I bring you close to me and never once do I let go until the sun rises. Some say a dream is just a distant reality. Yet reality is the one thing I want to hide you from. So I hide you from my love with sheltered distance. And watch you from afar and love you behind the shield I've casted. When you sleep, I quietly listen to how each shallow breath you take seems to whisper my name with desire. And though I whisper back, never will you hear me. Because as you sleep you see me as a sweet vision sent to you, calling your name tenderly. Never did you know that was me walking away, never again to look back.