Carefully , but fast , actually very fast her fingers run over the cold gleaming steel . Deep in a corner of her mind she was wondering how she got so used to this but with those thoughts a painful memory came dawn on her . For one second there was this unanswerable question :What if it hadn't happened 15 years ago ..... Would the same person sitting here in the semidarkness , fiddling around with this silver bullets .... She banned this train of thoughts , knowing that she'd have to concentrate on the coming task to return as successful as the times before . Regaining her professionality she zipped her vest and put on her metallised glasses and left the room , while she acted out the things planned this evening .