Reconciliation
Chapter 4 ~ It's All Coming Back To Me Now

AN: I'm in a writing mood. Read on and discover how I decided to end it. Yes, this is the end unless it gets a ton of reviews and I absolutely cannot ignore it. Plus, I doubt I could think of appropriate songs to use. I personally think this is really bad, but I was in a hurry. Warning, it's sappy yet sweet.

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Alanna pulled back from George's embrace. She needed someone to talk to her, soothe her and comfort her, but it was a bit too early after leaving Jon to start a new love affair.

"Can we please take everything slowly, George? You're a great man and I love you very much, but I think we should keep this relationship to strictly friendship. I've just ridden back from the desert after Jon asked me to marry him and I feel so confused. I'm being bombarded from every direction with things I don't feel I can handle right now. I know you have feelings for me, but I need some time to sort things out."

She tried to ignore the very hurt look in his eyes and steeled herself. It made her feel guilty to break George's heart, but it would be cruel to lead him on when she still loved Jon, even after their fight. "Yes of course Alanna, that's fine," he replied stiffly. "Would you care to join me for a meal?"

Alanna almost said yes, but stopped herself just in time. She had just admitted to herself that she still loved Jon even if he may not love her. She could try and ignore it, or push it to the back of her head, but deep down inside her heart, Alanna knew that it was true. Was he feeling the same way she was? She needed to find out!

"How about later? I just realized I have some unfinished business to take care of." Alanna realized that George would let her go running back to Jon even though he loved her because he valued her happiness over his own. That was the greatest sacrifice he could ever make and she loved him for it. Alanna reached over to him and gave him a peck on the cheek before turning around and saddling her horse yet again.

She took off at a gallop and waved backwards at George who was wearing a wistful expression on his face. How would she be able to find Jon? Her sixth sense told her that he wasn't at the Palace with his parents. Where would Jon be? With a resigned sigh she decided she would just have to look for him.

Her eyes scanned the alleyways and streets for a glimpse of him or his horse. Then her eyes locked on a tired looking figure slumped over at the side of a cobbled street. It looked like just another drunken ragamuffin but a closer inspection by Alanna's hawlike eyes revealed someone who looked a lot like Jon. Then she spotted his horse tied to a post nearby and she knew it must be him.

"Looking for someone?" she called out brightly and was rewarded by a smile when his head shot up instantly. Alanna dismounted and walked over to his side and sat down there.

She leaned her head on his shoulder and he slipped his arm around her waist lovingly. Alanna closed her eyes and breathed in the scent of his body. She missed it so much. Then she opened her eyes again and gazed for a long period of time into his. Neither of them said a word but they both knew that the damage done to their relationship was repaired. Their special bond was strong enough to withstand fights, seperation and loneliness.

"I missed you." Jon softly whispered into Alanna's ear. "I missed you too." she replied quietly. Then they kissed and everything was right again.

***There were nights when the wind was so cold.
That my body froze in bed if I just listened to it right outside the window.
There were days when the sun was so cruel.
All the tears turned to dust and I knew my eyes were drying out forever.***

***I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how.
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made.
But when you touch me like this, and you hold me like that.
I just have to admit that it's all coming back to me now.
When I touch you like this, and if I hold you like that,
It's so hard to believe but it's all coming back to me now.***

***There were moments of gold, there were flashes of light.
There were things I'd never do again,
But then they'd always seemed right.
There were nights of endless pleasure,
It was more than any lovers in love.
Baby, if I kiss you like this, and if you whisper like that.
It was lost long ago but it's all coming back to me.
If you want me like this, and if you need me like that.
It's so hard to resist and it's all coming back to me now.***

***Thought you were history with the slamming of the door,
And I made myself so strong again somehow.
And I never wasted any of my time on you, since then.
But I have to admit that it's all coming back to me now.***